survivingcocsa

[survivingcocsa]

my abuse is not good enough if that makes sense. my abusers get more sympathy than me bc of who they are.

#tw cocsa #tw csa #tw emotional manipulation #tw emotional abuse

[survivingcocsa]

DARVO is a common tactics abusers use. I was gaslit by my csa/cocsa/emotional abusers for so many years and thought I was the abuser until I realized I was apologizing for them using DARVO all along which is common to happen that way as well. im sorry about what u been through, op, u didnt deserve any of that.

why is it so fucking common recently for rap!sts/abusers to counter accuse whenever they’re finally called out?

“actually, they did all that to me.”

both of my rpsts have claimed that i was the one that rped them in the exact way they rped me in an attempt to silence me.

it is disgusting to have to sit and hear your abuser tear you down for what THEY did to YOU.

#tw csa #tw emotional manipulation #tw cocsa

[survivingcocsa]

they set me up to get hurt on purpose. it makes me feel physically ill thinking about it too much. just block it out.

#tw cocsa #tw csa #cocsa victim #cocsa vent

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I feel worthless its embarrassing I even think I'm allowed to utilize space around me.

#tw cocsa #tw csa #abuse survivor #childhood emotional abuse

[survivingcocsa]

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

YOU LIED TO ME!♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

[survivingcocsa]

The adults knew but they did nothing to help. They didn't want to look bad incase it got out

[survivingcocsa]

i want to be angry at you, but all i can do is hurt knowing what you must have gone through to teach you to do those things, as young as we both were.

[survivingcocsa]

Minors can't be pedophiles

Yes they can. Have you ever heard of COCSA?

A 16yr and an 11yr is definitely pedophilia despite the 16yr being a minor as well

[survivingcocsa]

I’m so easily influenced by how intense my emotions are bro. I have to make a conscious effort not to do something stupid. If I’m happy I’m ecstatic and prone to biting off way more than I have the energy to chew later. If I’m sad I’m miserable and I want to hide away and ghost everyone and stop taking care of myself. If I’m mad I’m seeing red and I want to lash out at everyone around me, probably to the point of irreversible damage. It’s only easy to be rational if I’m emotionless and feeling empty inside but then I don’t have the passion to do anything

[survivingcocsa]

that feeling where u need to burn all ur skin off. the disgusting, sickly feeling living inside ur flesh where u cant do anything else besides break down in tears. where the feeling of undressing urself can trigger feelings of shame and disgust like u need to hide urself. does anybody relate to me?

#tw csa #tw cocsa #survivingcocsa

[survivingcocsa]

I didn't know what it was but I knew if was wrong

[survivingcocsa]

they say making up lies is usually a conscious active choice. if I have no memory but I know there is something there and its just a gut feeling and the symptoms show up around the memory- or what little there is of it- then ik im not faking things.

#tw cocsa #tw csa vent

[survivingcocsa]

trying to figure out if it was really assault or I was just being dramatic

[survivingcocsa]

COCSA / CSA TW ahead

this is a side vent blog for my COCSA and CSA trauma I endured since I was a child. I was S. abused by both adults and other minors.

u can send vent asks anon or not up to u. vent about ur trauma relating to one of the following: cocsa, csa, csem, online nccsa, nccsa, nccocsa. if u dont know what the terms mean u can ask me or look them up in the tags usually only work with a "tw" or "cw" before or after the word.

#tw cocsa #tw csa #cw csa mention #twcocsa #survivingcocsa #tw nccsa #online nccsa #nccsa vent #tw nccocsa #tw csem

[survivingcocsa]

u took so much from me

#twcocsa #tw cocsa #cw cocsa #tw csa #cw csa mention #cocsa mention #side blog