when lucas asks him âwhat did you think of me when you first saw me in the foyerâ and eliott replies âi thought âheâs afraid of the darkââ which, in reference to polaris, translates to âi thought you were the hero of my storyâ
the thing about lucas and eliott is that. they just make each other smile? so much? like whenever theyâre in each otherâs presence they end up with these smiles on their lips, in their eyes, coming from their soul
so @uannsett and i were discussing skam fr as people do and we came to the conclusion that like. you know how throughout episode 9, lucas is very much confused about how eliott feels/doesnât feel about him. and during that episode he finds the polaris account but he canât quite solve the riddle. but then. in the last clip. he gets a text from eliott? that allows him to solve it?? and he finds the account AND. as he goes through the drawings he gets these FLASHBACKS of all their MOMENTS. and?? the latest drawing is about the tunel and eliott is there and heâs alone and thereâs no light? and it was posted moments ago and lucas understands that heâs there and he goes to see him and heâs the one? who turns on a light? and as opposed to the drawing, there is light and eliott is not alone? and there is no more darkness and no more fear?
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âDo you remember the first time you tried to do this for me?â Evenâs voice was low, hint of a smile coloring the edges of his words. âIt was our first New Yearâs Eve together, I think. It took you at least three tries.â
âI donât know what youâre talking about,â Isak said, keeping his voice as level as he could. âI just remember doing a flawless job.â
He tightened the knot heâd made and folded the collar down around the tie. He could just feel the ridge of Evenâs collarbone under the fabric of his shirt, before his hands dropped down to his sides.
Even brought a hand to his neck, running his fingers along the places Isak had touched moments before. âIn the end,â he agreed. âAnd just now, too. Youâve really come a long way.â
Isak looked up, the way Evenâs eyes ensnared him almost immediate. They were close, closer than heâd anticipated. He hadnât stepped back yet, though he maybe should have.
(Not that heâd ever had a good idea of what should have really meant, when it came to Even.)
there was a kind of fair in my neighborhood this weekend so i went with my little cousins and we were there tonight, and one of them whoâs 6 sees a shooting star and she pulls on my hand to tell me that she did, and i tell her that thereâs a meteor shower currently, and she asks me "like a shower on your head?" and i tell her that no, itâs just there are more than usual because shooting stars are usually very rare and sheâs like "oh, are they dangerous?" and i tell her that theyâre not, theyâre far away from us. and so she then asks "are they healthy?" which just makes me smile and i tell her that you could say that, because you can make a wish when you see one like when you blow your candles on your birthday and then sheâs like "oooh" and she nods. and then she just gives me a side hug and tells me "i love you"
the thing about that almost kiss is that there was so much build up, so much leading up to it. it wasnât casual, it wasnât random. it was weeks in the making
i think in the previous episode, when they were hanging out at evenâs place, isak let himself believe that something might happen. because he assumed even was single. and i think he let himself assume that even was interested in boys, and in him (he wouldnât let himself think about that too much, not explicitly, but that seed was planted in his head) because, yeah, there was something there. but then sonja came. and isak had snapped back to reality. and this idea of what he and even were and could be that was starting to grow in his mind fell apart. and from that moment on, isak couldnât assume anything, couldnât let himself assume anything. he couldnât let himself get his hopes upÂ
so even comes to the pre-grame. he comes with sonja. boyfriend and girlfriend. okay. but then, the call your girlfriend scene happens, and even looks at him like that and itâs back, the feeling that there is something there. there is definitively something there. but then itâs over, the music is over. even is still looking at him but heâs getting ready to leave. with his girlfriend. and once again isak canât let himself just assume things. he doesnât know whatâs going through evenâs mind, and at that point isak isnât certain or confident enough to just confront him about what is happening
and then even joins isak in the kitchen. and isak is genuinely surprised by it because he thought even was going to leave with sonja and emma. and isak didnât want to take a taxi with the three of them because that was definitively not something he could handle right now. he thought he would have to join them later, and spend the rest of the evening with emma, the girl he was not interested in, keeping up this facade, and once again be confronted with the fact that even had a girlfriend. and he needed to be away from that for a while. or he probably was thinking of excuses to skip the party. but none of that matters in the end. because in the end even is here, in his kitchen. they are alone
and there is so much going through isakâs mind at that point, but mainly what is he doing. even didnât leave the apartment with sonja, but there he is talking about the fact that theyâve been together for years, telling isak that theyâre drifting apart but he canât leave her. and isak is thinking why is he telling me this. and i think at that point isak is hurt, and confused and frustrated. itâs all so much but he canât say anything. itâs all bottled up. heâs tense
but then even makes that stupid joke about sonjaâs aluminium leg and heâs laughing and teasing isak and their whole dynamic from the previous week is back and isak canât resist it. he really likes even, he likes him so much. but he canât do anything about it. in that moment, isak is powerless, and vulnerable. so he stands there, looking down, not making a move. so even makes the move. even takes the lead and is about to seal the deal. finally. but then noora comes. and it doesnât happen
the thing is that it doesnât matter, really, in the grand scheme of things. the act itself doesnât happen. their lips donât touch. but the intention was there, from both parts. even expressed unspoken words. i want to kiss you. and isak agreed. i want you to kiss me
thereâs something about evenâs little nod in this sceneÂ
because even knows. heâs not oblivious, he notices the way isak reacts to his presence, to him. heâs been noticing him for weeks, weeks before they first met. he saw the way isak was when he came over to his place the previous week, he saw the look in his eyes, the light in his eyes, he saw the way he smiled and laughed, he noticed the changes in his voice. he probably memorized his facial expressions and the things he said last friday. kept replaying them in his mind every single day, in class, before going to bed, when he was with other peopleÂ
earlier in that episode, when he came to give isak his snapback, in a matter of seconds, he understood that isak hadnât told his friends he had gone to his place, he understood that he didnât want them to know. because he sees and understands. he remembered the cardamom on the cheese toasties five weeks later, how they were sitting on the floor of his room as they ate them, he remembered isak saying he had a drop of water in his throat, he remembered isak talking about parallel universes. because he pays such close attention to isak and the way he looks and moves and speaks and all the things he says
do you think that even, who saw this boy on the first day of school, who was probably looking forward to seeing him even when it was just at school, in public, in rooms and hallways with other students, would not notice how isak was acting? notice the way heâs been looking at him the moment he showed up at his place for the pregame? the way he starred at him when he kissed sonja and looked at him straight in the eyes? how tensed he was as he told him about sonja and how theyâd been together for years? the intonation of his voice as he said his okayâs (been together since we were 15. okay. canât dump her. okay). do you think that even whoâs been desperately trying to spend time alone with this boy he was falling for would not notice the smile that spread all over isakâs face when he realized that even was messing with him, the smile he was trying to stop it, in vain? do you think he would not sense his attraction to him? the vulnerability?
of course even notices. and since he came to see isak in his kitchen, heâs only been kidding, pretending not to be serious. but with that little nod, he grows more serious. with that little nod, itâs like heâs saying i see you, i see it, iâve seen you for a while. itâs reassuring. itâs okay. itâs understanding. i know, isak. i know. me too
i just went to the drugstore to get a bottle of sparkling water and i saw this guy i went to high school with, and we barely ever spoke to each other but in my yearbook he wrote me "youâre a good person who only deserves good things" and those words meant so much to me back then and still do up to this day because i remember them exactly. and the guy was working there, and heâs in second year of pharmacy school and he seemed to be doing so well and i was just really happy for him, and he also deserves only good things in life
i was almost late for work this morning and i was running up the stairs in the subway and i tripped on one step and from the corner of my eye i *saw* this dude sort of reach out for me to help me get up but 1) i was late and 2) i get lowkey embarassed when i trip so i just quickly got up and finished climbing up the stairs, but then i wanted to thank him but i was too fast and there were too many people so i couldnât just like. turn around and thank him. but anyway all day iâve been thinking that i hope nice dude who wanted to help me get up had a really nice day