#(he says. but it's also for xiaobao - like. every political move xdq makes it's mixed with personal stake)

[seventh-fantasy]

可待的意思是 请你 等等我。 (please wait for me.)

#posts made by me for me myself and i only #keep scrolling! just me having a mental breakdown! nothing to see here! #me hearing lwx say 可待的意思是请你等等我 for the 7378414828th time: *bursts into fucking tears* #my posts #hlht #lhl #ok. serious thoughts time. it's always lowkey funny to me that it's genuinely believed #(like in xcp's eulogy for him) #that xdq cares more about his people than anything #it's not that i think he doesn't care? he's actually kind and good and feels for his people but? #he cares in a detached and distant way exactly in the manner he can from within the palace walls #...which is reminiscent of huahua in the last episode going yeah he's a good emperor (really?) #and i'll give up my only chance to survive in exchange for the peace of the world #(he says. but it's also for xiaobao - like. every political move xdq makes it's mixed with personal stake) #he does things *for* the good ever since he has been the lxy who built sigumen #but is it really *out of* goodness or he's just trying to live up to the ideal xia #his self-imposed isolation as the top of wulin is as iron-clad as the palace walls of confucian social roles that hold xdq in #the way that hlht is all about the social world and lhl is all about the world outside of that which xdq dreamt about #then at the end of the day they both go back to the water bodies where they wish to be released into... bye #and they leave behind loved ones who will go see the world for them #xdq is so much less cruel to them than huahua is tbh #at least xdq had aggressively fought for them and to be with them #both stories are like. what happens to someone AFTER they're at the top and was born into/for that role? #do you know what fucked up things that does to someone? #ok bye FOR LEGAL PURPOSES THIS POST IS FOR MYSELF and whoever wants to read ONLY