#(ALSO TOTALLY TANGENTIAL but c/w prequel was a fucking BLAST. great palate cleanser in between sih eps lol)

[executiveibex]

i've been. exceptionally slow at working my way through Spring in Hieron, because i find i'm needing to focus a lot more on work projects than usual.... but the upside of that is that instead of getting emotionally sucker-punched by podcasts in my cubicle, i get to cry over podcasts in the kitchen while getting ready for work in the morning!

(anyway i finished SiH 5 today and was quietly devastated by the Hadrian-Samothes conversation at the end)

#mine #f@tt liveblogging #friends at the table #spring in hieron #real talk i don't think i can ever play a paladin in anything because hadrian and the complexities of his relationship to the divine #have just set such a HIGH storytelling bar for me #like. you all saw how emotional i got over WiH 28!! and NOW #''you will always have the warmth of my love but it will not be a living warmth''? #''i want them to look at you and think of you not me''?? #''the end will find us whether we cower or not. there is no reason to be fearful. so above all else try to live a good life''??? #I JUST. I JUST #something about the reversal of that expression of faith -- #samothes releasing hadrian while knowing it'll be the hardest fucking thing in the world for hadrian to be. bereft of him #and doing his utmost to tell him ''you can do this. it will be hard but you can do this'' #''you will want to do this for me but at the end of the day. do it for yourself and do what i could not'' #-- it just fucking gets me #anyway i'm so normal about hadrian and the hieron gods always #(ALSO TOTALLY TANGENTIAL but c/w prequel was a fucking BLAST. great palate cleanser in between sih eps lol)