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REPOST & LIST 6 SONGS THAT INSPIRE YOU TO WRITE YOUR MUSE .

( i know this is a multi but i'm picking rue and alice since they're the ones i write the most for this meme, just becauuuuse jfc who wants to see me post that for 8 fucking muses, nobody, that's who )

RUE BENNETT

born sinner ft james fauntleroy - j cole i'm a born sinner / but i'll die better than that, i swear / you were always where i needed you to be / whether you were there or not there ( i was there ) / i was born sinning / but i live better than that ( better than that ) / if you ain't fucking with that, i don't care / ( ooh, ooh, ooh ) yeah, yeah, yeah

shampoo - ilya i left my necklace on your counter / trapped my soul inside your heart / painted lipstick on your mirrors / took what you left me with and turned it into art / and i know that you’re not stupid / your hungry heart was overfed / say you made your bed you gotta lie in it / but then you lied to me instead

i will carry you - safari riot x old man saxon give me your pain / give me your sorrow / tell me what hurts / if not today then tomorrow / whats the protection from life and death / things already seen, fear or regret / all we ever do is choose, pain is inevitable / pick your poison, feel your cup / but i will carry you / is that enough?

naturally - tinashe i been wondering why we do, i'm at the highest of highs / can i have you back, maybe just for tonight? / baby, i can see the ecstasy when you with me, i know / ain't no time for jealousy, but i see she don't get you like i do

fade away - lucky daye i just want this feeling to last / i bet i'll beg for you to face it / feels, they change like the weather / close my eyes, find forever / gotta be nice on the / other side, 'nother side / is it cruel of me / to pretend i can't see / when i pass you by? oh / is it wrong of me / to feel the same pain / but not know why? / not know why

3:16 am - jhené aiko i do not feel the fear of fallin, i wanna fly / if it all goes well then i will / but what if i don’t? / i'll be right where i was before / but i’m not alone, you say take my hand / and we go ( and we go ), and we go ( and we go ) / and i hope that we don’t overdose / cause we don’t ( cause we don’t ) / no we don’t ( no we don't ) / ever know when we have had enough / wait…

ALICE LIDDELL

pink + white - frank ocean that's the way everyday goes / every time we've no control / if the sky is pink and white / if the ground is black and yellow / it's the same way you showed me / nod my head, don't close my eyes / halfway on a slow move / it's the same way you showed me / if you could fly then you'd feel south / up north's getting cold soon

dangerous ft kid cudi - schoolboy q i'm feeling dangerous, i'm feeling nauseous / road left me crazy, soaring, i wanna / smoking and faded, i got enormous / drinkin' and swangin', i'm feelin' dangerous / greet me by my hand 'til you teach me to float / head is in the clouds with my stomach below / somethin' 'bout this feeling, i felt it before / took this pill and it swallowed me whole / pinch me on my arm, is it heaven or fun? / if i don't come back, had a hell of a run

cherries ft aminé - hope tala the cherries in your mouth spill stars / scarlet venom to keep in jam jars / we all build worlds with joined up scars / but your constellation has stained my guitar / and the french in your mouth breaks ribs / makes heads go light and hands lose their grip / pulling teeth behind a bottom lip / to look for cherry stones and rotting apple pips

true crime ft miso - epik high the world has given you names that deny you / "obsession," "addiction" and "taboo" / you're a controversial work, the spark that incites my heart / don't care what they say / you make my dead heart beat again / when i'm surrounded by enemies / you make me clench a pen instead of a fist / love is where you find it, whatever that placе is

top again ft saba - audrey nuna 'cause it's raining / your favorite / grass is green / i might just kurt cobain it / just face it / shameless / complacent / new precipitation but you waste it / just waiting / i was dancing all this time / dancing on this mic / don't call the night / loud like mordechai / dancing all this time / dance 'til the pretty die / don't come inside / 'til I'm on top again

jotto - bibi seeing you digging into my skirt / my hatred towards humans is on the rise / the anxiety and longing you gave me as well as pills and wine / i laugh and swallow them down / what sad thing happened / what wonderful love did you have such that / with your body and mind that have become a rag / how could you come knock on my door

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are you the soldier , poet , or king ?

the king

"There will come a ruler Whose brow is laid in thorn Smeared with oil like David's boy" Duty. Strength. Resignation. You were told to do things and you did them. The world is something that was put into your hands and that you must deal with - so you will. You have a rigid back and steady hands, either metaphorically or physically. Is it nature or nurture ? You don't know. You are tired of being steady. You dream of feeling alive. Not that you aren't, but, sometimes, it's hard to remember that there is a heart between your ribs. Your love is where you breathe. Come on, breathe. In. Out. It starts now.

the poet

"There will come a poet Whose weapon is His word He will slay you with His tongue" Loneliness. Strength. Joy. You are powerful, but struggle believing it. You think you're not enough. Here's the truth : you are. You sing songs and hope they carry faith, because you have run out if it, and yet you still throw your heart out to the world and hope it makes it through. You convince yourself that pain is art because at least then, you will always have something to create. You are tired of stumbling through life. You dream of a ground you can stand on. One day, you will dance. Your love is where you feel - without fear.

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@maddypcrez​ wants : “ I need a meta about why you think z sings all for us and the whole overdosing sequence “

i never do this, but ily roxy - for anyone curious, this is the video clip. lyrics here!

so like already, you know the lead up to this is going to be like, super fucking raw. you can tell by the way rue’s walking home, there have no soundtrack even playing, they just wanna let you hear how fucking absolutely bone deep fucked up she feels about what’s just happened. she’s absolutely in love with this girl, and just before she comes up with this plan for them to just run away, she’s had this whole conversation with someone that rue has already, in her mind, shot to death and set on fire ( yikes, we never delve deep on that fantasy, do we? ) where he basically reinforces absolutely everything that rue’s fucking afraid of. that she’s weak, forgettable, and just a chapter in the life of someone that she already has put on this pedestal and can’t imagine liking her the same way she likes her.

all of this sets her into the crazy spiral that ends with - as we know it - jules getting on the train, the two girls sobbing and staring at each other, and rue left on the platform, watching the train pull away from the station.

so i mean... that happens, and rue’s devastated. even if it’s not really rational, she feels absolutely betrayed because it feels as if she’s been abandoned ( and we know from episode one of season two, that that’s exactly how she describes it to others ). is she right in this? no, i mean, lmao, girl fucking suggested they go themselves, and she was the one who did a bit of a flip flop over here. i think she just thought jules would stay with her, and was almost even self sabotaging herself with this. we know by this point in the season, rue has been sober for 3 months. and like... honestly? addiction kicks in, gets her desperate, makes her mean. but also, it makes her so much more willing to act up in order to find an excuse.

and you see it, because what happens the next shot? rue’s fucking on her bed, already staring at a line of whatever pills she had stolen. she later describes these to ali as being ones she kept ‘in emergency’, showing just how reluctant she is to really give up drugs, even with jules in the picture, and that frankly, she knows herself that having jules will never be enough to make her stop wanting to feed her addiction to drugs. it gets weirdly meta with rue looking back at the camera directly, and you can see just like... you see she’s both ready, full of dread, full of excitement, she’s knows distinctly as well that the audience is watching, and when she looks down and back up, there’s even shame. and then whoosh there she goes.

the whole segment of her entering this like... music video esque movement is seriously crazy but i feel it’s rue getting that sweet sweet high and getting completely lost in her high. i mean i smoke a lot so i feel i can say with some sense of authority that when you’re high like you can get off your fucking face sometimes and it really does feel like you’re just lucid dreaming. and you can really feel this sense of this feeling almost like a death march for herself. like this hope she had in having something to really love, adore, and pour herself into wasn’t what she’d built it up to be, and like, that’s a crushing feeling, even if it was really unrealistic of her to imagine jules as being this like. be all, end all person who could cater to her and only her, even when she was in there actively trying to spoil herself from being successful in this relationship.

it’s just this long sequence of rue tripping through her house, seeing the person she misses the most in her father, watching her mother struggle and her sister having been impacted dramatically from seeing her OD over the summer... like you know she’s feeling this joy, this release, this freedom in finally getting high again, but she also feels very guilty about the real people in her life she’s hurting with it. when she moves outside, stumbling into the streets, there’s literally a marching band, a huge choir, everyone’s specifically dressed, too, in colours like her, with her red hoodie that we, just for this ending sequence, finally, FINALLY learn why she’s always wearing it ( because it belongs to her father, who has just... deeply impacted her life because he’s only been dead for 3 years, and reasonably was suffering a long decline before that from cancer ).

you see her stumbling through the streets, trying to get away, but those in the choir catch her, throw her about, and then eventually push before a mountain made up of members of the choir, who she holds onto in order to climb over them. i mean it’s fucking symbolism, right? how rue is genuinely stepping over other people to fulfil her addiction, that this, her selfishness, her inability to stop hurting herself because of the emptiness she feels about losing her father, and now losing jules, becomes all that consumes her. and she just can’t. we find out later that rue doesn’t really want to live. she dreams about killing herself and ending it, but we know she’s never been able to succeed in this, even though she plays around with the idea of it. instead, she relapses, and upon reaching the top of this ‘mountain’, even with the lyrics, she’s saying she hopes jules will come back to remind her of who she was, before she disappears into that good night - aka, even as she’s sinking back into addiction, she’s praying that she’ll have a chance to see jules again before she manages to kill herself.

it ends with rue falling backwards over the edge ; essentially, plunging back into her old habits and struggles, and represents how it feels as if she has no safety net for herself. the screen goes black - and then you hear until then. aka, this is just now what she’s choosing for herself, that this is now her life that she’s going to sink into until that moment in which she really does manage to kill herself. tragic. but a fucking visual feast for anybody who cares for cinematography. the differences in labrinth’s and z’s version of the lyrics really just highlight what this means for rue - the personal loss, the shame. she doesn’t sing it like him, but as rue, and you feel how desperate she feels through this whole piece. love it. 10/10. can’t wait to see how they try to top that this season.

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EUPHORIA HOMEWORK HOUR - 

from @notcruel - what were her thoughts when leaving laurie's? did she have an idea of what laurie wanted to do to her? is she at all worried about her own consequences at all or is she still just worried about dying?

okayyyy... well that was a whole ass trip, and i mean you in particular saw me losing my mind as we all watched together but like, i’ll say this. i am afraid for rue. i am afraid, because this woman is a stone cold hustler, and she takes no qualms in drugging and selling a 17 year old girl. it wasn’t even about the threats laurie gave when she handed rue the suitcase, she’s been planning on fucking doing this the whole time. laurie can tell rue is an addict and knows all the hallmarks. the way that she told rue she had no pills but had them in the suitcase and purposefully gave rue her drugs via a needle tells me this is all premeditated on her part. and with that, that she’s trying to spiral her down a worse path of addiction so that she can get what she wants ; someone to work as a prostitute for her.

now like when waking up, rue probably felt a ton of panic. it’s a room she doesn’t know, a bed she doesn’t remember getting into, she has vague memories of all the fucked up shit that happened last night, and she genuinely, truly blacked out. that’s fucking petrifying, now add in all the weird shit she KNOWS happens at laurie’s ( like that dude coming out naked? now i feel that shit was on purpose to test her reactions ) and honestly wouldn’t be able to tell anyone if she was sexually assaulted or something like that that night. like rue wouldn’t be able to tell you shit, and i think that’s something she knows and terrifies her. 

would she know the full extent of what laurie’s planning? no. we’re lucky that most of us have the insight of being adults and knowing how to spot a predator’s behaviour, but rue’s fucking 17 and a drug addict and half the time can’t even trust herself. she’s thinking now that she isn’t dead, she’s going to owe this woman a ton of money and that she might end up super fucked. that’s why she goes home. rue doesn’t know what to do or where to go and she’s totally terrified. so the safest place to go is home to her mom, like, she’s not worried about dying ( let’s be real here, rue has talked multiple times now about not wanting to live so... ) but rather what she suspects will be worse ; being stuck owing laurie a ton of money and having no way forward, and no way back. she’s done this to herself and now she can’t even die the way she planned to with that suitcase of drugs to help make it easy for her, and she can’t go to fez for drugs because she seriously fucked up with him.

all around, she knows things aren’t looking good. but registering the depth of laurie’s plan isn’t really on her mind, she’s just terrified that laurie’s going to come for her mom, her sister, and fez, and we’ve all seen, rue doesn’t really consider herself fuckable ( blind ass bitch she is ) and because of it that whole vibe, whatever the fuck part of it doesn’t factor in. she’s on a whole ‘i fucked everything up oh my god what can i do’ panic zone right now, like she thinks she’s lost all her friends, her girlfriend, and her family, and that’s it, no thoughts, just brrrr, you know?

anyways, assignment complete!

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@mcsaiccfmuses​ asks - ok but what about this scene..... Rue says the only feeling bigger than love is loss and describes herself as deeply shy... can you talk about how these things relate!

y’all really coming out here but - that’s ok. i understood the assignment 😌✨ i thought how better to process tonight’s episode than by writing this out? big thanks for sending this through kinny! ♡

so i think if there’s anything i’m getting from this season, it’s about how different people cope with loss. you see it in each character and what they’re doing in their lives to help work within the confines of it. with cassie, it’s the loss of her father and the loss of love from her life, and all the destructive things she’s doing to try to chase love, in someone that reminds her of her father. in jules, it’s the loss of direction she’s had since the end of her special episode, where she’s beginning to grapple and experiment with the idea of her gender expression, freed of expectations of femininity. for maddy, it’s the loss of her love for nate and where she needs to go from here to find herself. for lexi, it’s the loss of her father, her identity, and her purpose, trying her best to rebrand herself as the hero of her own story. and for rue... well. for her, everything ties back to the loss of her father, doesn’t it? 

i think that’s what taught her that love was not enough. love wasn’t going to keep her father alive, and it was the first time when wanting and trying just wasn’t good enough. at this point, rue’s lived her life rather numb; she’s always been on some kind of drug, either prescribed, or not, as a means of escapism. she’s watching someone she loves die so slowly, that it eats away at her happy memories and the love itself can’t hold someone she cares for at her side. for her, love isn’t something that has the same permanence that it might for some of her peers, though if they talked to one another more, maybe they’d realize they’re all suffering in different ways. but i digress.

knowing that rue lacks this feeling of anything staying ( it resonates back in the same episode where rue, playing ‘jade’ in lexi’s show version of her life, where she says this exact line ), it makes rue really withdrawn after her father passes. she doesn’t really talk or reach out to others, she’s an awful friend, she’s so consumed in this sadness and loss that’s taken over her life and everything in it, that she can’t bare the idea of talking to people. it’s shyness, but it’s also a complete reluctance to engage with people at all. and it’s not new, we know this about rue because she talks to jules and invites herself over not only because she’s in love that moment she sees her ( as rue says herself ), but also because in that moment... rue is high! she fucking does drugs in the bathroom, stumbles downstairs, and then runs into jules and nate fighting in the kitchen. high off her ass, she invites herself over to jules’ place ; because when she’s high, she doesn’t really feel that sense of fear of loss looming over her.

that said, to tie this to @maddypcrez​‘s other question, rue may feel this way, both for loss and shyness and the rest, but rue will purposefully ruin her happiness. it’s easier for her to say she fucked up and is a terrible person then to feel a loss of control again as she did with her father. in doing drugs so recklessly behind jules’ back, and doing a terrible job at hiding it, she’s setting herself up to fail. then she can blame the drugs, or herself, but nor jules. i think she does it to pre-empt the idea that jules might do it because rue might not be enough. to be put in that position again terrifies the shit out of her, and you can see how she acts tf up along the way within all of this.

anyways yeah. that’s that on rue, loss, and shyness.

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ahsbsh  this  for  alice  no  Doubt,  just  shoves  it  at  her  like  “here  ya  go  thought  ‘bout  ya”.  and  rue  gets  a  card  that  ishtar  printed out  at  school  (just  add  some  glitter  for  the  final  look)

me: stoned af me: …… a…… A DORA BOWL. RUE IS ADORABLE!!!!!!!!

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for @joc-cook​ - polaroids strung up in rue’s room at her halfway house in london

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⭐️⭐️⭐️ heh

more stars, more headcanons meme ( accepting ) + @joc-cook // cook

⭐️ - headcanon #1

Rue meets Cook at her halfway house - he’s there to deliver drugs to another resident, and she finds him in the hallway when she’s on the way to the bathroom, and, she’s wearing an oversized shirt and he makes a cheeky comment about her legs. And all she asks in response is if he’s Carrie’s dealer, and if so, what’s he got, and does he do deliveries? Before flipping him off and going past him while the bathroom’s free. And from there they meet, more often than not at parties, in London’s grimy underground scene. She’s aggressively American, and stained in glitter, and every time they meet, she’s left some somewhere on his body.

⭐️ - headcanon #2

One time she gets so high at a party, she blacks out with the worst sort about her, and Cook manages to pry her out. She’s in the back seat of his car with someone else driving and her head in his lap, and she’s in and out. And she tells him far too much then, about her life back home, about her dad who dies. About the hospital visits, about Gia, about Jules. About how she wishes she got on that train, and that maybe her life would be different, and that there’s a lot about him that reminds her of Jules, and how she resents him but she’s fucking happy that he stays, and then she throws up on the floor of his car, and passes out again.

⭐️ - headcanon #3

She doesn’t know what’s got him triggered, but he tells her about a girl named Effy from when he was growing up, and about Emma from only... well, he isn’t specific enough to say. But, she knows that he’s loved them and knows that he’s looking for pieces of them in all the girls he meets, and they hold hands while hanging out on playground swings, and she tells him that he’s gonna be alright, because he’s fucking Cook, isn’t he? But then he tells her about Freddie, and she thinks, she’s got to call home and let Lexi know that she misses her, and she tells him that he’s done all he could, and she’d have done the same in his position. She asks him to sleep over that night, and blames it on the Vicodin, but really she’s afraid of what he might do if he were alone that night.

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WHAT  DO  YOU  WISH  YOU  COULD  SAY ? 

                                       "i'm hurting and help is beyond me.”

there's something going on with you mentally. you haven't told anyone because you don't want to drag them down with you. it kills you on the daily and you feel like you're falling apart, however, nobody's noticed. you feel like you should be thankful for that, but it just hurts more. you feel selfish and weak for wanting help, yet something deep and knotted beneath your diaphragm is screaming to let go of the pain and let someone else handle it for awhile.

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👻 ( cookie // ruuuue )

make a snapchat edit meme ( accepting ) + @joc-cook // cook

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how do you need to be loved?

ALICE LIDDELL recklessly, like a horse running as fast as he can You've been told that the way you love can never last, and that heartbreak is inevitable. But you don't want to love carefully. You want to love with reckless abandon. You want to love with everything you have, and you want to be loved the same way. You don't want them to worry about tomorrow. Make today worth living for.

COLETTE BING carefully, like a gentle rain on dry earth You've been left beaten down and by someone you really trusted and loved, so now love doesn't come easy for you. You want it to. You want to love and be loved, but you're not sure you remember how. So you need someone else to take the lead. They have to be gentle and sweet and patient. They have to watch out for you, and make sure youre doing okay, because most days you feel a little fragile, if not totally shattered. But someone will come along who will put those pieces back together again.

MARLENE McKINNON casually, the same way you love to breathe You want someone who will see your favorite flower and will give it to you, without even thinking about it. You want someone who will remember all the little details about you, the things so seemingly unimportant but that matter more than you thought they did. You want someone who will still be there, thirty years down the line, holding your hand while the two of you do two separate things. You want the intimacy of being known by someone who makes you feel safe. You don't want expensive dinners or grand proposals. You want someone who will love you consistently.

RUE BENNETT deeply, like the vastness of the sea You are a very passionate person. You feel everything so intensely, and that definitely includes love. You need someone who will match that passion, that intensity. You need someone who will care about you as much as you care about them, but you have a hard time finding that. You're usually the one who loves more, and it's sad sometimes, but it's okay. But you will find someone who loves you just as much as you love them.

HAN SOOKHEE carefully, like a gentle rain on dry earth You've been left beaten down and by someone you really trusted and loved, so now love doesn't come easy for you. You want it to. You want to love and be loved, but you're not sure you remember how. So you need someone else to take the lead. They have to be gentle and sweet and patient. They have to watch out for you, and make sure youre doing okay, because most days you feel a little fragile, if not totally shattered. But someone will come along who will put those pieces back together again.

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NEGATIVE QUALITIES,  zodiac edition ( RUE & MARLENE )

— tagged by : @earthsplita​ & @gonpleiga​ — tagging: @wildrcbel​ / @bringwar​ / @dangeress​ / @survivormoves​ / @shesdaylight​ / @veracicus​ (sirius & narcissa) / @crrw​ / @gracefallen​ / @joc-cook​ / @learnednothing​ / @naivefell​ / @maddypcrez​ / @madkids​ (moonhee) / @ourpyrrhicvictory​ (angelina) / @pyrrhicmessiah​

adapted from this post! bold what definitely applies to your muse. italicize what somewhat applies to your muse  bold for rue, and italicize for marlene. repost; do NOT reblog.

𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 .     tries to do everything at once, doesn’t know when to stop and take care of themselves, bends over backwards for everyone even if someone did them dirty, has entirely too much on their plate

𝐓𝐀𝐔𝐑𝐔𝐒 .     idealistic, spends a lot of time trying to impress others, doesn’t like to apologize, eating is a coping mechanism or just addictive personalities in general, a tad codependent

𝐆𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐈 .     the most flip floppy people ever, what’s today’s mood?, never apologizes, in denial 90% of the time, their way is the highway, desperately needs a break, they have a hard time setting goals because their goals scare them

𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐑 .     the literal meaning of I’ll give you the shirt off my back, isolates themselves in fear of someone hurting them, wants to change but is scared of change, complains a lot but never takes advice people give them

𝐋𝐄𝐎 .     no one takes them seriously because they feel they always have to portray themselves as the fun one, is actually really sad inside, honestly needs a hug, exhausted always

𝐕𝐈𝐑𝐆𝐎 .     can dish it but can’t take it, rushes everything, anxious, plans their future but forgets to live in the moment, sometimes ignores their friends because they have so much on their mind, talks about themselves a lot and sometimes forgets to ask the other person how they are

𝐋𝐈𝐁𝐑𝐀 .     solves everyone’s problems but their own, is actually really sad and lonely, gets easily heartbroken but tries not to show it, will do anything to justify bad decisions, honestly just wants everyone to love them but doesn’t really love their self

𝐒𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐏𝐈𝐎 .     easily set off, will give anyone the cold shoulder at any time even without reason, keeps a lot in, so observant that they often times find out things that hurt them, too many “what ifs” swirling in their heads, has trouble showing their true selves

𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐔𝐒 .     impatient, brash, commitment issues, body issues, doesn’t realize they don’t need to change for anyone, has a lot of different goals to a point where they get overwhelmed, just wants to disappear and do what they want without anyone questioning them

𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐍 .     scared people won’t like them unless they’re at the top of their game 24/7, takes a lot for them to talk about their feelings, secretly struggling, fake happy, needs a plan but doesn’t know what that plan is, confident but insecure at the same time, wants to be stable but sometimes wishes they could drop everyone’s expectations of them and live normally

𝐀𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐔𝐒 .     gets heartbroken like 30 times a week, trust issues, can be unmotivated and disinterested, feels they have to adapt to every person they meet so they can be liked, doesn’t know how to tap into their emotions despite being very intuitive, confused, expects little

𝐏𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐒 .     empathetic often to a point of no return, plays the victim, doesn’t know when to say no, cynical, hermit, is very impatient, trusts everyone too much, can be secretly very critical and judgmental, can only tolerate maybe ten minutes of social interaction, needs a lot of validation

#❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ headcanons ┆ it kind of collapses time ! #❝ memes ❞ ┆ turned what you left me with and turned it into art ! #❝ m. mckinnon ❞ ┆ headcanons ┆ i feel so alone on a friday night !

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⭐️⭐️⭐️

more stars, more headcanons meme ( accepting ) + @maddypcrez // maddy

⭐️ - headcanon #1

Rue meets Maddy in the 5th grade - they don’t talk a lot but Maddy’s off of her whole beauty queen thing and one day she asks Rue to come over so that she can do her make up, and to compliment her height. Unfortunately for her, Rue’s more awkward than not about compliments, and froze in place, but she did leave knowing how to do a killer winged liner, and that orange is, in fact, her colour. After that, Rue’s had Maddy over a few times, more for low key things like dinner when her parents are fighting, and they often binge dumb reality tv shows together - Rue introduces Maddy to Love Island, and Maddy shows Rue The Bachelor. 

⭐️ - headcanon #2

The incident from Freshman Formal, Rue’s always kept her distance from Nate. She doesn’t even tell Maddy what happened when the two of them start dating, and like, Rue’s pretty happy for her and it seems to be fine until one day when she’s hanging out with Maddy and Nate comes by unannounced. Maddy never said anything about it, but Rue knows that she noticed that she left pretty quickly, feeling and looking sick. It’s not like Rue expects her friend to leave her boyfriend over it - besides, they weren’t even dating then. But it’s hard for her to really stomach being around him in closed spaces, and since then, Maddy’s always given her a heads up so that she can make a more graceful exit.

⭐️ - headcanon #3

On the night of the Winter Formal, Maddy is one of the first people who arrives at the hospital, with Lexi, Cassie and Kat; turns out they all piled into someone’s limo, and Maddy convinced them to drive to the hospital once Gia got the message out to Lexi. When Rue eventually wakes up, Maddy’s in the chair close by, and says ‘bitch, you upstaged the fucking Winter Formal’, which earns a laugh from everybody in the room, even Rue. Later on in the night, they hold hands and Rue thanks her for coming, and tells her after a while that she really did want to die, but she’s glad that she didn’t seeing everyone here.

#maddypcrez #❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ canon verse ┆ drugs are kind of cool ! #❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ headcanons ┆ it kind of collapses time ! #❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ meme reply ┆ everything feels so permanent !

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⭐️ ( O and rue! )

more stars, more headcanons meme ( accepting ) + @skysplita // octavia

⭐️ - headcanon #1

Rue feels she had a choice when it came to whether or not she stayed in the Bunker. Truth be told, she was just terrified of being separated from Octavia. While navigating throughout their time on Earth, she’s developed a dependancy for the girl who was seeing the world fresh with bright eyes, and watched her become Blodreina - The Red Queen with whom ruled the Bunker with an iron fist, and a steel heart. It’s what causes the first fissures in their relationship, until, Rue wins that first and only battle she had within the Pits, where, she finally eats as a promise to Octavia. She knows the timing could have been better, but it’s when she says she loves her, because, while Octavia doesn’t react, she knows that somebody needs to tell her that she is, despite it all. And if even it’s just a little bit, she wants her to know that she’s willing to share the burden, even if Octavia doesn’t want to.

#skysplita #❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ headcanons ┆ it kind of collapses time ! #❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ meme reply ┆ everything feels so permanent ! #❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ horror verse ┆ trying to outrun your anxiety !

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👻

make a snapchat edit meme ( accepting ) + @skysplita // octavia

#skysplita #❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ headcanons ┆ it kind of collapses time ! #❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ meme reply ┆ everything feels so permanent ! #❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ horror verse ┆ trying to outrun your anxiety !

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👻 Kat + Rue

make a snapchat edit meme ( accepting ) + @kitkween // kat

#kitkween #❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ canon verse ┆ drugs are kind of cool ! #❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ headcanons ┆ it kind of collapses time ! #❝ r. bennett ❞ ┆ meme reply ┆ everything feels so permanent !