#AND THERES A school next door what if the schoolchildren see me and mock me with a schoolyard rhyme 😭😭😭

[orionangeline]

Someone take me by the hand and gently explain that it's fine to be weird and clueless in public even if it's right in front of my apartments office and anyone could see me

#basically rent is due #like a little late due #amd i need to put my rent in the supposed drop box #but ive only been here like two months and ive never needed the drop box so i dont know where/which one it is #and im pretty sure I can figure it out or whatever but 😭 #what if my neighbors find out im a dumbass 😭😭😭😭 #what if i look suspicious 😭😭😭 #what of theres no label on the drop box 😭😭😭😭 #but our apartment... manager? is only here like two hours early in the morning and my body is on night crew hours #so i NEED to get it done and I NEED to use the drop box #but what if i mess up amd somehow the rent is super late and i get secret fined??? or maybe they'll kick me out for being stupid loser?? #i KNOW its just some sort of anxiety talking but that doesn't help 😭😭😭😭 #haha im so. normal and used to human living #AND THERES A school next door what if the schoolchildren see me and mock me with a schoolyard rhyme 😭😭😭 #i dont THINK the playground is at an angle they could see me. but you know children. always seeing things. and such. #BASICALLY this is all because I would have to spend maybe two minutes in front of my building btw. #'doesnt have anxiety' my ASS my tummy hurty and its over like. nothing big #TMMUY LITERALLY HURTY