#[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost.

[araneitela]

Seeing Kafka in overtly revealing ("sexy") dresses in fan arts: I just... don't see why? Me over here: The most 'revealing' thing that I can imagine her in, if I envision her without a coat draped over her shoulders, is something like this. Am I just weird; where am I supposed to see this 'overtly revealing' nature of hers that oozes 'sexy'? That woman has class, and in that, I think she's sexy (f I have to use the word). And where do I get that impression from? Her entire default attire screams it at me from the rooftops.

#[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ class. class. /class/. ] #[ she's refined. everything from how she walks; to her mannerisms; to how she phrases her sentences. all of it plays into it. ] #[ that's also /why/ she's so good at unnerving everyone in my opinion; it's because she has a certain stature to her. ] #[ i swear. she wears high-waist shorts. yes. but can we remember that the /high waist/ element is very important? ] #[ that was literally an element in the 1960s when these shorts became more mainstream to counteract the concept... ] #[ of bare legs. ensuring the waist was covered. even if with high-waist; the waist gets cinched which is inherently an 'attractive' thing. #[ yes. ] #[ but still; that keeps her shorts also within a realm of some semblance of attire conservatism/classiness. ] #[ and then out of everything she could 'collect'-- it's COATS. ] #[ an item of clothing that is often the first thing we judge a person by; and often is tied to perception/judgement of elegance. ] #[ sophistication and even a level of... professionalism. and if we look at public figures-- we often account status by their presentation. #[ or hell; their sense of style. and the first element of someone's presentation is often derived from their coat. ] #[ i feel like i need to stuff this post into the longer meta tag as well for sheer reference for myself. but i just!!! ] #[ i hate the super overtly fan arts of her. i don't understand where this perception comes from. ] #[ meta. ] the mara's tether is firmly in her grasp. she will not pull upon it before the designated time; nor shall she relinquish it.

[araneitela]

Even in terms of violence, there's an inherent romanticism to Kafka. There, I said it. /sticks out tongue

#[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ not making a direct parallel here nor am i making the insinuation that kafka /is/ this but. ] #[ it's almost like how evil is charming; it taunts. it coaxes. it's a mistress. ] #[ that concept of romanticism. ] #[ and i just. /ugh/. ] #[ especially when you flip this into humanity to some degree. but also fate. ugh. fate /is/ cruel. it IS. IT JUST. ] #[ /shakes fists fiercely. ]

[araneitela]

As I walk around the apartment with my phone, sipping my tea as I'm waking up, and packing up little tidbits in my bathroom; all I can think about is the following sentence: 'She dresses to impress', and how utterly false it is for Kafka. Even within a context where she needs to catch someone's eye, trust me, she doesn't need to "dress to impress". The entire concept of this woman doing anything aesthetically, even if it could also benefit for and/or with others, is absolutely unfathomable to me.

#[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ i need to swap tags around-- this is /this/ tied to the smaller metas? is it cause i thought i wouldn't write many long ones? ] #[ or would do /this/ more often? i dunno. but hi hello yes. ] #[ i read that somewhere and it's been /haunting/ me. there is no 'other' in the equation when kafka dresses. ] #[ if there was; she'd likely dress in a style that is more common and yet she's entirely unique. look how rather conservative... ] #[ she is dressed in comparison to MANY others. and yes; she catches the eyes of many apparently. but it isn't purposeful. ] #[ this whole idea of kafka /wanting/ attention drives me insane too. ] #[ /shakes fanon. ] #[ dearly detested; truly. ]

[araneitela]

I'm writing, finally, but this thread made me want to leave a little note on the dash about the topic of affection/care in my portrayal of Kafka, because I don't want any assumptions made about what you can expect on this little blog of mine. Any way, I think that I've made it abundantly clear that I don't shy away from touching on the more emotion-driven aspects of her character (1, 2, to note just two quick examples) that tell me there's a deep-rooted capacity in Kafka to care, despite her confirmed lack of fear. While I respect that people may play into the concept of a 'numbness' across the spectrum of emotions for her as a whole, it's important to note for my end and on this blog (and this isn't any sort of jab at anyone, truly), that I do not play into this same take. This'll be a larger meta soon, but I wanted to add two specific 'little' things as a bit of a driving force alongside these numerous scenes, so that people may know where I'm coming from until I actually write this meta. This is from her SQ (Letter from a Strange Woman):

Trailblazer: Why did you join the Stellaron Hunters? (If Kafka says the truth) Kafka: Because I wanted to change myself. Kafka: I have no mechanism for "fear". There's an empty space in my mind and my heart, but I'm unable to perceive it. Changing that part of myself isn't something I can do alone. Kafka: Elio can help me, if I follow his instructions.

It has always struck me ever since the confirmation in this story quest, that 'feeling fear' is something that she actively wants to find and more so, seeks to obtain. Fear isn't just any random emotion, it's one of the most deep-rooted emotions that we have, and it is the one thing that we use to not only actively instinctively protect ourselves, both physically and emotionally; but fear is a fundamental part to attributing value to something or someone. And the reason why I bring up the latter, is because of Blade's line in the same quest:

Blade: Every Stellaron Hunter has a deal with Elio. I do not know the nature of those deals, but I do know that Kafka and I agreed to take orders from Elio. She must have sought something extraordinary. Everything she does comes at a great cost. Blade: She will have done many things to keep you alive until now, young one.

How do you measure 'great cost' if there is a lack of emotion, and therefore investment? If there is a void across the board, then does anything ever, truly, come at a great cost? Of course, one can claim that Blade is an unreliable narrator, but he is arguably, likely, the one who's known her longest after Elio, and then Sam.

#[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ it's one of those things of-- i respect that we don't all firmly agree on this and that's perfectly fine. but i know /my/ take here is.. #[ less common. and so i want to ensure that people know not only that i /don't/ follow the same route for her. but also note /why/. ] #[ so that it may also kind of resonate with everything i write and whatnot. ripple effect if you will! ] #[ instead of going 'this is it'; i want to say 'this is why' so that people /understand/ how i got here. you know? ]

[araneitela]

I live for when these unexpected little things happen. Okay, so I forget to loop the song I had picked to listen to on Youtube, and it ends up auto-playing to a live performance of a song. So I peek over, and I see the outfit that she's wearing. High-waist trousers, and that shirt, mostly tucked in as it is, with its sleeves rolled up just like that? It's a bit of that old-school romantic aesthetic, it exudes a certain old-fashioned femininity, it's quite timeless in its simplicity, and classy despite a rather relaxed fit. This is something that I see Kafka wearing during her downtime, and especially within the comforts of the Stellaron Hunter HQ/complex, and exactly in that color-scheme as well: darker in the legs, lighter in the upper body. It's simple, there might be the ever-enduring presence of that single earring (pearl), a thin bracelet at most but even that I'm hesitant about, and while she'd be void of any sort of necklace, you could smell the fragrance of that signature Black Opium as always.

#[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ old-fashioned. /old-fashioned/. it's that kind of allure. ] #[ that's what i see. ] #[ because while it's 'dressed down'-- it's not really... /dressed down/ if that makes sense. ] #[ there's still something quite fancy to it; but in a much simpler way. and a loose-hanging fit like that? it has that romantic air to it. #[ it's perfect. ] #[ i'm forever in love with her shirt in her default outfit; it's also a perfectly chosen color. so i want to be consistent. ] #[ i don't envision her in /colors/ exactly; sticking to those fancier neutral tones. but this just stood out to me as i opened the tab. ] #[ and saw it. it was a gut instinct reaction; no thought behind it. it just clicked. ] #[ perhaps slightly inspired by the jepella rebellion outfit. it's fine. ]

[araneitela]

A random 'small' thought that's tied into something else that I was typing up/discussing: If within the stepping stones of a more intimate setting and say one were to kiss Kafka, the chances of her arms wrapping around their neck are quite literally nihil. It won't happen, and the reason why is entirely based within the (in my opinion) consistency of her character. It's psychology, of which honestly, there's so much of when it comes to her.

Anyway, Kafka isn't the type of woman to physically try to 'keep someone close to her'; and instead, she plays so very strongly into the concept of simply making someone long to be close. It's about the longing. A lot of my portrayal of her character plays into this motif of 'presence in absence', it's how she lingers, it's how for those that tug at her in just the right ways— she'll linger, and make them crave the presence that they don't have, the longing of wanting that which is unattainable. Even if that isn't quite the reality at hand, because you can, you could, and what I mean is that once it happens; she would almost refuse to snake her arms around your neck; it's a physical act of dominance that she doesn't need— the grander 'dominance' is wanting her entirely of your own accord, and not being able to pull away. No, the most you'd experience is the presence and sensation of a hand, either only one or both, by your chest, fingers grasping at and latching onto fabric, but not tightly as to ruin, never to ruin, but enough that you feel her fingers right there. And if actually emotionally engaged with her, then there's some other things, but we'll keep those as surprises for those to whom it matters.

#[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ was talking to jace about vulnerability/touch/etc. yadda yadda-- alongside working on my own post for kafka and love/affection/etc. ] #[ and this popped up in my head. ] #[ some might see it as trivial. ] #[ but to me and kafka-- it's excessively important. ]

[araneitela]

For those who didn't catch my long ramble on this: do we realize that Kafka's Spirit Whisper, at the basis of what it represents, actively and directly contradicts fate? Or at the very least, is capable of influencing and/or ensuring it? And on top of that, the wanted poster in Pteruges-V (her 'home') seems to be written in such a way that the skill also is highly unlikely to be native to her planet? Can we just, casually talk about this?

"...This woman's name is Kafka, a new Hunter without any information on file, and belongs to no particular organization. She has an ability called Spirit Whisper that allows her to hypnotically manipulate others through language. Recently, she has appeared in Riverland, New Babylon. She was seen communicating with its overchief, Shilde, and absconded with him in witness of 143 people. She then made an appearance at a clothing store and stole a black jacket, two white shirts, and a red dress with 6 witnesses. After that, she was seen by 28 people at an old music record store where she purchased nothing. Before she emerged at the Riverland Guard Station to claim her rewards, she was spotted at the central park with 2695 citizens present. We want Kafka's head, as her lethal crimes cannot go unpunished."— Wanted Order by the Pteruges-V Devils

#[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ mmm? HMMM? ]

[araneitela]

Kafka wears Black Opium, by Yves Saint Laurent, it's been decided.

#[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ amongst others. but it's a big one. ] #[ casually talking perfumes with aven to harass veritas ratio with and we thought of the same one. it's perfect. ] #[ honestly. perfection. ] #[ coffee to really open the senses; the vanilla that adds the /perfect/ layer of sensuality that encompasses that woman. ] #[ and then to finish it with the lingering softness of white flowers? honestly. it's perfection. ] #[ aven please tell me you agree that the linger is /utterly important/. ]

[araneitela]

While I have these noted in my OneNote, putting them on here may... make it that I write these down more thoroughly faster. But, meta-topics that I'm planning on elaborating on:

— Kafka's semblance of 'boredom' and its manifestation. This is seen across the board through either suggesting or engaging in both more trivial and more significant 'games'. But a great example is the "trial" during the on-going Jepella Rebellion. Throughout the entire sequence, we see the judges with flaring red eyes that glow brighter at numerous intervals, and when she's "let to plead her case" a bit more thoroughly towards the end of it, we're shown a red string breaking (timestamp: 2:08); you see the judges' eyes return to normal and they are in a state of severe mental disorientation and panic. The string breaking marked the intended end of Kafka's Spirit Whisper on them. The entire trial was nothing more than a mockery of the court: her game. As Sam notes at the end (timestamp: 2:32), "You should really stop playing with your food; Kafka." He meant it. Kafka plays games when many likely wouldn't due to a sense of risk. Aside from being immune to this due to the lack of fear that she claims the populace of Pteruges-V (or at least, New Babylon) to have, this playfulness is likely an added manifestation of this. We know that she doesn't fall victim to the same follies as others from this same planet, "I used to be a Devil Hunter (...) When people don’t feel fear, they are dominated by desire and pleasure – they become “devils”, so this may be a different form of 'pleasure' in the simple form of entertainment. The Jepella 'trial' is simply the most evident example.

— The two different manners of speech. We're overtly familiar with the incredibly seductive delivery of most of her dialogue, but there are instances where Kafka's delivery is quite different and it is incredibly intentional. The very first instance of this, is when she first speaks to the Trailblazer. It is not as consistent, and there is still usually a lingering element of playfulness to the end of most words' pronunciations (there are specific lines that are a lot more evident, such as "When you have a chance to make a choice, make one that you know you won't regret" at the end of the sequence). This could be blamed on the fact that this was an early recording and they were undecided; however, the decision of having two different 'vocal deliveries' has been set in stone with Kafka's story/companion quest. Thankfully, I found this to help make it very obvious.

— Not feeling fear does not equate lack of emotions and/or the concept of humanity. For me, 'fear' is merely one of many emotions that humanity possesses, it is tied in with many (all) others but it is not representative, on its own, of all emotions in their entirety. The reason I make note of this is Kafka's inherent tie to musicality, one of numerous great 'arts' that requires great emotion to properly understand and appreciate. Now, part of me wondered if she perhaps lacked this as well, and whether, because of that, this was one of her 'goals' within the Stellaron Hunters as well. But when looking at the individually noted goals for each of them, "they who chase after fear" (Kafka) is separate from "they who inquire meaning" (strongly hinted at being Sam), which renders the question null and void. Aside from that, she actively seems to harbor an element of care towards the Trailblazer, but most undeniably, she actively harbors a semblance of care and concern for Blade's state of being in her story quest. This also means, to me, that Kafka harbors the ability of affection.

— Her character banner was called 'Nessun Dorma', named after arguably the most famous tenor arias in all of opera (yes, you've likely heard it even if you're not into opera). As much as she is very much tied to classical music throughout the game, and showing an active investment in it, this is entirely different as it is a vocal performance, rather than instrumental as all other musical passages used for her have been. Nessun Dorma is an aria in the final act of a musical called Turandot. This is a fantasy tale that unfolds in China, where a beautiful but very cold princess (Turandot) poses three riddles to any suitor who dares court her, and commands the death of all who fail. When an unknown prince (he who sings 'Nessun Dorma) ultimately triumphs, the opera ends in a love story with a happy ending. Hoyoverse doesn't do things without reason, and so this intrigues me relentlessly. But moreover, the riddles and their answers really get the cogs in my head to spin wildly; as this reeks of Kafka in more ways than one:

"What is born each night and dies at dawn?" Hope.

"What flickers red and warm like a flame, yet is not fire?" Blood.

"What is like ice yet burns?" Turandot (the princess in question).

#[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly. #[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ now while I'm still going to be in photoshop for the evening-- possibly even working on a little promo as i actually am interested in... #[ getting kafka out there in the same way as i did for guizhong; seele is the more private one. ] #[ i did want to note a few things down now that i have my tags sorted. ] #[ any way hello-- welcome to my insane kafka brainrot. i have a /lot/ to say. ] #[ these were supposed to be little one-liner reminders for myself. ] #[ also these are only 4 that initially come to mind-- there's more. i'll likely be reblogging this post. ]

[araneitela]

Notes on Kafka's trailer, "A Dramatic Irony", this'll include the obvious and the less so noticeable details. I'll be elaborating on and making use of these in the future, but for now— a little list for myself (and you?) on things I want to talk about. Oof, my dear girl, there is a lot to unpack about you and I still won't be done in a year from now: Edit: It ended up being long, but who's surprised, really?

— Background music. Entirely based on Vivaldi's Four Seasons. Most very accurately pick out 'Winter' as that's what it starts with and it's also immediately recognizable, but it actually transitions into 'Summer' just after about halfway through and beautifully ends in it. The inclusion of them both is one of HoYoverse's finest decisions musically.

— The usage of rose petals instead of blood. This one thrills me, because they add such an inherent romanticism to the concept of death, which is an ages old tale and concept (hey, do we want to tie in the beauty of how Blade craves its peace so desperately yet cannot obtain it and she cannot grant him it? I do), and it plays in beautifully to the concept of what 'fear' is usually most tied to, and how she doesn't feel it. Now what exactly are these petals of? If it's your regular red rose, then yes— it is likely referencing the intrinsic romanticism of death. I initially wondered if it could be the China rose, which would indicate longevity which could be hugely interesting but no. However, with the impending goal of 'seeking fear' and tying it directly into 'the value of life', I find the more traditional take of the red rose, a sign of intense passion/love, or a potential for the hope of passionate love, incredibly intriguing (my stance on the potentially implied ship with the MC is still where I stand, but another is creeping in through a lot of rationality and logic; because I do think that's how they plan on doing it— it's what makes most sense with implications made in her dialogue).

— Inspiration: Rorschach inkblot test. "What do you see?" It says at 0:15, and it threw me for a moment, until I looked around the text. The ink blot. Leave it paused for a second. What do you see? It's the Rorschach inkblot test. It hit me with the ferocity of a ton of bricks. For those not sure what I'm talking about, do a little search and you might have seen it used in television by some psychologists, it is a test to examine a person's personality characteristics and their emotional functioning, everyone may see something different in specific ink blots. When you leave it paused at 0:15 seconds in, that's the first card and it's called The Fear Card; intrinsically fitting, considering: "Elio said that I'm good at creating "fear", even though I don't know what it is." I didn't actually recognize the ink blot until I started typing this up and analyzed it again for the umpteenth time. I'm losing my mind, no, I've actually already lost it, because on further analyzing, I think the spider on the back of her coat also looks like it's been designed after the ink blot/card in question because it grows into a similar shape, though more so when it grows into the lines/threads of her Spirit Whisper that you see around the 1:13 mark. The entire sequence of ink blots at that timestamp give us an insight into what the guard sees that she's talking to, he sees his own death. /breathes very casually. God, I'm losing my mind, this might actually play so much more into her character. What do you see, she asks— Kafka, what do you see?

— She's so incredibly cultured. There are a lot of very classical but also archaic elements that play into the design of her character across the board. Classical music is so rarely used anymore, but it adds such a different level of sophistication to her character. Kafka stands out amidst most of the other characters, not because she's classier in general, but because they tie very old-fashioned and less used concepts into a very modern design and mold them into a perfect whole. The classical music and how she never foregoes this intense connection she has to it, the insane archaic katana versus the very modern uzis (ode to Devil May Cry, anyone? A pair of guns, one black and one white, and a katana? Along with having once worked as a 'demon hunter'? Capcom deserves the nods) and grenades, her attire especially between the coat, the high waist, the glasses and the dress shirt— but it's all beautifully put together in an incredibly modern outfit. She's so cultured, there's an intense class to her and I will not stop falling more in love with it with each passing day.

— Storytelling. 'Intermission', 'oneiric structure', 'MacGuffin', 'non- linear structure', 'fin', these are all firmly tied into the art of storytelling in film (and literature as well). Intermission is a pause in the midst of a performance. Oneiric structure refers to a structure of a tale that replicates something non-linear, so something relating to the dreamlike (oneiric comes from the Greek 'oeneiros', which means 'a dream'), think of... something surreal or distorted in reality, something that simply can't be real. MGuffin in a plot device that takes form of an a goal (an object, for instance) that is an important element in a story due to it being firmly tied to the story's characters, a driving force if you will (so for Kafka, you could see her pursuit of feeling fear). Non-lineaur simply means that a story does not follow an order of events that's necessarily chronological in terms of timeline. And 'fin' marks the end of a performance. I cannot stop being feral as to how consistent HoYoverse is with this. It isn't just referencing her trailer, or the overarching narrative of the game of Honkai: Star Rail, but also her character directly, terminology commonly used in film are in her trailer, she herself seems to be rather passionate about film (you receive a text from her regarding being alone in a movie theatre during the play of one, and she laments that there aren't more people there to watch), her eidolons being after musical terms tied to music that she thoroughly enjoys and is used time and time again to represent her. God. God.

— What some may note as being a clock counting down, is not a clock at all, but an elevator that represents a life counter. With each kill, the elevator descended one more level until it reached the ground floor. I've seen some make references to Inception and upon further glance, the reference can be intended. The 'floors' can be seen as being representative of the different levels or layers of a person's subconsciousness as she delves deeper and deeper, as she is inherently able to control and manipulate minds. God, Kafka, surely this isn't a power all from New Babylon have.

— Threads of silk; a Moirai reference tied in with the arachnid? "The silk is too fragile to be a threat, unless you're more fragile than the silk." We know she isn't fate itself, but we know, in essence, a puppeteer that ensures all sort of unfolds as Elio has foreseen, particularly with the Trailblazer, even if she trusts him/her to make the right decision. We know arachnids are far and wide associated with manipulation, which we know she's abundantly capable of and responsible for, but it goes infinitely further than that. Spiders spin webs of silk, threads of silk, threads of fate, destiny, this is an incredibly thorough and intricate character design that they settled on. Everything is so perfectly interconnected, it's absolutely unreal.

#[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly. #[ post-it. ] in a way; you are poetry material. you are full of cloudy subtleties i am willing to spend a lifetime figuring out. #[ did i make a tag to use for myself to store references and to-dos? yes. yes i did. ] #[ franz kafka; you are a minefield of wonders. ] #[ ... there's more things swirling around in my head; like the reference to no country for old men. ] #[ the continuation of the arachnid motif-- granted you know this'll be a huge topic that i'll keep coming back to... ] #[ considering my url for her means '/her/ spider web'. i'll be touching on it but as i'm learning-- ] #[ it's tied into so much more than just the obvious. god. ] #[ just. god. ] #[ alright-- let's add... ] #[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ meta. ] the mara's tether is firmly in her grasp. she will not pull upon it before the designated time; nor shall she relinquish it.

[araneitela]

Also while writing this whole (incoherent) meta: The importance of Kafka trying to counter Blade's dehumanization of himself, by doing all of these things to inherently humanize him. For starters, 'Bladie', honestly— what's more deeply humanizing and emotionally engaging of a thing, than giving someone a nickname, which is not only permitted by him, but then is also something that is just hers. But also, why is Kafka trying to humanize him. I hate this stupid character, I hate this stupid dynamic that came around the corner and smacked me in the face, I hate all of these stupid dynamics, I hate how this meta is hurting me in all of its nonsensical... ness. And I just, /crosses arms like the angy panda meme.

#[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly. #[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ and this sTUPID TAG. what was i thinking. it's literally-- i just. ] #[ i hate that stupid story quest. i'm fine; i'm going back to writing this meta. don't mind me. :( ] #[ /angry sigh while angrily stomping foot. ] #[ translation: 'hate' means 'love'. ]

[araneitela]

All I can think about while I'm trying to write an entirely unrelated (to this topic) starter and my first IC thing, is how often I've seen miss ma'am over here mimic playing the piano, or the violin, or hear her hum over and over as HSR sits idle in the background, and how it's the... lightest and most fragile (and yet oddly controlled) sound and melody each time, I truly never tire of hearing it. And I think about the contrast of the humanity in that, and then I think about her line of how 'bullets are much more obedient'— why? Because they don't require emotion to be fired? And they don't risk giving away more than one intends? God, Kafka, classical and opera music out of everything. The piano and the violin, arguably two of the instruments most tied in with representing sorrow and melancholy. Why? Who did you lose? What happened? There's too many little hints and subtleties that aim at that reality, there's too much about you that tells me it's too likely. Your investment in Blade's well being is too on the nose. It's just. It's just.

Why am I listening to a gorgeously fragile piano rendition of Canon in D, the violin piece that plays during Kafka's introduction? I don't know, but I am.

If I have to watch this woman mimic playing either instrument one more time, instead of actually playing either, I will lose my damn mind. And yet, and yet, I actively think if she were to find herself in a hotel room, even on her own, and there would be a piano right there— I can see her fingers tracing over the keys so very clearly, even as if she were touching the keys to play and yet never pressing down. Why do I see this so clearly.

... There's this gif I use all the time lately in Discord when it comes to Kafka, and it's this bunny that shakes another bunny almost violently, and it's me, it's me being feral about Kafka and not being able to shut up about her. I want to use it 24/7.

#[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly. #[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ i hate it here. i mean i love it /here/ but i hate it (my mind) here. i hate that i'm trying to write a scene and i'm thinking... ] #[ about THIS as well while i'm trying so desperately. ] #[ i just need a thread one day. i just need a thread one day where there's a piano right there. ] #[ and i just ache and crave to write the inner monologue to that. ] #[ i also NEED MORE INFORMATION HOYOOOOO for sanity's sake. ] #[ granted i talk about this piano-- but i feel like she wouldn't even approach it in company of anyone. ] #[ MAYBE blade. but that's a maybe. ] #[ hi my name is sae and i have a problem; she's called kafka. ]

[araneitela]

Character, connections, and verses: (2/2)

#[ visage. ] yet he thought her smile looked sad. maybe someone left her before they could listen to everything she had to say. #[ meta. ] the mara's tether is firmly in her grasp. she will not pull upon it before the designated time; nor shall she relinquish it. #[ mini study. ] she must have sought something extraordinary. everything she does comes at a great cost. #[ essence. ] it started with sincerity and anticipation followed by a passionate catharsis; with one climax after another. #[ stellaron hunters. ] we all have our own individual goals. we may work together; but we work together for our own reasons. #[ astral express. ] in pursuit of the most dangerous objects in the universe? in that sense; you and i are cut from the same cloth. #[ conflict. ] looks like we're the ones getting ambushed. / but they're the ones getting besieged. #[ nessun dorma. ] da capo. fortississimo. capriccio. recitativo. doloroso. leggiero. #[ beauty. ] all beautiful things have one thing in common: fragility. the more fragile; the rarer. maybe that's what makes it so precious. #[ destiny. ] that's the nature of destiny — it creates a miracle but convinces you of an accident. #[ pteruges-v. ] it was one of many planets changed by a stellaron. ah #it's a shame i never got to witness how far it fell at the time. #[ caelus. ] i called out to you and you came. you had many choices; but everything led you here. to right here and right now. #[ inominati. ] you won't remember a thing except me. #[ elio. ] he can see the future; but he can't interfere with our choices. we are all 'destiny's slaves. #[ bladie. ] … her voice was very gentle. and even the monster inside his body stayed silent to listen to her. “but I don't want to.” #[ silver wolf. ] ignoring the rules is something she and i have in common. #[ sam. ] you should really stop playing with your food; kafka. / i know. next time. this time… it's already too late. #[ v: new babylon. ] i was a devil hunter. when people don't feel fear; they are dominated by desire and pleasure. they become “devils”. #[ v: present. ] we can only add one gold thread each time but eventually: we will pave the way for the future that is written. #[ v: future. ] the future is like a labyrinth: every divergence is merely an inducement. there is only one real path. #[ bladie. ] … her voice was very gentle. and even the monster inside his body stayed silent to listen to her. 'but I don't want to.'