#'cher what tf are you talking about' it's actually something incredibly embarrassing and dumb. dw about it

[theladygazingatemptiness]

hm. I sure have been playing some Very rash and potentially dangerous games as of late ha ha

#wak #like.. have I really become this desperate for attention and validation #that now I'm doing things that could very well compromise what little reputation I have online #like.. @ me: people aren't stupid. they can v much put two and two together even if you don't/won't say who you are #also @ me I wonder... how would the people who rb'ed your gallery comic or your Wholesome™ art feel if they knew about That Side of you? #and God forbid it gets back around to your family/they find out about it somehow! how would your poor grandmother feel I wonder! #or your mutuals/friends you have outside of Skype! #but even while asking these questions and knowing all of the risks I.. just can't help/stop myself #it's as if somebody else has taken over my entire body and I'm going on autopilot now #and like.. how much farther will I go? how long before I abandon everything I stand for just for the sake of wanting to belong somewhere? #and idk how I should feel or what to do and I feel sick and idk #'cher what tf are you talking about' it's actually something incredibly embarrassing and dumb. dw about it #and no it's nothing illegal or even particularly harmful/bad. in fact it's something most people probably wouldn't care about #and I am probably being very overdramatic and thinking too hard rn #but.. dw about it. #vent / #delete later probably