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oh my goodness im at my peak patience na talaga tangina ng magulang ko napakamatapobre sobrang sama ng ugali nagkapera lang sila ang baba na ng tingin sa ibang tao what the fuck sana karma sila sana bawiin lahat ng pinaghirapan nila wala man lang sila malaksakit sa kapwa fuck them i dont fucking care if they die alone they deserve to suffer because of how they treat other people theyre the worst kind of people i hate them so much i cant wait to leave them and never look back basta ako i’ll do my best to be a good person, i’ll keep myself grounded, i’ll help those who are struggling, i’ll be nothing like my parents for the benefit of this world sa panahon na kindness ans generosity pinakakailangan ang ipapakita nila ay pagsasarili at pagmamaliit sa iba they are such horrible people i cant even deal w them anymore from now on i will spend ZERO energy listening to them wala na kong pake ano opinion nila i know for myself what is right bahala sila mamatay sa lungkot kasalanan nilang bakit gustong gusto ko na sila layasan tangina nila di nila ko pagmamay-ari di ako prisoner sa bahay na ‘to iiwan ko talaga kayo tangina niyo buti na lang di mabuo buo anak nila laki ng gastos nila riyan pasalamat sila theres one less person who’s going to hate their fucking guts and resent them their whole lives oh my god why do u allow these people to exist mga cancer sa lipunan umikot na lang mundo nila sa pera nila nakalimot na kung san nanggaling

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prolly not a good idea to talk to her at this hour...... napupunta na sa convo about happy memories in the past my goddddd :(((((((( nothing brings back 2015 memories like music from Dent May, Day Wave, Atlas Genius, Saint Motel, Jungle Giants I HATE IT SO MUCCCHHHH

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after sooooo loooonggggg we’re finally talking again :(((((((( ive missed her so much, like in a friendly way :(((((((( im glad she’s doing okay back in her hometown :(((((((( thats all i needed to know, i wouldnt have to worry about her anymore, i hope this settles my worries at the back of my mind :(((((( all thanks to a linkedin invite lol

also it made me super happy she randomly shared her old fave song rn (cold cold man by saint motel) which is what we listened to back when we were still close lol

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Kim Tae-ri and Kim Min-hee behind the scenes of The Handmaiden (2016)

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The Handmaiden (2016) dir. Park Chan-wook // Portrait of a Lady on Fire (2019) dir. Céline Sciamma

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films with gay asian main characters

Fire - (1996, dir. Deepa Mehta) Indian-Canadian drama centering around Sita and Radha, two indian women trapped in their loveless marriages. Sita is married to the cruel and unfaithful Jatin while Radha is married to his brother Ashok, an extremely religious and conservative man. When the women realize how similar their situations actually are, the begin to bond and grow closer. It was one of the first mainstream bollywood films to depict homosexuality!

Happy Together - (1997, dir. Wong Kar-wai) Hong Kong romantic drama following gay couple Ho Po-wing and Lai Yiu-fai as they travel to Argentinia in a last ditch effort to save their failing, turbulent relationship. Every time things seem to start looking up, they fall back into the same toxic, abusive patterns. The films stars Leslie Cheung, who was actually an openly bisexual man.

I can’t think straight - (2008, dir. Shamim Sarif) independent romantic drama about a london based Palestinian bride-to-be who falls in love with the British-Indian muslim woman currently dating her best (and male) friend. The two lead actresses also star in another lesbian film together, directed by the same woman, “The world unseen.”

Saving Face - (2004, dir. Alice Wu) American rom-com focusing on Wil, a young Chinese-American surgeon, her dancer girlfriend, and her single and pregnant mother. Wil is closeted and hasnt yet told her mom that she’s gay. While her mother makes plans to set her up with sons of friends, Wil is inexplicably drawn to a female dancer.

Spider Lilies - (2007, dir. Zero Chou) Taiwanese drama film following a webcam girl who develops an almost obsessive fascination with a female tattoo artist and the large spider lily tattoo splayed across her arm.

The Handmaiden - (2016, dir. Park Chan-wook) South Korean lesbian revenge thriller loosely based off the novel “fingersmith” by Sarah Waters. Definitely my favorite film on this, its stunning. Set in 1930s Korea, a Korean con man devises a plot to liberate a Japanese heiress out of her inheritance, and ropes an orphaned female pickpocket into helping him. But what happens when she grows closer to the gentlewoman than she originally expected? 

Tropical Malady - (2004, dir. Apichatpong Weerasthakul) Thai psychological drama in two parts. Part 1 follows a romance between two men and part 2 tells that tale of a soldier lost in the woods, haunted by a shaman spirit. Keng is a soldier stationed in a rural Thai village. While out in the fields one day, he meets a local man named Tong. 

Two Weddings and a Funeral - (2012, dir. Kim-Jho Gwangsoo) South Korean rom-com telling the story of two young doctors, a lesbian woman and gay man, that marry so the lesbian can adopt a child with her lover and to appease the gay man’s parents. When the parents begin to get too involved with their life, their scheme and the protection afforded to them because of it threatens to fall apart. 

Yes or No - (2010, Sarasawadee Wongsompetch) The first Thai lesbian film with a butch/tomboy lead character! Pie is a respectable, conventional girl from an upper class family with conservative values. Kim is about as far from conventional as it gets, so much so that Pie initially requests a room change from her when she discovers they’ll be living together during college. 

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i love my girlfriend very, very much, with all my heart and soul

but sometimes (almost everyday) i still think about people ive been with in the past..... and how we dont talk anymore, bc i was so stupid and immature a few years ago, i rly wish things ended up on a better note... but im definitely very happy for them, im happy for myself as well... tho quiet moments alone still haunt me... so much so that ive been checking up on her a little bit more often lately... i just wanted to see how she’s doing, what’s she’s up to, where she’s working, etc. but theres nothing online, it’s like she just disappeared... idk why it affects me, maybe bc at one point i rly liked being friends with her, despite all the shit that happened, but now it’s like we have never even met, like she was just someone i conjured up in my mind, like someone thats constantly in my dreams and then u wake up and tell urself, “i swear it felt so real”... and ofc theres the other person that i always ask forgiveness for from the universe with how the way i treated him... it’s something that creeps into my mind all the time... the saying that you will always ask yourself that “what if” is true.. that some things wont go away for a very long time even if youre mentally in a different place already.... idk but i dont think my girlfriend should ever know about these, no harm no foul and anw, it’s just musings i wont rly act on them... 

maybe im still looking for them in my thoughts bc im terribly guilty for all the things i did, they didnt deserve that version of me, i could have been way better... im still hoping things will change between us, in a friendly ofc... god knows how much i regret those days that i didnt think about consequences

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rich people should get robbed at least once a week

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do you ever meet a really cool girl and hope she’s gay? not even to date her but as a service to the community 

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my favorite thing to do is not talk

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Me as the sole survivor of the apocalypse, commenting "last" on every YouTube video.

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me, at the beach: i wish i had a gf i could bring here :/

me, at the movies: i wish i had a gf i could bring here :/

me, at the food store: i wish i had a gf i could bring here :/

me, sitting on my couch doing literally nothing: i wish-

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C’mon, someone had to do it

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drew this based off of @incorrect-overwatch-quotations ‘s post because i was tickled xD

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Heaven is a place on earth

…best Black Mirror episode ever TT_TT

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Hotheaded Prince Zuko in Book 3 with his dramatic outbursts and that one time he was emo.