#ASSUMNED that we are going to keep having meetings?????? so maybe i don’t have to spend the whole summer withering LMAOOOO she was like so w

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um LOL ok i just got out of counseling and it was absolutely batshit insane. wtf is going on 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#so we only talked for 35 minutes which is like 😐 and we spent most of it talking about either logistics or… like ok so she is VERY stressed #out and in a similar position that i am actually so it was less her counseling me and more both of us commiserating about how this situation #can be so shitty and stressful for the ppl left behind lol. but she was really nice and totally warm and open AND GET THIS she just like. #ASSUMNED that we are going to keep having meetings?????? so maybe i don’t have to spend the whole summer withering LMAOOOO she was like so w #when we meet next time and i was like HUH? i thought this was an emergency!!! but yeah uh no i guess i have a counselor again 😳😳😳😳😳 it was l #like weird and nice and cool it’s just she kept interrupting me before i finished my thought and also like i do kinda wish we had gone the f #full time and gotten to talk more bc i actually like. don’t feel all that better about the grief aspect of this which she said we’ll talk #about next time but it’s like uhhhhh but what do i do if im feeling it now lol. but yeah i will take this over going until September without #counseling and im really glad i met her bc she like already knows who i am and what my situation is LOL and she was telling me her whole lif #life story basically and it was like omg how are you even here rn bc this woman is the interim executive director of the whole place and #doesn’t want to be and she is so stressed out and also just got surgery and had covid and it’s like GIRL i am so sorry im taking your time #this evening 😭😭😭😭😭 but she was really nice about it and im glad we made it work and i feel like i just won the lottery with getting to have #counseling again. still do feel the grief though like I know I’m talking in circles but i need to process this and i don’t know how bc im #suffocatingly sad and i still have a few more hours to burn before i go to bed. lol #purrs