#♜ facts ⇾ kit.

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    As much as I like to remind you that Kit is unlikely to survive to 30 years, as it is, this is not my endgame for her. 

              One of my headcanons is that she finds a scientist/doctor - someone - who, while they cannot REMOVE the tech, can deactivate the synthetic synapses and other portions of the Tech that will alleviate the strain on Kit’s body and inevitably allow her to live longer than expectations. 

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #wishlist.

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Kit | Fugue States

I've mentioned before but Kit has semi-regular dissociative fugues. Her episodes can range from moderate to severe, taking several hours or days from her. The cause is, of course, a mix of brain damage from her experimentation, but also from the general trauma of the experience.

There are several triggers but they're almost usually tied to a memory she can't fully remember. It can be little things - the feeling of a jacket, the way a child laughs, sunflowers, someone bumping into her etc.

Between her brain trying to remember what it can't vs. trying to suffocate the memories, her brain overloads and transitions into autopilot as a defense mechanism.

While this has not created a distinct enough personality to be considered within the purview of dissociative identity disorder, during a fugue state - Kit isn't herself. She's acts very cold and far more collected than her usual self.

During longer fugues, her brain will want to escape and will sometimes travel great distances to get away from the fugue's trigger. She has come back to herself in entirely different nations before.

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #edited from the main blog for this au.

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Much like her base canon, Gen!Kit has been physiologically altered by her experimentation. While aiming for one outcome with the experiments, the properties of the Ley Line and the Irminsul affected Kit in multitudes of ways, none so much as altering the make-up of her very nervous system.   

One could argue that she is no longer human, though there’s probably no word to describe WHAT she’s become. The effects mostly include resistance to pain and increased strength along with her ability to affect the resonance of Visions. Drawbacks include excessive exhaustion and a need for high caloric intake. 

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #v. (kit) gen.shin tbt #anyway reminder that im not a doctor or a scientist #nor am i well versed in magic either as;lkdasl; XD #so this is a bunch of word vomit and im sorry #but this was my way of keeping Kit to her canon abilities #i may add to this later

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    An updated thought process to Kit’s G.enshin verse that I forgot to mention: 

    Unbeknownst to Kit, her freedom is all part of her experiment. Unable to get the reaction they’ve wanted from her ability, the Akademiya faked a rescue to allow Kit to experience the ability unfettered by their captivity. Agents have been tasked to follow her and keep tabs on her whereabouts and take notes. She doesn’t realize it, but someone is always around the corner if they want to take her back.  

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #v. (kit) gen.shin tbt

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Meme on the dash made me think about it but Kit hates hospitals. There’s an understandable comparison to Obsidian’s research facilities and the idea of being poked and prodded by ANYTHING ever again is abhorrent. You will have to drag her kicking and screaming to the hospital and God help you if she wakes up there because you will have a mess. 

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #kit will riot and she has the strength of a fucking train

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100 Important Character Questions | @dayanghan​​ 

What is your best memory? 

I could rehash that her best memory is the sunflower one. The one she BARELY remembers of her and her father in a maze of sunflowers. The sun is warm and it is her favorite. But of the memories she has made since ESCAPING - the memories that are WHOLE - Her favorite is the first time her little plant produced a flower. It was extremely tiny as the poor plant doesn’t have much room in the tiny little pot she has it in, but it was something beautiful all the same. 

Who is the most important person in your life, and why? 

The answer to this is very partner-specific, however some argument could be made that it’s either Dr. Oliver Kendrick as he is the entire catalyst behind her EXISTENCE or unbeknownst to her, Tae-mi Jin for being the individual who freed her from Obsidian in the first place. But more often than not the most important people in her life becomes the individuals she interacts with over time such as Genji or Shiro or Jack etc. 

Who is the person you respect the most, and why? 

I don’t think she truly respects ANYONE actually, simply because she’s such a kid about everything. She’s a confused, unintentionally disrespectful teenager. And authority = Oliver = bad in her opinion as well. Genji. 

What is your most treasured possession?

It’ll be a toss up between her journal of flower clippings & drawings or the headphones she received from a man who tried to protect her and was killed by Obsidian when she first escaped. 

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #i too am thinking about kit asld;ka; #thank you! #dayanghan

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Kit & Self-Image

content warnings: (internalized) ableism, body dysmorphia, disordered eating

I can make this simple and tell you outright: Kit has a WARPED, mostly negative, self-image.

But the down and dirty is of course, the reasons WHY: 

First and foremost - and the most complicated in her opinion - is the Tech itself. While none of it is VISIBLE, Kit is equal parts organic and synthetic. Beneath the surface you have the Nanobots, the synthetic synapses they created and the chip. And while Kit doesn’t understand the FULL extent of what has been done to her, she knows that her body is not entirely human anymore and that scares her and in some way, disgusts her. The knowledge that SOMEONE can control her is even more frightening - reminiscent of fears of the OMNIC crisis. Though none of it lies on the SURFACE, Kit has a habit of looking at herself and seeing ROBOTIC features and FEARING herself. But her ability to explain these fears, these concerns, are buried in her misunderstanding of the Tech and her belief that she doesn’t DESERVE to worry about something that no one can see. Her “problem” is hidden and that makes her luckier than most, she tells herself.

SECOND: Kit genuinely hates her appearance. While she thinks about it very rarely, Kit’s aware that she doesn’t look “normal”. She’s heavily scarred, all over. Her back, her neck, arms and fingers, her face. She’s malnourished and unhealthy looking due to Obsidian’s treatment and a cycle of disordered eating.

See - Kit KNOWS she needs to eat, knows she needs nutrients, but she doesn’t know how or simply CAN’T due to her lifestyle. So she binges on junk and anything she can get, but because her stomach doesn’t process it well, particularly not in large quantities, she inevitably pukes it back up. And repeat. Further this with the fact that she doesn’t know how to take care of her appearance as it is. She manages to bathe at least, but she doesn’t know how to brush her hair. Or that she needs to. And she looks at herself and she knows she wants to blend in, to look normal, but she just doesn’t know HOW.

And last but not least - is her autism. Something that has haunted her since she was a kid. She doesn’t know it by name, what she does know is that she’s DIFFERENT. She’s always been different. Before Obsidian. Before Oliver. And the unfortunate part is that the only reason it bothers her is that Oliver brainwashed her into believing that no one would care about her because of it. That for whatever reason she was so abnormal that the world would be cruel to her and only he could protect her. While it bothers her the LEAST of all these reasons, she does have her moments when she wishes she hadn’t been different. That for all these years she could’ve been normal. Then maybe all the horrible things would’ve never happened at all.

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #i am sorry for putting this on your dashes this fine saturday #i just have a lot of emotions #internalized ableism cw #dysmorphia mention #eating disorder cw #emetophobia cw

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     Kit’s not the best artist. but during her time in captivity she found an interest in it and developed knack for accurately drawing different flora that she finds when she gets the chance. 

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #kits got hobbies and its plants #ive said it once and ill say it again #if she could stay in one place - she'd garden for sure

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added facts today - kit even adores dead & dying flowers.  you know how when you have a bouquet, when they start to dry and wither, you want to throw them away? kit still loves them very much. 

kit is also definitely that person who buys (and maybe steals) those flowers that are on clearance or even WAY PAST clearance that no one wants to buy anymore.

#♜ facts ⇾ kit.

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this is your reminder that kit loves flowers so much; she was a walking flower encyclopedia once

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #kit just wants to remember every flower fact ever

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     kit’s little giggles. 💖 if you agree. 

#pow.der/ji.nx is kit mood okay #i associate the same giggles #even if you dont though #just imagine her giggling #its cute #and well deserved happiness #♜ facts ⇾ kit.

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things that make up kit’s appearance that i almost always try to work into a picrew: 

those few little locks that are just not quite the same length as the others and will grow out wonky. they come from just the way her hair grows over time. she refuses to get it cut and therefore will not let those little locks be trimmed to be even 

her hair is messy. she doesn’t own a brush. she didn’t HAVE hair while she was with obsidian. she doesn’t know she needs to brush her hair. she probably DOES have twigs and leaves and flowers in it all the time 

she really likes to wear overalls. 

flowers. always flowers. somewhere. in her hair. in her pockets. in her hands

facial scarring - im so happy that this new picrew had them. but she’s known to scratch herself somewhat by accident. and also gets into so many fights with obsidian agents. 

the dark circles under her eyes. they’re so obvious you want to feed this girl benadryl until she sleeps for a week. she just....doesn’t get enough rest. her body pretends it no longer needs it, until its too much. 

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #let me talk about my girl!!!!!! #ive got big feelings about her today #!!!!!! #but also please teach the girl to brush her hair #its gonna get matted #and its gonna have to get cut anyway #and shes gonna cry

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Kit has been physiologically altered by her experimentation. While aiming for one outcome with the experiments, the properties of the Ley Line affected Kit in multitudes of ways, none so much as altering the make-up of her very nervous system.   

One could argue that she is no longer completely human, though there’s probably no word to describe WHAT she’s become. The effects mostly include resistance to pain and increased strength along with her ability to affect the resonance of Visions. Drawbacks include excessive exhaustion and a need for high caloric intake. 

#♜ facts ⇾ kit.

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I word vomited in the last post but I want to make it clear that. 

Kit has the idea that (most) Omnics are okay, yes. 

However she herself as something IN-BETWEEN is absolutely abhorrent. 

Which is complicated when she meets Genji who she DOESN’T feel the same way about. It’s all self-directed. 

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #please let me know if this is not clear #its related to a personal feeling im projecting so its like....a little weird

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    Kit would probably get REALLY into reading picture books to kids. 

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #kit reading a book about the letter F #and going absolutely bonkers when it says 'Frog' #she'd love it

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What Flavor is your Soul?

  cinnamon.

   oh child of spice you are bound to the core of the earth. can you feel the heartbeat of nature pulsing through your veins. you are the mouthful of autumn that scorched through your throat, you are the pepper of life that wakes up the weary. the foolish and shaking will attempt to dilute you with sickening sugar, do not let them. your spark is what keeps us alive my dear. keep burning, little star. you see the beauty and the light, but oh you have been fed poison and refuse to drop it onto other's tongues. be wild. I know what your heart is chanting. run. run. run. run dear, find your story. do not trade your spirit for safety. you are a child of the earth, forever seeking, forever dancing.

#♜ facts ⇾ kit. #IM CRYING #BABY #d;f;lkfds;lkfds