#’apparently’ because my source is that one Instagram live and that one pinball machine video where Joonas is humping him 😭😭😭

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hiiiiiiiiii <3 just popping in to tell ya how this week all I've been thinking about it Aleksi struggling to come to terms with the fact he's maybe not as straight as the thought he was, or maybe he has suspected something and/or has had minor crushes on men before but they've been so small and insignificant and fleeting that he's been able to ignore them or whatever, but then he started feeling all kinds of stupid feelings for Olli that simply wouldn't go away and he couldn't just brush them off and he was confused and panicking (not least because he's alread in a relationship) and he starts acting wierd when he's with Olli while simultaneously trying to act as normal as he can, e.g. still agreeing to share a room with him on tour etc., which obviously only highlights how weird he's acting around Olli, so of course Olli notices this and after a while he confronts Aleksi about it and maybe they have a verbal fight about it because Aleksi keeps insisting he's not acting weird while Olli tells him he totally is, and eventually Aleksi becomes so frustrated (and also he can't help but notice how Olli's round cheeks turn adorably pink when he's angry) that he just kisses Olli, and Olli is very confused for a while and Aleksi wants to die because he thinks he's just made the biggest mistake of his life but then Olli grabs him again and kisses him and they kiss and they kiss and they kiss and--- 😭😭😭😭😭😭

...so yeah, thoughts? 👉👈

hellooooo yes yes yes yes yessss 😩😩

for some reason I’m also obsessed with this trope and to be honest spent probably way too much time thinking about it this week 😭

Aleksi acting weird around Olli while simultaneously trying to act as normal as he can sounds so spot-on 🤧 also trying to make excuses to be as close to Olli as possible but still being scared and internally panicking 😩

I love the idea of Aleksi getting so frustrated that he just thinks fuck it and kisses Olli aaaaa 😭💞 I can easily imagine Aleksi getting angry and/or frustrated, mostly at himself, for falling for Olli and when realizing he’s not as straight as he thought he was 🤧

I also think the streams and the chat play a major role in this!! Maybe he had been doubting himself for a while but didn’t really want to think about it because it’s scary and maybe he had also been crushing on Olli without realizing it until he started streaming and saw the chat and all the kids’ comments about Oleksi and people assuming he’s straight and all that 😩

sorry for rambling my head is so full of thoughts it’s hard to form coherent sentences sljhkhnslljhwmsk

#I know it might be horrible and I hope Aleksi’s not ACTUALLY struggling with anything #but I just love this trope so much 😭😭💞 #also not necessarily related but internalized homophobia is also one of my favourite tropes. always has been #also very random but I haven’t stop thinking about them apparently having an inside joke about Olli being gay 😭 #’apparently’ because my source is that one Instagram live and that one pinball machine video where Joonas is humping him 😭😭😭 #but knowing them and how they have jokes like that I wouldn’t be surprised at allll #I feel like Olli would just embrace it #while Aleksi would just panic 😭 poor boyyyyyy #ANYWAY i’ll stop the rambling now thank you and sorry #olliallu #answered