ooooh I'm so happy that you made a part two!!!
poor poor baby dream!!! that sad wet cat of a man.
A continuation of the Widower Hob/Sex Worker Dream Christmas story. We shall all ignore it’s almost halfway through January. Ignorance is a bliss, after all.
Tw for this part: mentions of suicide (past, no details);
Hob tries not to fidget. It’s an useless endeavor, and he’s glanced at the clock so many times in the past hour he’s sure his neck muscles are gonna cramp and he’ll be stuck like that forever. When the clock above the bar turns to four pm, he sighs and taps the bar.
He hoped. And yet, here he is.
“I’m off, Rose,” he says, and Rose waves him off cheerfully. “Merry Christmas, love.”
“Same, Hob. Don’t worry, Daniel and I will lock up, go have a lovely night.”
Hob tries not to grimace at her words, and he picks up his messenger back and waves at his employees, putting on a cheerful smile that drops as soon as the pub door closes behind him.
He closes his eyes and mutters, “Idiot. You are such an idiot, Gadling.”
“On that, we can agree.”
Hob jumps and lets out a very undignified squeal. “Oh my god,” he says, hand pressed to his chest. “Do not sneak up on me like that.”
Dream just lifts a very unimpressed eyebrow. “I was literally just standing here.”
Hob finally gets his heart under control and actually looks at Dream. He looks beautiful in the dim lights from the street lamps, the wind brushing gently through his hair, his skin white like milk as he grips an old backpack. Hob smiles when he notices the new peacoat Dream is wearing, black and reaching down to his knees, collar pushed up. And then Dream’s words register.
“Wait, why were you standing out here in the cold? You could have come in.”
Dream’s shoulders pull up, and his gaze falls away. “I wasn’t sure if I— wanted to come.” He takes a deep breath, his mouth twisting into a grimace. “You sound like a thing too good to be true, Hob Gadling. And I don’t have the best track record with things like this.”
Hob’s heart trips and stutters.
“And yet here you are.”
Dream smiles, and Hob watches the beautiful curve of his cheek before he looks up. “I’ve always been good at making bad decisions.”
Hob laughs, and he would kick himself for how it sounds filled with soft relief, except he doesn’t feel bad about it at all.
“Let’s go, then,” he says, gesturing for Dream to follow him. “I live extraordinarily close.” He walks to the end of the building and rounds the corner, laughing when Dream gasps out, “You live in the pub?”
“Above it, actually. Perks of being the owner.”
Dream just hums and follows him up the stairs. Once the door is open and Hob steps in, turning on the lights, Dream hesitates in the doorway for one moment.
“Hey,” Hob says gently, until Dream looks up at him. “No expectations for tonight, all right. Promise.”
Dream holds his gaze as he takes a deep breath, and then he smiles. It seems to break the tension hanging off him, and he takes the last few steps inside.
“You can hang your coat there, as well as your backpack.”
“I’ll bring this with me, if it’s all right,” Dream says, gripping his backpack tighter and Hob nods quickly with a, “Yeah. Of course.” Dream’s grip on the backpack softens, and he nods as he avoids Hob’s eyes. He takes off his coat and hangs it on the wall, and then follows Hob down the hallway.
“So, this is my flat,” Hob says. “Bathroom is down the hallway if you wanna freshen up, and this is where the magic happens.” He laughs as they step into the open space living room and kitchen.
“Oh.” Dream blinks at the chaos.
“Yeah,” Hob says, scratching at his jawline with an embarrassed laugh. “So I started prepping for dinner this morning. I might have overdone it.”
Dream’s gaze slants towards him, but his lips twitch into a surprised smile, small but there. He places his backpack carefully on one of the dining table chairs, and then steps up to the kitchen island.
“You’re actually making dinner,” he says, voice so soft, surprise in a flush of his cheeks.
“Of course,” Hob says, frowning. “You thought I was lying.”
Dream shrugs, and it looks mechanical. “You paid me two hundred pounds to be here,” Dream says and finally looks back at Hob. “It is hard to believe it’s just for food.”
“Dream,” Hob says, and he lifts his hand, just the barely there caress over Dream’s left elbow. Dream doesn’t flinch, so that’s something. “I promise, this is just dinner and not a ploy to get you—alone, or anything. I promise.”
Dream tilts his head and stares for a long second, before he looks away. He takes a deep breath, and it’s beautiful to watch, the movement of his chest and the sudden relaxing of the lines of his body. Then he nods and says, “Is there anything I can help with?”
Hob lets out a breath, the rumble of anxiety dripping out of his chest.
“Can you chop?”
“Not that well.”
Hob smiles. “It’s fine, it doesn’t have to be pretty.”
Hob moves around the island, pushing the sleeves of his sweater past his elbows and turning on the kitchen tap to wash his hands.
“Fair warning,” Hob says with a small laugh. “This is not going to be a classic Christmas dinner.”
“I’m getting that feeling,” Dream says, but he sounds amused. When Hob turns around, Dream is playing with the packets of spices Hob’s left on the island.
“Yeah, well.” Hob starts pulling out pans and a muffin tin and leaving them on the counter, and then moves to the fridge. “Eleanor is— was Bulgarian.” He takes a deep breath, and pushes down the twitch of his heart at the mistake. Dream doesn’t pull attention to it, just waits for Hob to continue, and Hob clears his throat and says, “Anyways, she always insisted Eastern European food was better for big holidays and I had to agree. And my grandmother was Indian, so you can imagine it got weird around these parts.”
When he turns around, Dream is watching him closely, chin resting on his hand.
“Fusion cuisine is very trendy these days,” he says, a drawl to his voice, a smile on his eyes, and Hob laughs in delight.
“That makes it sound too fancy for what we’re doing here, but I’ll take it.” He pulls what he needs from the fridge, and pushes the door closed with his hip. “Oh, can I offer you anything to drink?”
Something shimmers over Dream’s expression. “I don’t drink,” he says, faltering for a moment. “Not anymore.”
“Fair enough,” Hob says. “I have hot chocolate and some fancy lemonade my friend Jo loves.”
Dream blinks, and then smiles, almost relieved. Hob tries to not think of why, of how many people maybe, probably, forced alcohol on Dream, lest he punch a wall. “Lemonade is good, thank you.”
The next half an hour goes by gently. Dream takes his job of prepping the food very seriously, a concentrated frown between his eyebrows as he cuts up the lamb in small cubes, while Hob flutters around the kitchen heating up the oven and making the pudding batter. He lets it cool in the fridge and gets started on the curry.
“I’ve never had curry for Christmas,” Dream says when Hob is frying the cinnamon, spices and mustard seeds in the pan.
“Oh,” Hob says. “I never even asked if you like it.”
Dream smiles. “I do,” he says. “There’s a small curry shop I go to some nights, close by. The owners are nice to me, and sometimes I get the leftovers from the kitchen.”
He says the last part quietly, like the idea of charity is embarrassing. Hob’s heart constructs, but he does not bring attention to it. He is convinced Dream would not appreciate it.
He clears his throat. “Is it the one with the ridiculous gargoyle figurines everywhere?” When Dream looks up at him in surprise, Hob laughs. “Abel, one of the owners, is a menace on pub trivia night. He’s a good chap.”
“He is,” Dream nods. “His brother is very grumpy, though.” He passes the cut up lamb to Hob who throws it in the pan, the meat immediately sizzling deliciously.
“He’s faking it most days,” Hob says with a laugh. “He volunteers at my friend's cat sanctuary every weekend and he wears cat ears when he does it. To make the cats feel at ease, he says.”
Dream laughs. Not a full on laugh, more a soft exhale that makes his nose scrunch. It is a good sound.
“Thank you for that information,” he drawls. “I will never be able to look that man in the eyes ever again.” He steps up close to Hob, nose working. “That smells amazing.”
“Tastes even better,” Hob says.
Dream hums. “Careful with your words, Hob Gadling. You keep raising my expectations.” He blinks at Hob slowly, and Hob stares at him with a small smile he can’t help. Dream’s eyes shine in the golden light of the kitchen, the most beautiful blue of summer flowers, and even if the dark smudges under his eyes are like the bruise of plums, there’s a healthy flush to his cheeks in the heat of the kitchen. Hob takes a deep breath, and there’s a spark of energy in the air.
He finds himself wanting to sway towards Dream, and he has to pull himself back with an inhale.
Dream looks away first, cheeks pink.
“Anything else I can help with?”
Hob has to blink himself away from his thoughts. “Pass the blender, please?” Dream nods and picks up the blender, passing it to Hob, who tips the premade mixture of spices, tomatoes and yogurt into the pan. He leans forward, inhaling the scent, and can’t help the smile.
“Oh, this is gonna be lovely, I just know it,” he says with a pleased laugh. “Now, let’s get those puddings.”
Dream leans his hip on the counter and takes a sip of his lemonade, watching as Hob almost burns his hand on the muffin tin as he stupidly tries to juggle both it and the batter. Another of those small laughs, and it almost makes up for the first degree burn. Hob tries not to think about it too much, focusing on getting the puddings into the oven.
“It ain’t Christmas without a kitchen burn.”
“Said every culinary genius,” Dream says, but he is smiling as he does, eyes sparkling.
“Blood, sweat and tears, love,” Hob shoots back. The endearment falls easily from his lips, too easily, and Dream’s eyes widen minutely. Hob feels his own cheeks heat, and he looks away with an awkward chuckle. “Anyway, we just have to let these cook, as well as the curry. Oh, I almost forgot.”
He goes to the fridge and pulls out the small pot he left there last night.
“Tonight’s special,” he says, bringing it to the counter and lifting the lid. Dream steps closer, peering into the pot curiously.
“Rolls?”
“Cabbage rolls, actually,” Hob says. “This was Eleanor’s specialty. There was no holiday without them, house rules. Our first Easter together, she spent an hour teaching me how to roll them perfectly. Said I needed to learn because she hates cooking but she loves food,” he laughs, and hates how it comes out just this side of tight, just this side of wet.
Silence falls over the kitchen, and Hob hates it, hates how tight his throat has gotten, when Dream speaks.
“She sounds like a remarkably smart woman.”
And Hob smiles, feels it shake on his face, but it’s warm, so very warm. “She was,” he says.
Dream sits down at the island, biting at his lip. “I’m sorry.”
Hob shakes his head, blinks the sting out of his eyes. “No worries. It’s fine. I was lucky to have her, and it’s been five years. I should be able to talk about her. She deserves to be talked about.”
Dream takes a deep breath, looking down at his lap. “Grief is a hard thing to let go of, is it not.” It is not exactly a question, and it is spoken with the kind of devastating quiet that makes Hob’s breath catch.
“Yeah,” he says. Dream looks back up at him, and his eyes are wide and sad, so Hob continues, “I’m sorry too.”
“For what.”
“For whoever you lost.”
Dream’s inhale is loud in the quiet kitchen, and his body goes as still as a mountain lake before an earthquake. For a moment, Hob thinks he’ll lash out, will get up and leave, but finally Dream blinks and breathes out, “Thank you.”
“Want to talk about it?” Hob asks gently. “It always helps me, when I— when the memories turn hard. To talk about her, about the good memories.”
Dream looks down, shaky fingers pulling at the label of the lemonade bottle. He takes a deep breath that seems to shake him to his core and says, “My youngest sister. She— took her own life. Three years ago.”
“Oh, I’m sorry.”
Dream shrugs, but it looks anything but casual. “She was always— my parents called her troubled, but that’s not true. She just saw the world in a way that was so very different from us,” he sighs, a sad smile curling his lips. “She was always a burst of color everywhere she went, and when she loved the world, she loved it fully. But sometimes…” he trails off, voice tender like the underbelly of a soft, scared animal. “What made her special made her beautiful. But it also made her so sad. And I— I wasn’t—“ His jaw tightens, and he shakes his head, blinking quickly. “Anyway. That is my story.”
Hob knows that there’s so much more left unsaid, but he doesn’t push. He’s sure that if he did Dream would either lash out, or crumble, and both those options make his stomach clench. So he takes a step forward and gently, so very gently, puts his hand over Dream’s.
Dream flinches, but he does not pull his hand away, just turns those sad, blue eyes towards Hob.
“I’m sorry.” Dream nods shakily, and lets Hob intertwine their fingers, and Hob goes on, “It’s hard to live without them, but I promise the grief gets easier to bear.”
“Has it gotten easier for you?”
“No,” Hob laughs wetly. “But I’m working on it. That’s what hope is for, isn’t it.”
Dream huffs out something that could be considered a laugh, and Hob holds his hand and smiles. The timer from the oven breaks the soft, weird tension that seems to be inching its way into every crack of his ribs. He pulls away hesitantly, and opens the oven, taking the tray out with a flourish.
“And I have not embarrassed myself as my puddings did not drop,” he says with a chuckle. “And yes, I realize that sounds too close to an euphemism, but I do not care, because my puddings look amazing.”
Dream rolls his eyes, a small smile curving his cheeks. The sadness from before lingers, in the tender sweep of his lashes, but his smile looks real.
“I will not make fun of your choice of words. This time.”
“Deeply appreciated,” Hob says. “Now, the curry needs some more time, but I think I can start warming up the cabbage rolls and gravy. Was gonna make my own but mine always sucks, so I stole it from the pub kitchen.”
“I shall find it in my heart to forgive this transgression.”
Hob shoots Dream a grin before he gets to work. Finally, when everything is on the stove, delicious fragrant scents filling the warm space, he turns back to Dream with a soft smile.
He takes a deep breath and says, “It’ll be five years this January.” When Dream’s eyes widen, he continues, “You shared your story, it’s only fair I share mine.”
“What happened to her?” Dream asks, and then cringes. “I’m sorry, I should not—“
“It’s okay. It was a car accident, a drunk driver crashed into her car,” Hob says. He swallows past the knot in his throat, feels his breath turn shaky and pushes it down. He turns back to the stove and sighs. “I used to teach, before. University. It was my dream and I worked hard at it, too hard actually. That Christmas, I was too busy with work, always too busy.”
He takes a deep breath to keep the anger at bay. It’s always like this. The sadness that turns sharply into devastating anger. Thankfully, he’s gotten better at pushing it down, at breaking himself out of that spiral.
“Her sister was pregnant and she wanted to spend the holidays at home. I didn’t go with her because— fuck, I can’t even remember what I thought was so important at work that I needed to stay here. Isn’t that just fucked up?”
He means it as a self pitying, rhetorical question, but Dream just gives him a look that breaks around the edges, so much understanding in the lines of his eyes. Hob’s heart breaks with a newfound bittersweet pain.
“Hindsight is always a painful revelation,” he says, and Hob wants to step closer, wants to hug him, wants to drown the understanding in Dream’s eyes because no one deserves it.
“It is,” Hob says instead, a sad smile. “Anyways, that’s my story.”
Dream holds his gaze and finally says, “I suddenly understand why you insisted on having Christmas dinner with a whore.” His mouth snaps shut as soon as the words are out, eyes widening as he cringes. “Oh. I apologize. I didn’t—“
He doesn’t get far because Hob bursts into laughter, loud and too amused. When Dream still stares at him, he laughs harder, tears gathering at the corners of his eyes.
“Sorry. Sorry, love, I didn’t mean to laugh,” he says, cheeks hurting from his grin. “But you do have a point.”
Dream’s lips twitch, a slow smile, a little bit hesitant so Hob shrugs, still smiling and says, “You did say I was fucked in the head. Might as well live up to it.”
“It was not a challenge,” Dream says with an eye roll. It still looks fond though, and Hob’s chest does a funny little twitch, a feeling he can’t name curling itself right between his lungs. He huffs out a laugh, and looks away from the beautiful curve of Dream’s cheeks.
He turns to the stove, stirring the curry until he’s satisfied with the consistency and says, “Mind setting the table? Plates in the top cupboard, ustensila in the last drawer.”
He checks up on the rolls, and taste tests the gravy as Dream moves around at the table. The clinking of tableware, the quiet shuffling footsteps around him, these are all sounds that ring in the back of his skull like a long missed memory, and he shakes his head out of that particular revelry. It is a dangerous road to walk down, even if it sounds so familiar.
He busies himself with warming up some naan he spent the evening before making, along with the cabbage rolls. He lied to himself all night he was not stress cooking, even as Eleanor’s laughter rang in the back of his skull like the soft ring of a wind chime.
Ten minutes later, he’s bringing everything to the table, proud of the selections of food, happy to offer Dream a meal, especially when Dream’s face seems to light up from within at the offering.
“Oh,” Hob says, noticing the origami birds that sit on both their plates. Dream must have used the napkins for them, and it’s adorable. “These are amazing.”
Dream just shrugs, but he’s smiling. “It is silly.”
“Hey, I love silly,” Hob says as he sits down, picking up his own paper napkin turned bird. “Is this a raven?” Dream nods, looking pleased. “I am going to keep this, just so you know. He is brilliant.”
Dream looks away, but his ears turn pink. Hob has to tear his eyes away so he won’t say something stupid.
“Anyway, dig in,” he says. “Hope you enjoy it.”
Dream stares at the food in front of him with something akin to awe, and when he speaks, his voice is tender, lovely. “This is— more than I expected. Thank you.”
Again, Hob’s heart breaks. Again, he wants to lean forward and touch Dream and give him the softness he is clearly lacking but deserves nonetheless. He swallows past the knot in his throat and says, maybe too softly, “You’re welcome, Dream.”
They eat in silence, but it is a warm, comfortable silence. Hob can’t help but glance at Dream, and he barely holds in his pleased smile when Dream seems to enjoy everything like it is the best meal of his life. He makes a low, pleased sound when he tries the curry, and moans in delight when he eats the cabbage rolls. He digs into the Yorkshire pudding with brimming exuberance, and licks the gravy off his thumb.
Hob finds himself staring more than once, and when Dream catches his eyes, he blushes beautifully and says, “This is very good.”
“Thank you.”
Dream asks for seconds, piling a few more cabbage rolls on his plate, digging into another half plate of curry with enthusiasm. Hob wonders when he last ate to his heart's content, and pulls himself from that line of questioning, knowing the answer will most probably cause more distress than anything else.
When their plates are licked clean, they both lean back in their chairs with equally pleased smiles.
“I can pack some leftovers, if you want,” Hob offers, and watches the flash of hesitance on Dream’s face.
“I appreciate the offer but…” he looks away, biting the inside of his cheek. “Don’t always have a fridge, where I live. It will only go to waste.”
Hob tries not to scream. He, thankfully, succeeds.
“Well, no worries then,” he says, with the kind of cheerfulness he does not feel. He gets up and starts clearing the table, and says, “We can have dinner again, if you want.” He makes his way towards the kitchen, but he feels Dream’s heavy gaze right between his shoulder blades.
Dream doesn’t say anything though, and the silence turns this side of uncomfortable as Hob starts putting the food away, then gets started on the washing up. Still, after a few minutes, Dream joins him at the sink holding a dish towel, a small smile on his lips as he takes the plates and dries them.
“Thank you,” Hob says, and Dream just shrugs.
“The least I could do.”
When the last pot is placed clean in a cupboard, they stand in the kitchen, silence heavy over them. Dream’s pulling at the right sleeve of his sweater, an anxious energy about him, and Hob knows he should let Dream leave, should not push.
Eleanor always said he was never good at doing the smart thing.
“Hot chocolate?” he blurts out, and Dream’s eyes widen. “I mean. It’s not a Christmas dinner if we don’t have dessert.”
Dream’s smile, when it comes, is a gentle, relieved sweep on his face.
“If it is not a bother.”
“None at all, love,” Hob says. Dammit, that word again, and he watches Dream’s eyes narrow, a thoughtful tilt to his head as the word leaves Hob’s mouth. Hob clears his throat and moves, pulling out ingredients and taking a saucepan from one of the cupboards.
He hears Dream’s quiet footsteps behind him as he starts whisking together cocoa powder and sugar, before adding milk and some chunks of the fancy milk chocolate he always keeps around. The click of the stove is loud in the silence, and he keeps his eyes on the mixture, whisking constantly and watching the chocolate come together.
“Can I— ask you something?” he says, and sees Dream in the corner of his vision as he leans his hip on the counter a few feet from him. “You don’t have to answer, if you don’t want to.”
“Okay,” Dream says, and Hob lets out a small breath.
“Where will you go tonight?”
“There’s a hostel,” Dream answers. “I’m hoping they have a bed available for a few days.”
Hob nods, and keeps whisking and asks, “And, after?” He does not say, after the money I gave you runs out, but he knows the words shine bright. He feels Dream shrug.
“There are shelters,” Dream says. He speaks easily, but Hob can feel the tension under his words. Hob’s not dumb, he watches the news, knows the state the country is in and knows the few shelters that are still open are brimming with people, especially during winter. Dream’s next words make it all true. “Sometimes, if there’s no room, I find someplace warm. St. Pancras is always open, and there’s always a 24h McDonald’s somewhere. And if I’m— lucky, I have someone who is willing to pay for a room.”
Hob tries to unclench his fingers from the whisk. The chocolate is starting to bubble, and he gives it a few more minutes.
He takes a deep breath. “Oh.”
“I don’t want—“
“Pity,” Hob says, finally looking at Dream. “I know.”
Dream’s shoulders curl in on himself, and he looks away. “I’m sorry.”
“Don’t apologize, please.”
Dream sighs, eyelids falling closed for a second. When he looks back at Hob, he looks tired. “I don’t know what you want from me, Hob Gadling.”
“Friendship,” Hob says, and pulls the saucepan away from the heat, turning off the stove. “That’s all, Dream.”
Dream stares at him for a long, long moment, the air thick like taffy. Finally, he moves and takes a pink box from the counter Hob did not notice and thrusts it at Hob.
“Here,” he says awkwardly, not exactly avoiding Hob’s gaze. “I brought some dessert.”
“Oh,” Hob says, and takes the box. He recognises the name, a fancy sweets shop around Camden market. “You shouldn’t have.”
“You made me dinner,” Dream says. “It is only fair.”
Hob lets out a huff, almost a laugh. “Okay. Thank you.” He opens the box and stares at the four perfect suger cookies and tries not to think about how much they probably cost. “They’ll go well with the hot chocolate. Oh, let me check to see if I have some mini marshmallows.”
He does, and he pours them both two mugs, adds as many marshmallows as he can to Dream’s much bigger mug then gestures towards the living room.
“I usually end the night watching Taskmaster reruns on YouTube,” he says with a laugh.
“It is fine, thank you,” Dream answers and curls up on the opposite end of the couch, feet tucked under himself. Hob has to force himself to not stare, and he almost succeeds. The tv runs in the background, and Hob drinks his chocolate and does not see anything on the screen. He watches Dream from the corner of his eyes, pleased when Dream hums with gentle pleasure every few sips until the chocolate is gone. Hob’s mug sits partly untouched.
Finally, he says, “You can sleep here tonight, if you want.”
He turns towards Dream and sees him go still like a statue, face blank of any emotion. Dream holds his gaze, cold, cold like the air outside, jaw clenched so tight Hob thinks he’ll hear the sound of bone cracking. Hob realizes he made a mistake.
“Shit, I didn’t mean—“
He does not get to finish his sentence because Dream moves. Dream places his empty mug on the coffee table, every moment slow and quiet, and takes Hob’s own mug and places it next to his.
He stares at the mug for a moment, taking a deep breath that seems to shake him to his marrow, then stalks forward.
“What—“ Hob gasps, the sudden weight of Dream in his lap a shock, but Dream’s mouth is on his before he can even breathe out the full word. The kiss is anything but a kiss. Vicious, tongue sliding over Hob’s parted lips, teeth digging into the meat of his bottom lip, pushing, pushing like he aims to break Hob’s breath in his chest.
Hob moans, can’t help the sound as it rips out of chest, and Dream makes a sound like a growl, his hands sliding over Hob’s throat and up until his elegant fingers dig into the edge of Hob’s skull. Hob’s eyes flutter closed and he lets Dream kiss him, falling into the sweetness of chocolate on his tongue, in the heat of Dream’s body. It is a momentary weakness, the shock still crisp on his skin, in the edges of his teeth.
When Dream’s hips move, a sharp roll that sparks down Hob’s spine and settles into his groin, Hob’s eyes snap open with a gasp.
He pulls away sharply, Dream’s mouth sliding cuttingly over his jawline, and says, “Dream—“
“Shut up,” Dream says, and there’s a sharp, wet quality to it, and Hob’s chest sparks with a painful inhale. He grips Dream’s wrists to the point of pain and pushes.
“Dream, stop this!”
Dream stares at him, blue eyes wide like the edges of an endless ocean.
“Isn’t this what you want?” he asks nastily, voice shaking, and Hob shakes his head with an edge of desperation.
“No.”
Dream quirks an eyebrow, and he rolls his hips again. Hob’s cock twitches, caught in the heat between their bodies, and Dream’s eyes narrow in a glare.
“I would like to point out that my cock has never been the brains of the operation, contrary to popular belief,” Hob says with a tired sigh. “Please. Just. Can we just fucking talk?”
“What is there to talk about?” Dream hisses through gritted teeth, leaning forward. “You paid for me, and then you invited me to sleep over.”
“Yes, sleep. As in, the activity of laying down - stop glaring - and sleeping. Slumbering. Dozing even!”
Dream’s still glaring at him, and Hob is still gripping his wrists, both of them caught like this for a moment that stretches too long.
“Dream,” Hob says again. “Please. I meant what I said. I don’t want— this. I swear.”
“Liar.”
“Dream, come off it. You’re— I mean— how old even are you?”
Dream’s smile is harsh, breath hot against Hob’s lips. “How old would you like me to be?”
Hob snorts and gives Dream an unimpressed look. “Holy shit, does that ever work?”
Dream lifts his chin. “More times than you can think,” he says. “Most men enjoy it when I am young, younger than them. What would you like?”
“Firstly, fuck most of those creeps,” Hob says, and Dream blinks down at him. A small frown blooms between his eyebrows. “And secondly, I would like a true answer, please.”
Dream hesitates, a sharp blink, a narrowing of his eyes. He seems to think about it, but in the end he says, “Fine. I am twenty five.”
“Oh. Really?”
“Yes.” He tilts his head, the same mocking smile back on his face. “But I can be younger for you. Gods knows you’ve paid me enough for it.”
Hob lets out an irritated groan and uses his grip on Dream’s wrists to shake him. Dream looks absolutely offended, a few strands of his hair falling to his wide eyes.
“Remember when I called you a butthead?”
Dream’s mouth curls into a pout so Hob shakes him again. “Yes. Fuck, yes. Yes, I remember.”
“You’re definitely being one again.”
Dream’s glare is pinprick sharp. Hob glares right back. Time stretches, and Hob can hear Dream’s breathing, an edge of anger to it until he finally sighs, body slumping in Hob’s grip.
“You don’t want to fuck me?”
Hob shakes his head, then hesitates. In the back of his mind, the dark, quiet edge of his brain, something sparks to life that sounds a lot like Dream’s previously hissed, “Liar.” He sighs and holds Dream’s gaze and decides on a, “Not like this, love.”
Dream’s lips part on a soft breath. “Oh.”
“Yeah.”
Dream pulls away and Hob’s grip falls away from his wrists. He tries not to think about the way he immediately misses the flutter of Dream’s pulse right under his finger tips. Dream crawls off Hob’s lap, and Hob does not miss his heat, and then curls on himself in the opposite corner of the couch. He hugs his legs to his chest, and he looks so small. Hob digs his fingers into his thigh to keep from reaching out.
Dream looks away, gaze unfocused. “Is the offer still on the table?”
“What?”
Dream’s cheeks flush pink, and he bites at his lower lip which is still red from their kiss.
“To sleep here tonight.” His gaze slants towards Hob, the corners of his lips twitching, hesitant. “Doze, if you will.”
Hob’s laugh is relief and amusement rushing out of him. He leans his head back on the couch. “Of course. You can even take a shower, if you want. Some comfy sleep clothes, too.”
Dream nods. “Thank you,” he says, and Hob tries to memorize the tender sweep of his lashes as he blinks his gaze away.
Later, Hob sits in bed and listens to the water turn off in the bathroom, and a few moments later the squeak of the bathroom door, the soft steps, the creak of the wooden floorboard right outside his door. He’s made sure to set up the living room couch with the comfiest pillows he owns, the softest blankets.
When the light under his door goes dark, he waits another ten minutes then pulls a pillow over his face and muffles a half groan, half scream.
“Now what?” he asks the darkness, and receives silence back. Even so, he is sure Eleanor is laughing at him, somehow, somewhere.
In the morning, the pillow and blankets are perfectly folded on the edge of the couch, mugs washed on the drying rack, the apartment silent. Dream is nowhere to be seen, and Hob’s wallet with the owed money lies on the table by the door, untouched. Hob eats the sugar cookies and hopes, hopes down to his bones, that Dream will come back.
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