#→life is an awful ‚ ugly place not to have a best friend / clarke & nina

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one. 

nina and clarke first met when they were such small children on the ark. nina was four , sick with a fever taking its toll on her fragile body and penned up in medical , alone for the time being while her megan grabbed more books from her classroom to read to her and lucas was at their quarters grabbing the sweater of his that he always tucked around her like a magic cape , when a girl about her age with baby blue eyes and blonde curls appeared at her bedside. 

nina had never really talked to anyone outside of her family besides abby , jackson and sometimes jake so all she had done for what seemed the longest time was stare at the other girl beside her bed with wide doe eyes. clarke had been the first to break the silence , offering her a smile and once noticing nina’s trembling raced to the cabinet to grab her an extra blanket , climbing up on abby’s stool to tuck it around nina’s shoulders .. it was after nina was gently tucked in , no longer shivering that clarke introduced herself and asked if she wanted to draw with her while they both waited for their parents. 

two.

clarke ( and wells ) both had tried quite a few times to teach her chess , try to get her to play it with them but , nina could never grasp the concept or what they liked so much about the game. still nina would find a seat between the two watching as they played , sometimes betting silly things like who got to pick the movie they watched , to play a prank on one of their parents. most times nina would watch them play , sometimes cheering them along , sometimes even just read or nap while they played. they were sometimes quiet , sometimes silly but , they are some of nina’s fondest memories. 

three. 

in any verse nina seeks clarke as her shelter , her safe space. she’ll seek out clarke but consciously and subconsciously when she’s disoriented , scared , hurt , etc. on the ark it was subtle because they were pretty much attached at the hip , it was when they got to the ground that it became more obvious especially when the virus hit. nina in her fevered delirium couldn’t seem to understand what was happening , couldn’t seem to understand why clarke wasn’t there. twice she woke up in mount weather crying for clarke during the trauma of the harvests. it was an instinct learned on the ark when clarke took care of her , protected her and one that grew during their time on the ground and even with a five year absence between them its one that never goes away because nina’s trust and love for clarke never dims. 

four. 

in a vague gre.ys inspired verse after her transplant , the accident and nina’s subsequent addiction she follows in clarke’s footsteps .. somewhat and goes to nursing school. nina holds true to the belief that the reason her fragile heart held on as long as it did was because clarke ( also her parents , abby and jake , wells , jackson . ) was constantly transfusing it with love , care and she carries that truth with her. she treats her patients with the same protectiveness , strength and care she received , believing that love can do wonders for healing. this also leads to nina always telling fellow staff , patients that her best friend , her love helped save her life when she herself was convinced she wouldn’t make it past that christmas. 

#pyrrhicmessiah #→life is an awful ‚ ugly place not to have a best friend / clarke & nina #→a mausoleum of unspoken hellos and goodbyes said too soon / answers #( so i know we talked about some of these on disco but i couldn't help expanding on the #( but i wanted a nice mix between softness and heartbreaking angst because that seems to be our thing )

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» happy birthday , clarke ! 

nina barely sleeps a wink before the alarm goes off and she taps her phone with an excited squeal. her mom’s at a pta meeting , her father on a night shift most likely home in an hour both having left wrapped presents and cards for the birthday girl , tucked away in a bright blue gift bag. megan helped her bake and frost the birthday cake that was sitting in a carrier and lucas was the one who helped her decorate the banner and blow up the balloons that were sitting in her car , 

“ cake , gifts , balloons .. “ 

the young woman runs down the list written in purple ink labeled “ clarke’s birthday !!!! “ that’s sitting on the counter next to the other bag holding the birthday tiara , candles and her own presents for clarke. a lot of their life isn’t normal; hospital visits on her end , long shifts on clarke’s end and crises on scott’s end but birthdays , especially clarke’s birthdays are a truly treasured day. she makes sure to eat a bagel and drink a glass of juice , take her meds before racing upstairs to pull on a soft blue sweater and skirt , pulling on booties before racing down the stairs in a way that would definitely have clarke begging her to be careful.

minutes later , nina has the gift bags tucked away in the back seat and the cake buckled into the passenger seat next to her. keeping impulse in check nina sings along to her and clarke’s playlist on her bluetooth , driving safely before parking next to clarke’s car. balloons in hand and gift bags in hand nina forgeoes even the slightest of knocks , setting down both gift bags before racing upstairs hopping on top of the bed with an excited and dimpled smile  , 

“ happy birthday ! happy birthday ! happy birthday , clarke ! “

#pyrrhicmessiah #→life is an awful ‚ ugly place not to have a best friend / clarke & nina #( happy birthday clarke !! ) #( or in other words one of nina's favorite days of the year !! ) #( i put this somewhere in modern but like happy one idk !! ) #( i just needed all things for clarke ) #( feel free to treat this as a drabble or a starter )

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nina hates fighting , she especially hates fighting with clarke. it just feels wrong even when it was just little fights over different books or their own restless nerves snapping at each other .. it always felt so wrong that most of those fights lasted a day at max before one of the girls came back with a hug and apologetic eyes. they weren’t those girls anymore though and nina wasn’t going to back down because as much as she hated fighting with clarke .. jasper needed her and that mattered above everything. 

“ i’m going ! “ the words rush out of her in a shout , quieting all the others instantly. all eyes fell to her and under any other circumstance it would have had her trembling , nervous under all the expectant gazes but , now , especially not now. instead , nina turned all of her attention away from them and to her best friend stood at the front of the tent , blue eyes lit with worry and that stubborn set to her shoulders that nina knew so well. “ i’m going. “

nina stepped forward , closed that small distance between her and clarke , reaching out to wrap her hand around clarke’s , hiding away the blood that stained the blonde’s hand , nina’s blood. she held on tight , a reassurance that she was strong enough ... she always was when clarke was by her side. doe eyes raised to meet clarke’s sky blue hues , 

“ jasper needs us , all we have is each other , we can’t leave him behind , clarke. he needs us. “

and i need you. 

#pyrrhicmessiah #→i am still falling asleep with hope suffocating between my clasped fingers / season one #→life is an awful ‚ ugly place not to have a best friend / clarke & nina #→a mausoleum of unspoken hellos and goodbyes said too soon / answers #( i can only imagine clarke not wanting nina to come along on a very dangerous mission to find jasper ) #( especially when she's been hurt and they've just discovered the dangers of earth ) #( and nina who is also stubborn who already cares so much about the 100 refusing to stay behind or back down )