#'I WON'T PRETEND TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BEAR THE BURDEN OF THE LEGACY YOU'VE HAD TO SHOULDER'

[defeateddetectives]

IN THIS ESSAY I WILL

[follow-up to this two-image post that's worth more than twenty thousand words and altered the course of my life]

#apparently the last time i read this arc straight through was FIVE YEARS AGO and at the time i was so awestruck over it's existence alone #(also: bratty clan head being locked in the cursed room with the cursed love of his cursed life!!!) #that the extent of the textual parallels didn't even register aside from maybe that iconic bench of sadness and general ~themes #but no it's? RIGHT? THERE? #'HE COULDN'T MAKE HER SHARE THE BURDEN HE BORE' #'I WON'T PRETEND TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BEAR THE BURDEN OF THE LEGACY YOU'VE HAD TO SHOULDER' #(the way i SAT UPRIGHT) #i cannot attest to the quality of these translations or comment on the original text #but would be so intrigued if someone could compare how similar/different the wording is for the panels in the middle row #because the choice of language the way it comes across in translation is just. #yeah. #i'm incoherent #(tumblr's suggested tag: i'm inconsolable #which yeah. THAT TOO!!!) #your honour i rest my case??? #natsume yuujinchou #horrible exorcists #specifically #horrible exorcist number one #OH AND - AFTERWORD: 'i think these days a person does not have to bear it alone'!!!!!!!! #and it coming from natori of all people #(i am not asking you to abandon your family or who you are and i'm here and i'm not leaving and i'll meet you where you're at) #and though this isn't the first time he's said it the YEARS it's taken him (taken them both) in getting here specifically #and the temptation and hope and promise in it!!! which lets one wonder if maybe just maybe they'll break the cycle or at least make a dent #(doubtful....but i can dream!) #pls send thoughts and prayers as i'm about to undertake homura arc properly for the first time (yes finally) and may not make it out alive #(one day i may or may not also become emotionally equipped to make the unhinged post about the two separate times he's asked and reacts to #have you ever considered quitting exorcism? #alas that day is not today...but maybe in another five years!!!!!) #dont forget we're here forever etc etc etc ETC :)))))