#(and they're also my problems so thanks for indirectly invalidating me)

[yeommijeong]

lines from my journal (Sept 5, 2020) which convince me that park hae young peered into my life while she was writing that damn drama:

(cw: it's a little dark i guess)

"People exhaust me."

"I want to be absolved of everything. I want to be free."

"Living is overrated. There's so little to live for, and this pandemic isn't helping. The little moments barely exist. I just feel lost & tired."

"Every day is a cycle, and I don't even like what I'm repeating."

"I don't want empty comfort. I don't want distraction. I don't exactly know what I want, but it's not that."

#personal #extremely personal #rant #ignore this #i guess that's why i project so hard onto this show and onto mijeong #i don't have to try that hard lol i've been there for a long long time and i'm only 22 damn it #and her whole monologue about being left behind? literally what i talked about in my entry today lol #maybe that's why i get really offended when people say mln is just a pity party and all their problems aren't real #like okay i know they aren't typical kdrama childhood traumas or whatever #but they're realer than those actually #(and they're also my problems so thanks for indirectly invalidating me) #(like yeah obviously i know i cause my own problems and sadness most of the time) /s #(maybe i should just fucking get over it then obviously i'll automatically be happy ha ha ha) /s /s /s #i still get pissed when i think about this #and i'm in a good place right now!!!! (relatively) #ugh seriously ignore this