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anti-binge guide:

~ read this list 20 times ~

count to 100 very slowly

talk on the phone with someone

clean up something gross (bye I never did this one to be honest, lmao. no thank yo)

go out on a walk

pour salt over craving food (also a popular one I never did. a bitch just didn’t like to waste salt or food like that. i say that while heavily relying on number 10 🤡)

make a list of triggers + avoid them // find low cal fibrous, filling alternatives

go outside and do 20 pushups + 100 jumping jacks (the jiggling was enough of an anti-binge lmao); bonus, do in front of a mirror (this is just cruel but also effective so idk yall, take your gander)

take a shot of ACV (LIGHT IT UPPPP lmao, pretend you’re clubbing but the vodka is vinegar and rather than feeling buzzed and happy, you’re miserable and desperate. but babes, we gotta romanticize this, so party it up anyways lmao)

sleep

c/s (wastes food, but worked wonders for me. just make sure you have at least a bite at the end, and rinse the mouth, but don’t brush to preserve that enamel)

listen to a podcast / read a book

watch something gory

write in your diary

th1nsp0

make a food planner for next week

calculate the deficit yoo’ll maintain for the week and the lbs progress if you don’t binge (it feels like a reward then, to refrain)

online window shop for clothes you want to fit in

dance / go on a run

take a shower/bath

do some self care. attend to those emotional needs rather than using food as an emotional crutch. sis is not your therapist.

chew on ice (i was never this desperate lmao)

plan a controlled metabolism day and work the foods you want to binge on now in that day to practice moderation and portion control while also reinforcing discipline

STOP if you have already started. you don’t have to continue. you’re okay. you still have control. stop now and prove it to yourself.

learn some biology (human anatomy, physiology, etc)

✨some affirmations✨:

~ repeat these to yourself for as long as it takes for the urge to binge to go away ~

food does not hold power over me

i don’t actually want this

*this food* actually really grosses me out

i don’t even like to eat

i’m going to put this away because i don’t need it and i listen to my needs

i am such an intuitive eater. i know when to stop eating naturally

its so easy for me to not eat

not eating is so easy

i take care of my emotional needs rather than numbing them away with food

food won’t make me feel better. self care will

i take care of myself.

i am committed to taking care of myself

i don’t even want to eat anymore.

i have no appetite. i never do

this food taste so gross and it lingers in the mouth. why would i want to eat something like that

i naturally crave fruits and vegetables.

i naturally eat healthy

i feel so much lighter and happier when i don’t eat

i feel better now that i said no to *this food*

i don’t really need food

i am actually really thirsty. i need water, not food

i am okay

i have control over myself and my body because i listen to it and take of it

i have discipline because i am naturally built for this

i am okay

i will be okay

this urge is not the end of the world. i don’t have to give in

just because i have a desire, that doesn’t compel me to fulfil it. i have more self control than that

i am okay.

i will be okay.

i am strong

i am okay

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Reblogging because it's a shiny potato

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When I’m small I’ll be able to sit on sinks and counters without the fear of breaking them. I’ll be able to lean without my stomach resting on the surface. I’ll be dainty and beautiful. So small we could fit three girls in front of one mirror. I will taste the glory of thin.

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Weigh in,

Sw : 76.6kg

Cw : 88.8kg

Gw : 85kg

Ugw : 58kg

Embarrassment doesn't even cover the spectrum of feelings I'm experiencing right now.

#@na vent #@nor3xia #ana journey #b0dy ch3ck #4norexi4

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Back here because I feel so helpless. I'm weighing in tomorrow and I'm terrified. My wrists and back are absolutely fucked up by all this extra weight I'm carrying. I stopped drinking the lithium because I can't afford to gain any more weight. I'm too depressed to work out but I know that I have to force myself.

#@na vent #@nor3xia #ana journey #d3athsp0 #4norexi4 #i will lose weight

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Some th!nspø

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chexx$p0

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I can't wait to see my rib and chest bones again 😍 I've recently figured out that I hate having large breasts 😟

#@na vent #@nor3xia #4norexi4 #tw ana diary #ana journey #ed but not sheeran

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Sw: 86.2kg

Cw: 85.1kg

Gw: 80kg

Ugw: 58kg

Progress I guess. We got a stationary bike so that I don't have to go out for walks because yay social anxiety 😒.

#@nor3xia #@na vent #b0dy ch3ck #ana journey #ed but not sheeran

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Sw: 86.2kg

Gw: 80kg

Ugw: 58kg

Fuck. Just. Fuck.

Went from 71 to 86 all while on Lithium. How do I fix this? I feel so helpless 😞

#@na vent #@nor3xia #b0dy ch3ck #ed but not sheeran

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I wish something bad would happen to me so that all the people who have been mean to me can at least feel sorry for once.

#b0n3sp0

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shut up. count your calories.

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fuck,in a week i just lose 0.5 kg

i'm just a whale trying to lose weight but can't, i better go to exercise and try to fast (even if i'm not capable💀😹)

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Just to be clear

I hate MY body. I don’t hate a n y o n e else’s body, I honestly think all bodies are beautiful except mine. My obsession with losing weight has nothing to do with anyone else.

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Just to remind me what I am

#@nor3×14 #@nor3xia #@na vent #ed but not sheeran

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T worded a second time. I was gonna weigh in today anyway

Sw - 76.6kg

Cw - 72.8kg

Gw - 70kg

Ugw - 58kg

I'm down 0.6kg. I want to reach my gw by the end of the month, fingers crossed

#@nor3xia #@na vent #i want to be weightless #@nor3×14