#‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 ❭ 𝐈 𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇 .

[fatewills]

𝐂𝐔𝐋𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄 & 𝐏𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐍𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐎 : 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐈𝐈𝐈

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐑𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐍 𝐎𝐅 𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐃𝐀𝐋𝐀 ( 𝟑𝟑𝐁𝐁𝐘 - 𝟐𝟓𝐁𝐁𝐘 ) : 𝐑𝐎𝐘𝐀𝐋 𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐈𝐑𝐄 / 𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐌𝐀𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐍𝐒

one of the most stunning aspects of naboo was not only the foliage that covered most of the planet in a continuously warm , often humid climate , but the attire . while many of the common folk wore typical robes and slacks made of wool or cotton , the attire of the queen and her entourage was quite elegant and dazzled much of  the galactic system :

while many queens had their own style , mimicked the styles of other queens , or paid homage to another queen in their own way - every new ruler brought in their own influence that was passed for several generations .

the looks for queen amidala was heavily influenced by the sui / tang dynasties of china , primarily the tang dynasty . the tang dynasty was considered one of the “golden ages of china” . it not only pushed for poetry, it also was the start of trade with foreigners, primarily silk . it became a rather joyous time , and it reflected in the style of clothing that the women wore . the tang dynasty was the start of the first & only female empress , wu zetian , who was known for staffing not only common folk , but primarily women . the most important part of the tang dynasty was its change in women’s fashion. this became the era of freedom for women. with clothes easier to move in, as well as clothes that showed more skin (chest and arms), it also allowed women to dawn men’s clothes as well.

in this , i will be referring to the garments by their traditional chinese names. while a lot of the information is based off of the sui and tang dynasty , some has been rewritten in order to fit into the realm of star wars.

most of the attire worn was vibrant , colorful , and decorated with embroidery that would often paint a picture of the rich culture.

on naboo , queens would have handmaidens assist them : with dress , as loyal body guards , as a shield , and anything else  the queen would need . these women would be close to one another , depend on one another , and became the queen’s primary trust system . these handmaidens were dressed in either one or two garments depending on the necessity :

the most common being : a shan (衫; a long overcoat or long blouse), ru (襦; a short sweater), banbi (半臂; a half-sleeved waistcoat), pibo (披帛), and qun (裙; usually wide, loose skirt which was almost ankle-length), and a weimao (帷帽; a veiled hat) . The pibo (披帛), also known as pei (帔; is a long silk scarf; however it is not used to cover neck, sometimes it covers shoulders and other times just hangs from elbow) . 

this would be the most common attire , and would often be what the handmaids accompanied queen amidala in. the weimao served as a covering for their faces, since their primary function was to serve the queen, so attention was to be directed upon her .these were lightweight and made of silk , and were easy to move around in if they decided to do anything that required plenty of movement . during dangerous missions or under other circumstances, the handmaids would also wear:

yuanlingpao (圆领袍;round-collar robe.) primarily worn by men, this attire would be three of the queen’s chosen colours, which she is crowned with at her coronation. (this will be covered below.) these were robes with elaborate yet elegant jewels and embroidery that would often tell the story of naboo and its history. this would be paired with a black pair of boots and slacks to match the robe. the girls would still have to wear weimaos as a way of concealing their identities.

when it came to the queen, each queen is different. each queen’s three correlating colours have a distinct meaning : coinciding with the three moons . ohma-d'un, onoam, and veruna .

ohma-d’un, the water moon, is the largest of the moons , and soon became a colony for the gungans . this represents the first color . this takes up the most of the fabric . new moon: blue waxing crescent: red first quarter: green waxing gibbous: purple full moon: orange waning gibbous: yellow third quarter: pale pink waning crescent: beige

onoam is a moon often abused by the royal families because of its plentiful medicinal resources. many of the miners went on strike against such behavior, which struck during queen amidala’s rule. she worked to make the system fair for the common people, and it became a struggle long after her death. this colour represented the color of the designs , embroidery, etc. new moon: silver waxing crescent: white first quarter: black waxing gibbous: champagne full moon: red waning gibbous: brown third quarter: grey waning crescent: gold

veruna is the third moon, which shares the name of king ars veruna, who reigned before queen amidala. this interpreted the colour of the jewels and other small details. new moon: blue / sapphire waxing crescent: red / crimson first quarter: yellow / topaz waxing gibbous: green / emerald full moon: iridescent / opal waning gibbous: milky / pearl third quarter: black / onyx waning crescent: purple / violet

these colours represent the moons when the queen steps into her position, and holds high significance to their spiritual closeness to the moon goddess, shiraya. not only would the handmaids wear these colours as well, but also any of the guards or soldiers as well. old pieces would often be redesigned / repurposed in order to fit a queen / king’s colour .

one of the first tell-tale signs of your council’s trust in you is your colours / moon. queen amidala was crowned as the first queen born under goddess shiraya’s blessed moon : ohma-d’un in waxing crescent , onoam in waning crescent, and veruna in  new moon. there is also ohma-dun in waning crescent, onoam in waxing gibbous, and veruna in waning gibbous - which was considered just as lucky a combination .

the queens could dress in casual attire , which could be dressed in either a light or dark pei. these could be worn simply around their home, with their handmaids, or when nothing official work was to be done that day.

while they still could not do many of the same activities, queen’s were discouraged from such things because it would “impose a sense of realism” which they tried to avoid. queens and even kinds were presented as practically ethereal, and were not to be mistaken for common.

when dealing with official matters, attire may appear like this:

this would involve hanfus with rather elaborate embroidery, illustrating not only naboo as a nation, but also its wildlife, greenery, and culture. this would also be accompanied by a headdress.

such garments were meant to be elaborate and eccentric, believing such a thing would naturally pull in attention to the queen so nothing she said could be ignored. this holds true for the makeup. again, it was all meant to be elaborate, but all with its purpose.

TI with ti makeup, a woman would apply rouge under her eyes, and then draw eyebrows in the shape of the Chinese character “eight (八)”, and then blend the xiehong with her face. this shows the shallow marginal line between the red powder on the side of the face, such as tears dyed out of the traces of the general, have a pitiful, soft beauty.

SHISHI the most prominent of the late tang dynasty women’s distinctive make-up was the yuanhe period’s shishi makeup (时世妆, shí shì zhuāng).

this often meant white faces, which became eradicated, a dark lip, and either reddened cheeks or a design on their forehead. 

such attire was not just for the women, but could also be for the men as well (with a few variations.)

#‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 ❭ 𝐈 𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇 .

[fatewills]

YOUR SOFT “ OH “ MOMENT

the late-night talk //

𝐎𝐇. you figure it out when you realize just how vulnerable they are willing to be with you. it isn't everybody who could or would stay up talking into the night with you, not with such affection or easy familiarity. it isn't everybody who is so understanding of you. it isn't everybody who could bare their soul to you in return. that kind of intimacy... it means deep foundations. it means comfort. it means trust. maybe it's a secret, maybe it's a story, maybe it's something you just never thought of before -- but they say something, late at night, and you realize all at once how remarkable they are, and how special it is to exist in the same time and space as them. "oh" indeed.

tagged by : @gurrillero​ @echoylir​ tagging : @acharnemcnt @darthwclker @witcr @commandsir @alligais @khenobi @kynaz @warrued @savazh @jadedhand @qxgn @kalesera​ and whoever else because i’m getting lazy tagging people now .

#‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 ❭ 𝐈 𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇 . #hi hello uhm don't attack me like this on a tuesday thank uuuuuuuuuuu

[fatewills]

𝐂𝐔𝐋𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄 & 𝐏𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐍𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐎 : 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐈𝐈

𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐋𝐃 - 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐒 & 𝐓𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐎 𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐒 .

          𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐑𝐎𝐘𝐀𝐋 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐂𝐈𝐋 𝐎𝐅 𝐍𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐎 is often scrutinized for their rather taboo practices - namely , crowning such young kings and queens . while the subject is rather hush hush among the galaxy, many political figures have questioned their rather arcane practice . while one would believe the newly - crowned is simply used as visuals to portray a sense of innocence about their planet , the people of naboo have a rather warped perception . a child’s mind is innocent , often seeing the world in black and white . a child will see the good in everyone , especially during a time in their life when they are just discovering themselves . the idea of electing children is simply for that fact - they are pure . tactics pure , methods pure . a child is less likely to start wars, a child is less likely to cause conflict .            these children are forced to carry themselves much like adults . from the way they appear , to the way they speak . while they are well respected among the galaxy - they are used as political advantages . needless to say , these children are placed in nearly predatory situations all for the sake of their planet ; because the adults who raise them do not hold trust for  themselves , but rather instill it into those whose minds are still so easily manipulated . there are some who see and treat them as said adults , and those who do not take them seriously because they are not .            when it comes to padme , and many of the queens before and after her - it is safe to say that many still carry a rather innocent frame of mind even through adulthood . many are coddled, picked up so their feet never touch the ground . much of the world around them is filtered , believing what they do is for the good of the people . they are protected , seen as celestial and treated as such ; but when it comes to seeing the rest of the world , it often shocks them . much like padme when she visited tattoine for the first time . she was not aware and practically shocked over the idea of slaves . such coddling tactics to keep their hearts pure only shelters them from the truth of the galaxy . from the true horrors around them .

          padme sees the good in everyone to the point it is a rather harmful flaw . such as with palpatine - who she saw as a guiding father figure to her . padme would not have sensed the danger she faced with him , because she placed such trust in him from a young age . she sought a sort of peace that could not exist , but she was raised to believe it could - when in reality , such a thing was unachievable . she is the embodiment of light , of hope that the people so long for ; because despite all she has seen , she still believes that there is good in everyone , even if there is nothing there . that is not to say that padme is at all unintelligent . that is never the case . she is a rather wise individual , who grew to see the flaws in the system that swore to protect her .           before her death , the senator worked towards having a mandatory age for the queens and kings of naboo , wishing to push the minimum age up higher for their sake . allowing the children to grow and shape their own perspectives rather than those of the adults who imprint upon them. she knows she was much too young for her tasks , and does not want any others to fall into the same place she found herself in - blinded by a false sense of justice .           unfortunately , the law never passed . once she passed in 19 BBY , everything was dropped and swept under the rug .

#‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 ❭ 𝐈 𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇 . #tw : predatory behavior #tw : child labor #i feel like this idea is something that is not addressed enough - and now i am addressing it .

[fatewills]

WHICH VAN GOGH PAINTING ARE YOU ?

almond blossoms //

"there is nothing more truly artistic than to love people." van gogh had a brother, theo, who loved him very much. theo and his wife jo supported vincent for many years, and it was actually jo who kept vincent's legacy alive and is the reason he's famous now. they had a son that they named after vincent, and so van gogh painted the almond blossoms for his new nephew. you are a deeply gentle and caring person - even when the world gives you every excuse not to be. not only has love kept you alive, but it is your love that keeps everyone around you afloat. you mean more to people than you could ever know. some of your traits are: selfless, impulsive, and warm.

tagged by : @irrfahrer​

tagging : literally anyone and everyone .

#‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 ❭ 𝐈 𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇 .

[fatewills]

𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 : ❝ 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐈 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃𝐄𝐃 𝐘𝐎𝐔 . ❞ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄 & 𝐅𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐎𝐅 𝐏𝐀𝐃𝐌𝐄 𝐍𝐀𝐁𝐄𝐑𝐑𝐈𝐄 & 𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐄𝐕 𝐏𝐀𝐋𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐄

                                                              coming soon . . .

#‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 ❭ 𝐈 𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇 . #i'm here to break my own heart . consider this a teaser .

[fatewills]

𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐁𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐘 : 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐘𝐏𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐁 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 ?

                          𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐓 !

the world is a puzzle, so complex and multifaceted that you long to run your hands through the tapestry of its wonders and stay there forever, lost in the threads and colors and stories. you wish to stay there forever and you tell yourself it's to know the world but maybe it's not, maybe it's a fear that you're not enough, that you're so fragile and helpless in a world that moves too fast, to sharply, too many bright, painful colors that you stay locked inside your mind and thoughts, where you decide the tempo of your world, where you can grow and be as competent, as capable as you want, where the world is as wide as you can imagine it and never out of control unless you want it to be. your shield is your knowledge, your mind, and you never feel ready enough for the world around you, never feel prepared enough, never safe, and you wonder if things could have been different, if you could have been better, happier, more like everyone else if you'd just known what you know now.

#‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 ❭ 𝐈 𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇 . #just hit me right in the FEELS.

[fatewills]

𝐒𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐍   !

(   𝗌𝗒𝗆𝖻𝗈𝗅𝗂𝗓𝖾𝗌   :   structure,   law,   restriction,   discipline,   responsibility,   obligation,   ambition.   )

@commandsir​​     @debelltio​​

WHAT DOES YOUR MUSE FEAR?

uncertainty .  padme understands that not all matters are things she can solve - but being left in the dark , unable to anticipate the next move , terrifies her . it leaves her anxious , irritable - and in drastic cases , desperate . she would give anything to go back to when she was a child - when she did not fear heights , but she feared the dark . hiding under her covers , too scared to leave the bed at night believing something would snatch her foot . 

WHAT DO THEY WORRY ABOUT ?

the safety of her people on naboo . no matter the rank , the family name - padme worries herself with their wellbeing , even long after her term was over . even as she worked to be voted into the senate , she still continued to go out and work among the people , learn of their deepest desires and wishes . knowing she is not there with  them , knowing the further she ventures out , the less she can hear their cries - it breaks her heart . in that respect , she feels it for every bit of the galaxy , for those  who need her but she cannot reach . it leaves her feeling helpless at times . later in life , she begins to prioritize herself and her needs , namely her worries . which she acts on , but she never gets to see what comes of it .

WHAT RESTRICTS THEM ?

obligation , respect . sensibility . a sense of duty . the world does not stop simply because you ask it to . she knows that all actions come with consequences . so while she would like to hope for the best to barrel forward into the unknown , she knows her limitations . padme is not gung-ho like so many she knows . 

WHAT EXACTLY KEEPS THEM BOUND TO REALITY ?

a heavy heart . something so heavy to bare . like an anchor dragging her to the depths of an endless ocean , with only her head just above the waves .

WHAT ARE THEIR RESPONSIBILITIES ?

the safety and wellbeing of naboo . ask her on a different day , and she will reply “ protecting those who cannot protect themselves . “  these tasks includes being the voice of the people , the hands of the people , and the heart of the people . oftentimes , her responsibilities are not her own to carry , yet she finds the need to do so . call it her overly nurturing nature, if you so choose to .  

DO THEY HAVE OBLIGATIONS ?  MAYBE TO WORK  ?   ANOTHER PERSON  ?

obligations , of course , come from her choice of career . initially . as said before , her obligations are towards the people of naboo . as she travels further out into the galaxy , into coruscant and other planets , those obligations seem to expand with hesitation . it is not something given , rather she took it upon herself because padme feels a need to do so . for people , other than the obvious , she feels an obligation to those she holds close . her friends, companions, confidants . it takes trust for her to allow herself to grow close to others, despite her caring demeanor . she can care , while still not trusting . so when she considers you close , she makes their safety a necessity . even without muttering a word about it . 

DO  THEY HAVE A SET ROUTINE ?

surprisingly , yes . though , it seems rather obvious given the sort she is . padme works well with strategy , planning . while she can handle rapid fire and sudden encounters , she would much rather prefer a course of action when pertaining to matters . though , let us stray from work . a ‘ set routine’ padme often refers to is her ‘self care’ routine . the senator is very in tune with her body , and tries to care for it as much as she can . with creams , salves , and washing blended with a mixture of guroot and star urchin quills , she does well to take care of her complexion . she also always sips a cup of behot brewed tea before bed , believing it to to be the reason for her health . one cannot care for others without first caring for themselves. 

WHAT DOES THE WORD ‘ LAW ‘ MEAN TO THEM ?

law is what keeps order in check . law is a necessity that is more often abused than it is used for its original purpose . padme follows laws in pursuit of the wellbeing of the galaxy . perhaps , you could say , she grew up with a rather black and white sense of what was considered right and wrong . she had the innocence and naivety that many children carry - she believed everyone to contain some form of good within them . as she grew older , that perception of life was soon shattered , and she was left to pick up the disappointment of her betrayal . now she finds herself straying on whether the law she lived to uphold meant anything , or was it perhaps a ploy to distract her from the inevitable ?  

UNFORTUNETLY , THIS BEAUTIFUL PLANET CAN  CREATE STRAIN AND STRESS .  SO DOES YOUR MUSE STRESS EASILY   ?   

padme does , but she chooses to hide it . to show such weakness  only produces doubt within the minds of those who truly believe in her . i would not say easily , but her occupation does leave her frazzled more times than none .

DO THEY STRUGGLE WITH ANXIETY OR SIMILAR ISSUES ?   IF SO , HOW DO THEY DEAL ?

i am sure i am playing a broken record , but padme does experience anxiety , depression . while those close to her have instructed her to perhaps seek medical assistance for such - padme is rather reluctant and believes it to be much easier to swallow such insecurities down and move forward . which , makes her quite hypocritical , since she often gives such advice to others if they truly desire such . she is wise , but not wise enough to listen to her own advice . 

SATURN IS THE PLANET OF REALITY ,  WHICH IS HARD TO FACE .  DOES YOUR MUSE FACE THEIR ISSUES HEAD ON ,  OR DO THEY TEND TO LIVE IN THEIR OWN LITTLE WORLD ?

padme prefers to take on her burdens , issues , and such head on . she does not like to leave any stone unturned , any word left unspoken . she is , without a doubt , quite vocal when it comes to things that do not settle well on her heart . while she remains respectful , she will not leave a matter silent until she has given her two cents - sometimes , even if the situation did not call for it . 

#‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 ❭ 𝐈 𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇 . #‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐀𝐒𝐊 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐋𝐘 ❭ 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐘 - ‘𝐂𝐀𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐘 𝐈𝐒 𝐖𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐅𝐔𝐋 .

[fatewills]

𝐈𝐓 𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐊𝐒 . . of sulfur and brimstone .

𝐈𝐓 𝐒𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐒  . .  bares through skin as the flames of her sins engulf her . smother her .

why can't i -

wake up .

why can't i -

it's time to wake , now .

why can't i breathe ?

𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 , came the ringing . pitched like shattered bells piercing throughout her lobe . she can feel it , reverberating along her throat as it contracts . a grip bound along thin and slender neck , she finds herself gasping ;  her lungs begin to expand , they shutter . foreign air so forbidden , filling within the once collapsed organ . new life soon lifts barriers , and life flows through her blood as ravaging as the river . plush , parched lips divide to inhale , violent and desperate as it takes it in , in , in . lapping away as the taste of iron and metallic settles on the back of her tongue . nauseating . repulsive . she can't , the muscles within her convulsing , pressing her down within the make - shift coffin crafted for her corpse . voices find their way within the ringing , cutting through the fog that harbors in her mind and festers . the fluids from within the carbonite dislodges , forming waves that exhume from the corner of her mouth - foaming . up her airwaves and down her chin and cheeks . her head is lifted to allow it to pearl down her bare chest .

𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐃 , came the screaming . as soul - curdling as despair personified into a human form . it is mixed with the sputtering of fluids , gagging and writhing . she is a babe , borne again from the womb of an unknown mother . hands with permanently curled digits extend out to find the mother for which birthed her , limbs soon curling into a fetal position . the air is frozen against exposed skin , twitching and shivering to protect herself from the world around her . was this how infants felt , desperately snatching for  the voice that once guided them ? she finds no voice to guide her , only the deafening silence she has been subdued to . the silence she believed the heavens to be . her screams broke dry , cracking against newly - filled lungs as she found herself suffocating once again , head tossed back to swallow air .

𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐃 , came the feeling . darkness engulfing , no shred of light seemingly making its way through the cracks . it faded out like the dispersing of fog . hands reach for her , a gentle brush , and she feels her body snatching from it . kicking , clawing - muscles weak and soon collapsing back down onto the carbonite . it feels violating , exposure revealing vulgarity , revealing weakness . more reach to lift her , yet she strikes . was this truly her life after death ? now shadows lingering over blurred vision . she wanted to go back - go back into the darkness , into the fate she had been dealt . had she not been kind ? had she not been merciful ? the actions of her deeds awakening her within hell . within nothing . within everything . within shame .

shivering palms reach , crawling up the familiarity of her body , to her stomach . she remembers now , yes . the twins , her children . always so playful within the shelter of her womb . she needed to feel them , she needed to -

there was nothing , hand running over flattened surface .

again , she tried . over and over she tried as though she could not believe herself .

do you remember . . do you remember the feeling . . of him . . choking you ?

" where are they ? " she squeaked , voice shattered and weakened in soft yet dry whispers . " where are they ? " her life , her blood . everything she had wanted . to give them the peace she hoped to find , the life she hoped to give them .

" my babies - b-babies . . where . . ? " nails begin to claw , savagely , as though she could peel back the layers of flesh and feel them nestled together deep within . those same hands rush to pin her arms back , the warmth of blood pearling down her stomach . marks in clusters along her abdomen .

did . . they . .

" please - pl-please tell me . . where . . " the tears fell thick down her cheeks , clouding already obstructed vision . " my babies ! where are my babies ? ! "

padme wept in death harder than she had in life .

please , send me back to the darkness . please , let me die .

#‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐃𝐑𝐀𝐁𝐁𝐋𝐄 ❭ 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘'𝐑𝐄 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐒 - 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐌𝐘 𝐎𝐖𝐍 . #AU perspective of padme waking up in carbonite #tw : blood #tw : mentions of nudity #tw : child loss #tw : convulsions #listen i love to hurt my own feelings in my writing - so here is a small taste. #‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 ❭ 𝐈 𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇 .

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𝐓𝐇𝐄   𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐍   !

(   𝗌𝗒𝗆𝖻𝗈𝗅𝗂𝗓𝖾𝗌   :   unconsciousness,   emotions,   instincts,   habits,   moods.   )

@commandsir​ @masteredlegacy​​

IS YOUR MUSE AN EMOTIONAL PERSON ?

yes , to an extent . no , she is not going to wage a war because she is feeling bitter , no she is not going to break down sobbing in front of the senate because someone disagreed with her . padme feels emotions just like any other person , except she chooses to keep such a thing private . she shows heart break , her worry , her happiness visibly on her sleeve , and even disdain - until it comes to her own issues . she has never been one to air dirty laundry , drag others in - so she chooses to shut everyone out when it occurs . emotional , yes - but she represses it and hides it behind a strong yet stoic expression . she will most likely bury herself in work in order to distract her mind , though it is not always possible . when she is to a breaking point , she can become frazzled and visibly shaken . 

DO THEY FEEL DEEPLY OR NOT ENOUGH ?

deeply , almost to a fault . padme often feels like everyone’s burdens are hers to carry . with a naturally nurturing instinct , she has a habit of biting off more than she can chew , sweeping to the side of any wounded soul she can see in hopes of nursing them back . again, likely an attempt to cloud her own issues so she no longer has to face them ; but she feels with every part of her soul . a love that she feels for all life . no matter the size , she has the strongest urgency to protect everyone - no matter the cost .

IF SO , GO INTO DEPTH . ARE THEY CONTROLLED  BY THEIR INSTINCTS ?   DO THEY LISTEN TO WHAT  THEIR GUT IS TELLING THEM  OR DO THEY LET THEIR HEAD RULE INSTEAD ?  

intuition more than instinct , though they both have their fair share . they say a woman’s intuition is nothing to trifle with , and in the case for padme , it is most true . much of her reign strived off of instincts , off of intuition that pushed her to acknowledge grounds others had refused . her  tactics rely on thought and calculation , or situation and environment . the more her emotions become apparent , the more of her reactions begin to dwell in her mind , but she is quick to meditate and stabilize . someone has to remain calm in times of uncertainty .

DO THEY HAVE ANY CUTE OR UNHEALTHY HABITS ?

cute ? some would call it so . they are not so much habits as they are simple quirks she can never seem to break from . one of them being nibbling on the inside of her lip when she is feeling intrigued . when her mind is hooked , she will begin toying with her bottom lip . her mother would often scold her as a girl , saying the biting would leave her lips bruised . as for unhealthy  - besides emotion repressing , padme has a knack of refusing to sleep . the days always feel much too short , and those wee hours of the morning are the only times she can truly feel peace . so she will often force herself to stay awake in order to have time for herself.

WHAT IS THEIR MOOD LIKE ?

her mood is , for the most part , quite serene . she was raised to carry herself with dignity , poise , and respect . such a disgruntled personality , she was told , was not befitting of a lady. she is , however , very much human . with desires , restraints , and emotions . they can fluctuate , flare , and erupt as all people tend to do . she will never be outright rude unless the mood was deserving - and even in the sake of a criminal , she can still be calm . it goes without saying that around those she has grown close to , a bit more of her playful side shines through . padme can be quite playful , picking little debates just to pick at a person’s mind . she was also not against sneaking out to steal her father’s alcohol hiding in his desk as a teenager .

HOW DO THEY HANDLE RANDOM MOOD SWINGS ?

preferably in silence , alone . when she finds her emotions swayed , she will go blank - faced and oftentimes shut down . as though she is not quite sure how to handle them . perhaps from it being under the strict limitations she was raised - but padme often shuts down during highly stressful situations because she truly doesn’t know how to face them . in politics , it was easy to channel such into her passion from humanitarian work . when it comes to her own , she can’t . perhaps it is why she shies away from being romantic with anyone .

#‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐀𝐒𝐊 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐋𝐘 ❭ 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐘 - ‘𝐂𝐀𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐘 𝐈𝐒 𝐖𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐅𝐔𝐋 . #‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 ❭ 𝐈 𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇 .

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#‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ ❬ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 ❭ 𝐈 𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐇 . #padme falling into gungan waters as a child . #right before her crowning as queen.