#(*refer back to question 89 in the 100 questionnaire w/ theo for more on this ☝️🤓)

[mattodore]

matthias wiping away theo’s tears 🧎

#river dipping #ts4 #ts4 edit #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #I KNEW I WOULD FALL ASLEEP.............. is it really even a nap if it's four hours long... atp i just went to bed djfknjd #anyway ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 #originally the final pose between theo as an adult and matthias was just them reaching out to each other but when i was testing the pose #i was just staring at it like this is such a static pose... so i sat there for a good five minutes just trying to think of something else #and when i realized matthias wouldn't be able to just stand across from theo and watch him cry without touching him i started vibrating out #of my skin like . he would need to reach out wipe at theo's face and kiss his eyelids and let theo hide his face in his neck and cry it out #when theo cries it's........ #ugh. #he keeps that brave face going for a long time and his eyes might water and tears might spill out some but he stays quiet normally #but if matthias is there.......... if he speaks to theo in that way he does..... if he touches theo....... god it just all comes out #like he cries similar to how he laughs (hence WHY when he genuinely laughs there are times he starts to cry*) #(*refer back to question 89 in the 100 questionnaire w/ theo for more on this ☝️🤓) #it just all spills out when matthias touches him and it's startling coming from someone as reserved as theo yk? it shakes his whole body #he rubs at his eyes with his fists and shakes his head and he apologizes repeatedly and looks down like he's expecting to be hit....... #which. is bc he was actually hit for crying as a child. his father would make him look in the mirror while it would happen... #so theo doesn't look up when he cries generally speaking... #but theo feels safe with matthias. and matthias doesn't ask him to stop apologizing or to calm down. he just lets theo work it out himself #and he gathers theo up into his arms and he holds him. rubs his back. brushes his hands through theo's hair. tells theo he's there. #yeah........... well. glad i've made myself sad first thing after waking up fdvjnkfdhfgnh that's just the mattodore experience baby #ANYWAY. i should take pics of the extra pose i made for this of theo crying into matthias's neck. #you can't see his expression bc he's clutching incredibly close and his face is obscured. but yeah... it's open sobbing atp... lays down #theo theo theo... baby baby baby...... #but ok... think i'm gonna eat and then start getting to my activity and also!! reblog some posts i drafted from when i couldn't really type