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Wet baby

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… No one’s gonna say anything about this legendary camerawork?

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Dear K

I hate that youll leave

Im sorry but its true

I hate that I’ll feel black and blue without you

Im not sure if its permanent or fiction

Not sure whether i should wait or mention how much ill miss and love your addiction to anime . to loud laughter and the snowy days that you shared to me

How your memories of old ways have impacted me soulfully

I just hate that your love for me fucked me up and twisted me to fall in love harder than you ever would for yourself

I hate that youll move on to someone new and true

Who will cook for you

Disgusted that you’ll tell them what you havent told me

Share with them what you apprehended with me

Explain to them what you never explained to me

Ill be a memory

You’ll be soaring through your dreams

Achieving your goals

You’ll be happy and in contempt with yourself

Ill just be someone that you mention to your kids while they ask you about love and heart break

Ill be gone

You’ll be you.

Ill be scared

You’ll be out there breathing the air and becoming an heir to your own thrown

Ill just want every thing

But my every thing is leaving

So ill be here

Black and blue

Bleeding

Wanting you.

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Dear K

I hate that youll leave

Im sorry but its true

I hate that I'll feel black and blue without you

Im not sure if its permanent or fiction

Not sure whether i should wait or mention how much ill miss and love your addiction to anime . to loud laughter and the snowy days that you shared to me

How your memories of old ways have impacted me soulfully

I just hate that your love for me fucked me up and twisted me to fall in love harder than you ever would for yourself

I hate that youll move on to someone new and true

Who will cook for you

Disgusted that you'll tell them what you havent told me

Share with them what you apprehended with me

Explain to them what you never explained to me

Ill be a memory

You'll be soaring through your dreams

Achieving your goals

You'll be happy and in contempt with yourself

Ill just be someone that you mention to your kids while they ask you about love and heart break

Ill be gone

You'll be you.

Ill be scared

You'll be out there breathing the air and becoming an heir to your own thrown

Ill just want every thing

But my every thing is leaving

So ill be here

Black and blue

Bleeding

Wanting you.

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I’m wasted

Wasteful

Not depressed

Just ready for death

Immune to my surroundings

Traditions and what not

Beyond lost is not the words I can use

I can use sighs and swollen eyes from pollen in my flower bed

Im ready to drift into the abyss

Its time I move on in a sense of no return

Academics

Careers

Love

Tasteful lies and sad eyes

Lots of empty stares

Empty words and promises

I’m decent at detecting my own bullshit but thats it

Can’t build a degree off of that shit

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I'm wasted

Wasteful

Not depressed

Just ready for death

Immune to my surroundings

Traditions and what not

Beyond lost is not the words I can use

I can use sighs and swollen eyes from pollen in my flower bed

Im ready to drift into the abyss

Its time I move on in a sense of no return

Academics

Careers

Love

Tasteful lies and sad eyes

Lots of empty stares

Empty words and promises

I'm decent at detecting my own bullshit but thats it

Can't build a degree off of that shit

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Galila

Stars forge a path for my awakening.

The milky way galaxy is the line I walk when I feel infinite.

I sense something move above me. I look up.

All colors from the spectrum begin to fly around Jupiter.

As if it is the northern lights of color here..

At the end of the milky way galaxy is a daisy. The pedals are small shrimps. I pick one off, each by the leg.

My ears are full of the ocean sounds.

I hear depth and bubbles of the dark sea.

Theres no wind in this universe? Why must I feel the cold of a forgotten memory?

From pretty to frightning, I lose my balance.

Falling to the earths end, I smack hard against the black meadow.

I’m awakened into reality sitting in traffic ….

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Galila

First and last I love you

I knew I was fucked the minute I felt a weight lift off my shoulders when you exhaled the words I love you .

I felt the infitnie sigh of “my god he really said it”

Swooning inside me

Arms around me

So much He continues saying so at every other thrust.

When intoxicated, ones mind often blocks out the comprehension of lies and the truth ultimately comes sprawling out.

I couldn’t help but want to devour his Soul

His fear and vulnerability

I cannot help for what the future may hold

Although never being selfish I do hope that this one sticks.

My starting over isn’t ideal

How can I move on after meeting the one

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Galila

Theres a reoccurring pattern with love.

I keep thinking that I see stars with you.

No fireworks like everyone claims to see when in love.

With this one I feel the same. I can be the same. He is very indifferent. He is saying all the right things but at the wrong time. I cant fall in love with someone so young. I have to start my life right?

I promised not to marry early. No kids early. With him. I want him around longer. I need him around longer.

After all he is saying all the right things at the wrong time.

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Galila

The old feeling of loneliness has returned. Similar embracive feeling. Recollection of the hole came back.

I’m at an unease. Gloom has begun to set in.

Stress and frivolous commodities are still the same.

Instead of sharing with the one, I’m forced to only speak to the figure who comes at night again.

I’m for sure will never be left by it. Clear hollow eyes and all.

Real or fake. I’m listened to and hugged EVERY Time when water falls from my eyes.

familiarity is inviting but why must I feel gloom when its around?

Even after ive shed my stress. Why must I still feel this awful void like before?

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Galila

You’re nothing like the others

Not an ass

Not a jerk

Not even a sour taste in my mouth

Not only do you understand my pain my proud stubborness. My strength and other

You understand my boundaries. My mentality.

You know I dont shy away from challenge like most. You know me inside. From what scares me to what I adore.

You kinda somewhat….. Rescued me in a way …. I wasnt at my best before but now (cuz of you) I’m as happy as I was in back home.

Your lips. Arms. Nose and all. I love how you are. Your look. Your dumb ass sarcasm to your cheerful mood.

I do love how you’re passionate about things that fuck you up.

I love how you care so damn much. its breath taking how much. I didn’t know someone could care like you do.

Your protection. Words of courage and salvation.

Your mind reminds me of the silent snow filled nights. Where the flakes are falling and no one is around .only to sleep the night away. 

Serene. Quiet. Soothing. I feel safe when I’m in the snow filled silent nights. I’m happy I’m myself around you.

I’m just glad youre here 😵🌌😵

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Galila

Older generation

“What would people think”

Dress like you have self respect she says

Dress like people are watching

Dress as if you’re ashamed of your body

Cover your chest men will stare

Cover your derriere.

she looks skimpy in that Says father

Wear a jacket says mother

Youre not wearing this

Cover your bra strap

I see your butt hanging out

Dont wear that to the office

Why do I have to dress a certain way.

How come my mouth is duct tapped and my voice was taken by the villain ursela disguised as you

How come I am bending to every way you want me to be?!

I’m tired of being labeled this or that

Being called a slut only with different words

I’m back to square 1….. Im feeling like I’m nothing

As if the stars arent aligned with me anymore

I’m ridiculed like a kid again

Just when I am at my high peek of finally not being insecured about my body

My face

You dragged me back with one ounce of your dimishing pride

I’m back to feeling ugly

Back to not wanting to be myself but becoming something you want

Again

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Galila

I take responsibility because I lie to the only people that rescued me.

I’m a liar to them but not to all.

I’m a liar because they are fearing to me.

I’m a liar because I refuse to let their expectations down.

I’m a liar because I’m a coward

I’m a liar because nothing I do matters

I’m a liar because its the only easy thing to do

I’m a liar because I know I’m good at it

Its the only thing I’m good at

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Galila

I take responsibility because I lie to the only people that rescued me.

I’m a liar to them but not to all.

I’m a liar because they are fearing to me.

I’m a liar because I refuse to let their expectations down.

I’m a liar because I’m a coward

I’m a liar because nothing I do matters

I’m a liar because its the only easy thing to do

I’m a liar because I know I’m good at it

Its the only thing I’m good at

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Galila

I take responsibility because I lie to the only people that rescued me.

I’m a liar to them but not to all.

I’m a liar because they are fearing to me.

I’m a liar because I refuse to let their expectations down.

I’m a liar because I’m a coward

I’m a liar because nothing I do matters

I’m a liar because its the only easy thing to do

I’m a liar because I know I’m good at it

Its the only thing I’m good at

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Galila

I haven’t felt physically sick after a break up .

Not eating. Waking up earlier than usual . not knowing how to finish this piece of writing