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#2023 off to a banger start for me (got into an argument with my mom on new years about her bf reminding me of my abusive dad
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hgonesly at this point i really do wish i could just say Fuck It and disappear off the face of the earth for a little bit bc honestly . i donot want to be alive
#2023 off to a banger start for me (got into an argument with my mom on new years about her bf reminding me of my abusive dad
#and havent had peace or a good nights sleep since!!!!!!!!!!!)
#i am absolutely fucking miserable and i just donot want to Do It anymore
#i hate this house i hate the people i live with i hate this world and i hate everything thats happening to jme but i cant do anytihing
#i cant do anything to Fix Anything i cant do anything abt my problems theres just so much Wrong With Me that i dont know how to fix
#i dont know if i CAN fix most of the issues i have. i have so much ptsd and trauma from so many different things and its all just. hghg
#and i want so badly to just let it out and talk to the people Around Me about it bc it is Serious and i shouldnt be just not talking about
#it but. i just cant bring myself to Do That. i am constantly afraid that the people around me will be angry with me if i even so much as
#speak up about the things that make me upset and its not their fault and its no ones fault but my own and i just dont know what to Do
#im scared of confrontation and im worried that if i try to talk about it its gonna lead to an argument!!! i know it wouldnt but im terrifed
#so id rather just not talk about it. which then leads to the problem not getting resolved because. fuck man im sure the people around me
#know that somethings up but i never bring it up so therefore they never find out and it gets swept under the rug like all my other issues
#i pride myself on being good at being emotional and being open but in reality i am emotional. yes. but not at all good at being open
#ive never been good at it and i feel so BAD because like. yes i love you. yes i trust you and i know you would never ever be mad at me
#for just talking about my feelings. i know this and i love you for it. but im so bad at conveying that. even though i trust you with mylife
#im just bad at opening up. it does not matter how long we've known each other its just such a struggle for me to Be Open to anyone
#of course its not much better that im coming to tumblr and puttign this here for 100+ people to see but just. i dont know
#im mentally unstable ive never had good coping mechanisms and im the only person awake and everyone else that i usually vent to is asleep
#so all my thoughts just get piled up into one messy little ball and it gets thrown to tumblr because i need somewhere to put them
#im sorry. im exhausted. its been a long week and i wish i could just hybernate for the rest of the month and not interact with anyone
#i just wish i could mvoe out and live with my gf and our cat. that is all i want and that is the only thing that would fix me
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