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[luthorzorl]

my mom is like actually mad at me bc i dont wanna do a podcast w her .....

#1st of all we LITERALLY only talk about the dogs when we talk to each other #whenever i try & have an actual convo about anything w her she is openly uninterested #earlier i was like talking about how im almost done w a book ive been reading & talked about the plot & what i like about it & shit #& she literally .... stared at me said nothing & turned her head away #no comment #silence #we literally only talk about the dogs #so the idea of trying to sit down & have a recordered natual convo w her ..... girl what #recorded * #& also ive tried explaining multiple times that i have crippling anxiety & have self confidence issues esp around my voice #bc its high & nasally & i just v much dont like it & literally her & my grandma growing up would tell me not to do silly voices #saying itd get stuck that way .. um what 1st of all #but also i wasnt doing a voice ever aksjwnejwjuwbwhsw thats just how i sound #& they did that shit for yrs it v much messed with me mentally #& also in high school some guy said i sounded like i hadnt hit puberty yet so that was ..smthng #yeah but shes just like nobody likes their voice get over it & do the podcast #& now shes mad bc i keep saying no & shes like fine ill do 1 w mary & when we get rich ur getting nothing #ANSNEKSKSIAIWUSHWBSKAIDEI