I can’t even cry why is my heart so tormented I don’t want to feel like this anymore
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I wish I had someone to talk to words can not express how badly I need to speak about everything all the things I’m too scared to talk to even those close to me about
about how I want to be hurt and bruised and beat and torn apart I want someone to yell at me and tell me I’m terrible and ugly I am about how I feel so deeply attached to my daydreams and I can’t physically process a world where they aren’t true I wish I had a boy my boy my own boy one who I can talk to and will love me and tell me I’m awful and never leave me. I always feel like I can’t breathe and I don’t know why why why why why why why I want to scream I want to run as far as I physically can and hope someone takes pity on me and saves me from my life I can’t go on and I don’t want to im this close I’m this close im this close
and the fact I could never let anyone know who I actually am as a person and a human being hurts so much. I will never be able to truly connect with someone because of the person I’ve forced myself to be. The person that people actually like. Even then I’m still rejected no matter how much I change I will never be good enough for anyone or anything and I want to give up. I want to move away and never speak to anyone but God not even my family.
please save me please someone save me please save me
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