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enchanted-prose · 4 years
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#11 Playing a Game, Solving a Puzzle
 I am publishing a chapter featuring thE BIRTHDAY QUEEN, PRINCESS AMARINDA OF BULTAIN!!!!
Word Count: 4,203
Characters: Amarinda, Tobias, Queen Danika’s Inquisitors (Original characters), Ayvar (Original character), Lord Feall (Original character)
Notes: Edited! I hope you really enjoy this one because I HAD TOO MUCH FUN WRITING IT!
ENJOY!
“That’s Falstan Stead, Cornwick, and Riverfront,” Amarinda sighed, crossing three town names off her list. She stretched out her gloved hands. “That’s everything, aside from Drylliad.”
Tobias tipped his canteen towards his hand, and wiped water across his forehead, “I’d be willing to go with you to Tithio if that’s what you wanted.”
A tempting offer, but Amarinda shook her head.
A gusty breeze whisked through her horse’s mane, the trees and their rustling leaves seemed to agree with her thoughts.
The scent of horse and her own unwashed body added to her frustration.
Come to think of it, her frustration was a large, decorative cake. The kind of cake with lines and lines of spun sugar, and tiers and tiers of cake itself. With each inconvenience, Amarinda was quietly adding a decoration to her frustration creation.
Oh how she longed to be rid of it; the cake had become extremely distasteful early on.
Fatigue was threatening to overtake her.
It was time.
It was time to return to Drylliad. Time for a hot bath, something with cream, and a few minutes of frustrated emotional release. She’d be prepared to handle all other situations after that.
Time to throw away her gaudy frustration cake.
Her riding boots became a little too tight the moment she thought about being able to take them off and walk through the castle lawns.
She’d ridden out with Queen Danika’s seven investigators two days before, and Tobias went with her without hesitation.
Together, they’d combed through every village within a reasonable radius of Drylliad, asking if they’d seen anyone fitting the predicted description of any surviving Thay member.
They heard a wide variety of rumors, but only one of them had enough credibility to almost be true.
Supposedly, Graer Thay had gathered an army, and he was somewhere in Carthya looking for his daughter too.
Too many theories cluttered Amarinda’s head. She prided herself on being perfectly organized, but without a clear path, she’d fallen into disarray. Tobias made her write everything down at one point. It helped, in a way. Having everything out in the open made thinking much easier.
Amarinda spent hours pouring over her decision. Though she’d come to Carthya at a tender age, she still had memories of Bymar. Still remembered learning how to fence with her cousin, Princess Eline, and Eline’s ladies-in-waiting.
Mireldis Thay was one of them.
Too much time had passed since Amarinda last saw Mireldis, she doubted she would recognize her.
The Thays were ghosts.
Rumors people clung to, a scapegoat the sixteen other noble houses dragged around to put their faults on.
A pin was coming loose from Amarinda’s hair. She shoved it back in, but to no avail; the pin only shifted.
Everything was much more enticing than admitting that they’d gone on a wild goose chase. Amarinda studied the patterns on her riding skirts. Studied the creases in her tan gloves. Studied the well kept road that would take her and her party back to the castle.
She’d stepped out on the stage, sang her magnificent aria, and took her final bow. The final encore was playing, it was time to face the music.
“I think it’s time to admit that we’re just chasing ghosts,” murmured Amarinda.
“Sounds like you’re saying Thay are ghosts,” Tobias grinned, eventually breaking into a stifled chuckle.
She couldn’t prevent her own smile. “That was clever.”
“I don’t like seeing you defeated, figured you needed a pick-me-up.”
His ability to notice her distress was comforting in a way. He was too good at making her understand that she was safe with him. “And what about you, Tobias? Are you in need of a pick-me-up?”
“You’re my pick-me-up, darling.”
“If you’re not careful, my blush will match my skirts.”
“I do like seeing you in that color.”
Amarinda shook her head, a laugh falling from her lips. She welcomed the play on words. She appreciated Tobias’s attempts to keep her happy.
But she was wasting time.
Even if the Thays were alive, they didn’t want to be found.
Who was she to take that from them?
The investigators, a little too slouched in their Bymarian uniforms, were waiting farther up the road. Their horses pawed the ground. Not one person called out a greeting.
Amarinda couldn’t blame them.
They were supposed to be scouring the countryside with Feall, not her.
However, she knew her value, and she still deserved to be treated with respect. The hairs on the back of her neck began to rise despite the sun shining on her back.
“Was anything found?” Amarinda asked, guiding her horse to the front of the group.
One of the investigators, a tall woman with pitch black hair, shook her head. “Thay must have known we were coming for her. I’m afraid she might have fled the area.”
“I would’ve fled the country,” muttered Tobias.
Which was probably what Mireldis Thay did, if she was alive. Amarinda was learning that she was ready to let the dead remain at peace. It wasn’t fair to drag memories through the mud.
“I would like a combined report from all of you that I can look over,” ordered Amarinda as she motioned for the investigators to follow her lead. “It seems our quest has failed.”
“We did make really good friendships,” Tobias argued, gesturing to the scowling investigators behind him.
His quiet humor really did manage to bring a lightness to any situation.
“You know, I think it would do good if you spoke to that young woman, Ayvar,” he mused.
“I know, I know. I wanted to participate in the investigation myself before I spoke to anyone. I was hoping we’d find Thay. Too many people are all too willing to impersonate royalty when given the chance.”
Tobias shrugged, “I can’t correct you there, and I’ve been in a similar situation.”
“That was insensitive, I’m-”
“Oh, don’t apologize, it was completely out of your control. Your statement is correct, and I wanted to attest to that. There was an opportunity to impersonate a missing person of power, Jaron, and many people seized that chance.”
“Conner’s gamble played out in Jaron’s favor,” Amarinda wrinkled her nose.
She hated admitting that her mind moved too quickly, hated admitting that sometimes she brought up old memories completely by accident.
Hated that she still said foolish things despite her training.
Hated that she inadvertently made connections.
Patterns were easy to her. She recognized patterns in history, and did her best to incorporate them into the present. Sometimes, Amarinda felt her head split into two sides.
One side was completely dedicated to her friends and family.
The other side was bent on finding every correlation imaginable.
It had taken years of practice to avoid bringing up Darius in a roundabout way in front of Jaron.
And she was still practicing the art of tenderly respecting the horrible game Bevin Conner forced her husband and two dear friends into.
“Now that you bring that up,” Tobias tilted his head. “I can see your concern. Why you would avoid bringing it up around Ayvar.”
“I wouldn’t be surprised if Oberson was involved somehow.”
“How so?”
How?
So many, many, many ways to usurp a kingdom-state, especially when there was already a family name taking all of the blame.
Bloody ways, stealthy ways, peaceful ways.
Too many ideas. Amarinda had to pick one. “Maybe he’s trying to put a puppet princess on the throne of Idunn Craich, marry her, kill her, and take the land. He’d be king over two kingdom states, it would be easy for him to lead an uprising against Queen Danika and King Norman.”
“Do you think Oberson is really capable of that?”
A direct reference to Oberson’s obvious disdain for physical activity.
People were both predictable and unpredictable all at once. Watching a grown adult behave in a position of power was almost the same as watching a toddler be left in a room with sweets.
“Not exactly, but it is a start. It’s also a coincidence that he’s here in Carthya, don’t you think?” Amarinda rolled her shoulders. “I’m excited to sleep in a real bed again.”
“Ah, I see where you’re coming from, spreading rumors about how much he fears the bloodthirsty Mireldis Thay and then lift her up to become his bride. It would make quite the romantic ballad. A disgusting one at that.”
“Hardly romantic to force a young woman to marry a man the same age as her grandfather.”
“Which makes Oberson’s theoretical plan all the more despicable.”
Amarinda’s skin was crawling. “We’ll put that on the extreme end. I shouldn’t even be judging him.”
“True,” Tobias nodded. “But you also know Bymarian politics better than anyone I’ve ever met, including King Oberson and Lord Feall.”
Warmth spread through her ribs. Spread through the entirety of her body, and burst out through a smile. "You're getting quite good at the game too, you know."
"I do try," Tobias chuckled. His dark hair was flopping across his eyes. "I still think you should speak with Ayvar. I know I will, but it won't be anything about politics. Or at least state politics, more along the lines of, and I can't believe I'm saying this, criminal politics. This is much more Roden's expertise than mine."
"Roden's got a lot on his plate at the moment, you're a good friend to help him out."
"Anything to keep him out of the alehouse. I haven't had to prescribe any tonics for him in almost four weeks!"
"That has to be a lie," teased Amarinda, but deep within her heart of hearts, she was happy to hear the news.
It wasn't her place to instruct a person's life.
But it was her place as a friend to be concerned.
A pair of pink roses bloomed on Tobias's pale face. "No, no, I'm being completely serious. And same with Jaron, as well, he's been doing much better now that he has multiple puzzles to play with. Although I suspect that he may have an allergy pertaining to, ah, Imogen's new feline friend."
"And what can we do about that?"
"Not much, except get rid of the cat," Tobias steepled his fingers, and tapped them against his nose.
The little gesture was all too recognizable. Amarinda pointed to her head, "Have you got a brilliant idea for me, love?"
"I do, actually. Oberson is the cat, and you are Jaron-"
"Hopefully I don't look like Jaron."
"-you're absolutely stunning, and if Jaron were a woman, he'd wish he looked like you, but I have a different point. Oberson is the cat, you are Jaron, who is quite possibly allergic to cats. You're allergic to Oberson.
"Think about it, Ami, we didn't have the Faola to worry about before Oberson arrived. Mireldis Thay was resting in an unmarked grave. Oberson is the one we should be worried about. Nobody ever suspects the older man with a-," Tobias arched backwards, and rounded his hand over his stomach. "I think there's more than what we see. A lot more."
"You're right, you're very right," Amarinda shoved her loose hair pin back into place. "I pride myself on locating similarities but I can't do it right now."
"In your defense, you're a part of the puzzle, not the person putting the puzzle together."
"Thank you, I think?"
As odd as his words were, Tobias's analogy made sense.
If Amarinda was a part of the puzzle, it would be much harder to see the grand picture. Even then, there would still be parts of the puzzle missing, as she doubted the puzzle was put together. The whole ordeal was making her head spin.
Making her head spin with no apparent direction.
Plans were essential. Jaron would argue that point at every turn, despite having plans already twirling around in his head. Things rarely ever worked out in the way people hoped, but plans provided stability.
There was typically an outcome various parties hoped for.
Not anymore. There was no grand ending to plan for.
No end goal.
There was no end goal to even think about.
Was it even there?
Was the end goal not something Amarinda could grasp?
That made her stomach tilt. It was dangerous, keeping harmful secrets. She was beginning to realize that maybe she was being stared in the face by an enemy she’d talked with before.
Perhaps they knew what the end goal was.
Aware of her scowl, Amarinda forced her face to relax. The birds were singing despite the rising heat. Everything was bursting with life, with the promise for a bright, wonderful day.
She clung to that promise.
“Tobias?” Amarinda asked, urging her horse to go just a little bit faster.
He followed suit. “Yes?”
Large stones marked the road, pointing the way to Drylliad for weary travellers. Dozens and dozens of people walked in lines towards the city.
At their head was a large man riding an even larger golden horse. He waved a greeting, and soon turned his attention back to the lines of people.
“I just want you to know that I love you.”
“Have you done something wrong?”
“Why is that the question you ask me?”
“Jaron tells me that he loves me each time he does something he knows I’d get mad about.”
Amarinda’s polite giggle soon turned into a struggle to keep herself from snorting. It made sense, as she’d seen Jaron walk up to Tobias covered in chicken feathers with a declaration of love on his lips. Her battle to contain her ungraceful laugh failed.
“No, no!” Laughed Amarinda, her eyes welling up. She was painfully aware of how her giggles were gaining pitch with each escaped sound. “I just- I just wanted to tell you!”
“I love you too, darling, and I haven’t done anything wrong either,” Tobias’s chuckles were far more contained.
It wasn’t quite fair, Tobias’s perfect laugh.
He was her best friend above everyone else.
Which was why it was so painful to know how close he’d come to harm because of that girl who’d attacked Feall.
So painful to know that no matter how hard Amarinda tried, there would always be something she couldn’t control. Something that would come hurtling toward her, and only damage Tobias in the process.
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Her skin had been scrubbed of dirt, sweat, and its own top layer. Made her skin smart, of course, but it was better than walking around in a disgusting travel gown with sticky hair.
And it was definitely better than being trapped in a large meeting room, flanked by virtual strangers.
Amarinda tucked her hair behind her ears. Lines and lines and lines of words were beginning to blur into the same excuse.
Tobias sat to her right, holding eerily still. The investigators sent from Bymar to find any living member of House Thay were seated at the same table. Each one of them bore the same black hair and the same royal uniform of blue and white. Not one person said a word as Amarinda read through their report.
“You didn’t find anyone,” Amarinda sat as tall as she could. “In all of your findings, you found no trace of Mireldis Thay or her father.”
“I’m sorry, Ambassador, we searched as well as we could,” said one of the investigators, a tall man with his hair tied back. The pins on his shoulder distinguished him from the others. He was of higher rank.
“I understand, it’s difficult searching for people who’ve grown used to keeping their names hidden. I wouldn’t be surprised if Mireldis wasn’t even here.”
A clatter of opinions burst from the investigators, all of whom were trying to argue that Lady Thay was most definitely in Carthya.
“Did you take a chance to visit the girl who allegedly attacked Feall?” Tobias murmured, he’d reached for Amarinda’s hand beneath the table.
They’d only just gotten back from their travels. Or at least that was the excuse Amarinda had drafted up during her long break before the meeting.
His grip helped her stay firmly planted. Amarinda sighed, “I-, no. I haven’t, I’m afraid of going. . .”
“And seeing the wrong girl there?”
“I’m more afraid of finding the right girl, Tobias. The Thays were good friends to Danika, they were there when I left Bymar for the first and last time.”
“Queen Danika is pushing for their pardon. Or at least that’s what I’ve been able to gather,” Tobias muttered, his eyes glued on Amarinda’s face.
“That’s what’s been said, but there’s no telling how true that is. King Oberson, he, ah, he’s terrified of Mireldis Thay, and it’s very likely that everyone else shares that view. I’ve sent a letter to Queen Danika to prove that she sanctioned this, but haven’t received anything in return.”
The arguing grew louder and louder, much unlike what Amarinda expected from Danika’s representatives. Her aunt ran a strict court, and had no time for gossiping in her presence.
Perhaps the investigators who’d been sent weren’t even members of Danika’s court.
It wouldn’t be shocking if that was true.
In silence, Amarinda and Tobias watched the men and women rise to their feet as they began to yell at each other.
“I know Thay is here! She’s going to slit our throats in our sleep!”
“And how do we know you’re not Mireldis Thay?”
“Because you were with me on that-!”
“You’re fools! All of you!”
Dots were appearing. Dots that needed to be connected. Amarinda shut her eyes for a moment, remembering the days of her childhood when she’d visit Drylliad. When she and Darius were calmly discussing the matters of whether or not fruit teas were legitimate, and he’d begin to fidget.
Just like his brother.
Darius would flick ink all over a piece of parchment, and then begin to connect dots until he’d made a picture.
He could do that no matter how dispersed the dots were.
Saints, Amarinda needed that ability.
She needed to connect these seemingly unrelated dots.
Oberson’s arrival, the rise of the Faola, the rude investigators Danika had sent, the sudden rise of interest in a young woman who’d vanished four years ago.
But how?
“I want to go. I want to go see her right now,” Amarinda decided.
She was choosing to pursue the more likely lead.
Choosing to connect the dots.
Besides, she’d been riding with the investigators all day, she knew what they’d seen.
Amarinda stood tall, Tobias standing ever so slightly behind her. She clasped her hands, “Noble lords, ladies, I appreciate what we’ve done and your efforts. I do believe that our search was thorough despite not finding what we wanted. Please leave your reports here so I can read them. As of now, you are free to return to Bymar.”
“With all due respect, Ambassador-.”
“There will be absolutely no arguing on my decision. My word is final, good sir.”
The silence that followed as she left the room had the power to choke a horse.
Think, Amarinda!     Think!
Dots, dots, dots. Put them into boxes. She needed to put them into boxes, organize them by size, frequency, and their first appearance.
Tobias padded along beside her, his hands clasped behind his back as the pair of them began the long descent to Drylliad's dungeon. No words needed to be said.
Amarinda was facing her fears, and deep down, she knew that she would find at least one piece of information before the afternoon was through.
King Oberson, a lesser king from Bymar. Amarinda had met him before while she was a child. She remembered him as being large, kind, and a little afraid. He brought presents to certain children in the court, but always kept his gift giving a secret. Pleasing others was always his priority.
Now Feall.
Feall was unpredictable, Amarinda had barely known him, as he'd risen to power just as she was fully embracing her role as Carthya's future queen. But she'd written to Danika and Danika's daughter, Eline, all about him.
He was a kind man with a strict outline for order.
He was one of the brave cavalry members who'd come to Carthya's aid during the Avenian war.
His presence with Oberson wasn't unexpected. Feall was a noble, yes, but not a king. He provided safety to those who sought it.
However, Feall and Oberson's involvement with Danika's investigators was enough to raise alarms. Amarinda didn't want to confess out loud how much she'd disliked their company.
She was supposed to be kind.
If it weren't for Tobias's steady hand, Amarinda would've walked into a stone wall. He continued his silence as he guided her down the grand staircase.
Then came the matter of Mireldis Thay.
Mireldis, daughter of Graer Thay, a man who'd earned the title of vagabond with his frequent travels. The Thays had been dear friends of the crown for generations following a marriage of two people from years and years ago. Their loyalties ran deep enough that the Thays frequently provided their children to pose as decoys for the crown's heirs.
Amarinda had known Mireldis.
They'd played together with imported dolls, fabricating elaborate stories that rivaled the dramas of court.
It had taken much on Amarinda's part to finally figure out what happened.
She could still remember the night that she read Eline's letter, explaining that the Thays knew about Avenia's plan to ravage Carthya, but didn't say a single word to Danika.
The Thay's kingdom-state was pillaged while Danika's soldiers were in Carthya.
The entire castle had been gutted, members of the family butchered, save for Graer's wife. She managed to rebuild as much as she could.
Rumors spoke that she'd kept Mireldis alive, but when Danika came to find out the truth for herself, she'd been informed that Mireldis died; murdered by those who hated her family.
Grief didn't pick and choose the people it affected.
Amarinda hadn't seen Mireldis in more than a decade, but her heart still broke.
Her heart broke that night knowing that there was no proof of what had actually taken place that merited the slaughter of a family.
The torches guiding the way down to the dungeon flickered. A shiver ran down her spine, and she gladly took Tobias’s hand when he offered it.
Four guards had been posted at the outmost door. Only one spoke, asking minimal questions before letting both Amarinda and Tobias in.
Sunlight poured into the dungeons in patched gaps. Several of the prisoners inside only moved their heads as Amarinda and Tobias reached the bottom step.
A figure was already standing outside of the last prison cell.
The cell belonging to the supposed Mireldis Thay.
Heart in her throat, Amarinda forced herself to step forward. What would she say if it was Mireldis?
How could she apologize for the atrocities of the past?
“Didn’t expect to see you here,” Feall said. “Not that I don’t welcome your company.”
“We’ve just returned from searching for Mireldis Thay,” Amarinda stood tall. “There was no sign of her.”
“I can imagine it was surprising when word got out that Mireldis was here in Drylliad.”
“Is it true?”
Feall stepped aside, “See for yourself.”
Amarinda inhaled, clasping her hands behind her back as she looked over the girl in the cell.
Long red hair, bright green eyes, freckles that rivaled the stars. Her face was perfectly devoid of scars and blemishes. She wore trousers and a long black shirt. There was something fiercely confident in her stance.
This girl knew her value.
“It’s-,” Amarinda began, releasing the breath she’d been holding.
Feall was nodding. “I know.”
Was it wrong how relieved her heart was?
Was it wrong that she was happy for the answer she’d been given?
“Is it what you wanted?” asked Tobias.
Amarinda squeezed his hand. “That’s. . . That’s not Mireldis Thay, love.”
“Somebody recognizes it,” the red haired girl wrinkled her nose. “I keep telling everyone my name is Ayvar, and they don’t believe me.”
“People thrive on gossip, I’m sorry for the mixup.”
“I don’t mind, I’d be a fool to get angry about being mistaken for a princess. . . And I’d be a fool for not being angry about being locked in here.”
“Banditry and attempting murder is-,” Amarinda began, but Feall shook his head, stopping her argument.
“Ayvar knows the man behind the attack.”
“And?”
“And she was innocent,” Feall gestured to Ayvar. “She is the Faola who fought with me against my attacker.”
Tobias nodded in agreement. “He’s telling the truth, there was one who broke away from the group to help him.”
She nodded, “And what do you propose?”
“I haven’t run this by Captain Harlowe yet, but I think it’s unfair to Ayvar to be trapped here despite being innocent of what she was arrested for,” explained Feall as he crossed his arms. “I’d like to promise freedom to Ayvar if she helps us capture the bandit who came after not only me, but your husband, a noble regent, might I add.”
A noble proposition indeed.
And yet, Amarinda was still unsure of how she felt about relying on a criminal for information.
People would do anything to get what they wanted.
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kopykunoichi · 4 years
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Any thoughts/speculation on a potential dynamic between Shadow Collective! Maul and Fulcrum! Ahsoka?
Thanks for the ask! Sorry it’s taken me so long to respond. It’s been craaaaazy town at my house. I also wanted to watch the final episode of TCW before I answered, because how Maul and Ahsoka left things is a huge factor in my answer.
Okay, so Maul and Ahsoka’s last known interaction in between The Clone Wars and Rebels (almost 20 years later), is him ditching her and Rex to steal the shuttle and escape the Star Destroyer he just single-handedly tore to pieces. His last words to her are “You wanted this chaos”, as he throws some things at her and then pushes her backwards. I will make a note here, that given what we’ve just seen Maul do without the benefit of a weapon, I believe he could have killed her. Just like at the end of their lightsaber duel in “The Phantom Apprentice”, he had 37 chances to kill her after he disarmed her and he didn’t take them. Now, even after she has completely dismissed any notion of joining forces with him and told him she pretty much wanted him to die - he still doesn’t kill her. 
Maybe he didn’t have time, maybe he was too tired, maybe she would have been a lot harder to kill than just grabbing her with the force and bludgeoning her head into the metal floor...in any case, I don’t think he really wanted to kill her or take revenge on her. She used him to accomplish her end goals, and while that was disappointing to him - it was also what he would have done in numerous other situations. So, I think he has a begrudging respect for her cold attitude toward him, even if he wished it was warmer. 
Now, the next time we see them in canon, he’s strolling out of a Sith temple with Ezra Bridger while Ahsoka and Kanan are facing three Inquisitors. Ahsoka has a brief wide-eyed moment when she says his name, and then Maul springs into action and proves that this 65-year-old “grandpa” is more than a match for Palpatine’s little pets. When the fight is done, Ahsoka asks, “Maul, what game are you playing?” He replies, “The endgame, Lady Tano. The endgame.”
They cooperate until the end of the episode when Maul attacks Kanan and tries to poach his apprentice - because Maul apparently still wants nothing more than someone to share in his fight against Palpatine. During this time, Kanan is continually fretting about Ezra being alone with Maul, and Ahsoka reassures him that Ezra will be fine. She says it’s because Kanan trained him, but there’s more to it than that. Ahsoka knows Maul enough to know he is not to be taken lightly. But she also knows enough to believe that Ezra is relatively safe with him. Did she glean that information merely from their brief encounters on Mandalore, or has she had more interactions with him from which to draw those conclusions?
I believe the latter is true. For twenty years, Ahsoka and Maul both worked to gather wealth, weapons, and power with which to thwart Palpatine. While the Rebel Alliance took a more direct route of open warfare, the Shadow Collective and Crimson Dawn went about it in a more subtle way - stealing resources and undermining the Empire’s credibility. Remember, the whole appeal of the Empire is that they create law and order for everyone. No criminals are safe, according to them. And yet, under the Empire, the Hutts, Black Sun, The Pike, and now Crimson Dawn are thriving just fine. The key to all that is of course Palpatine being unaware that Maul was behind some of these organizations - because if he knew, Maul would have been at the top of Vader’s hit list. Palpatine wouldn’t leave a loose end like that without tying it up.
In Rebels, we see our space family working time and again with some unsavory elements - pirates, smugglers, and other criminals. Ahsoka was no longer a Jedi, and we already saw from the first half this last season of the Clone Wars, she has no issue making friends and connections with those who don’t always deal on the up and up. Rogue One also alludes to the fact that the Rebellion couldn’t be choosy about the people they used as allies and informants. I am quite sure that Ahsoka had plenty of dealings with some shady people. It’s a big galaxy, but it’s a relatively small underworld. 
No doubt, because Ahsoka’s interests were aligned with Maul’s and she already knew he wanted to hurt Palpatine, she could have made use of his people. If such interactions took place, I would imagine he would have reached out to her first. A tip here, a little piece of information there. Maul likes to be in the know and he likes for people to KNOW he’s in the know. He would have been keeping tabs on her and the movements of the Rebellion as much as the he was the Empire. At first, they would have been anonymous, so she didn’t have any suspicions of who was helping her. But once the first tip and the second tip and third tip proved to be true, she’d start start to trust the source. 
After some time passes, she begins to wonder who is giving her all this actionable intel. She starts digging. He knows she’s digging, but he’s not ready for her to know it’s him. He uses a front man with a good cover story, and Ahsoka believes he’s the informant. Tips keep coming in. But then that guy dies and Maul has to make a decision: tell her or not. He gives her one more tip using the man’s codename. She suspects a trap, but as Obi-Wan taught her, the next step is: spring the trap. 
She is expecting an Imperial who is trying to draw her out. Imagine her surprise when Maul shows up in person. He confirms that it’s been him all along who’s been feeding her information, recalling each tip in perfect detail. She asks why. He chuckles. Because she can work the higher profile hits - nipping at the Empire’s heals while taking the attention off of Crimson Dawn. The arrangement can work both ways, he suggests. His people can get into places that other members of the Rebellion are not suited to venture. She declines, of course. She doesn’t want to be a part of spreading Maul’s brand of chaos by giving jobs or tips to his crew. He accepts her decision, but leaves her with a way to contact him directly, just in case.
Naturally, some time later, a situation will arise that requires connections that Ahsoka simply does not have. The opportunity to hurt the Empire is too good to pass up, but she wants to keep this one off the books. The Rebellion cannot know that she is occasionally cooperating with the likes of Maul when it is convenient for her. But Ahsoka is not quite the idealist she was all those years ago. So she contacts him. He is elated, and he doesn’t even bother to hide it. It disturbs her exactly how happy he is that she came to *him*, but he’s just a means to an end.
He gets the job done - spectacularly well. Ahsoka knows he’s toxic. She knows he’s just using her, but as long as he’s okay with her using him as well, it makes it more palatable. And it’s just once in a while, after all. Okay, it’s more often than she would care to admit. She’s careful to avoid direct contact with him though. That wouldn’t be good for either of them.
Okay, this next part is a pretty much just crazy fanfiction idea that’s been tossing around in my head...
For some time now, Maul has had a close relationship with Qi’ra. He has trained her and groomed her to manage Crimson Dawn as its face. Under his tutelage, he has chipped off all the weak and fearful parts of her, and polished her into someone confident, empowered, and bold. He finally has the partner he always wanted. Their relationship grows into something more than he was expecting or looking for, but it happened naturally. For the first time in his life, he feels almost happy. Almost content. Almost.
But as Maul has grown older, he has become aware of a missing piece of his existence. It’s nagged and niggled him and kept him awake at night - long after Qi’ra has fallen asleep next to him on the nights they are able to spend together. He wants a legacy. After he is gone, who will remember him? Will his life be a long string of almost successes that amount to nothing more than failure? Will anyone beside Qi’ra care that he’s dead? Will anyone carry on the fight when he is no more? 
He makes a trip to Kamino and enlists their help in harvesting his DNA in a manner that could be used to create new life, instead of merely copying his own. Qi’ra is receptive to the idea and agrees to carry his child. But the idea has catastrophic consequences. Once his blood and tissue is run through a computer, it raises flags on Palpatine’s radar. He discovers Maul is alive, and his former apprentice has been sniffing around a cloning facility. Unacceptable.
Maul knows when Palpatine is coming for him, and he uses every resource at his disposal to protect his family, burning up all his allies in a period of months. But eventually, Qi’ra is taken from him, just like everyone else in his life. He has a son, but for how much longer can he keep him alive? Life suddenly becomes more important than legacy - his son’s life. So he takes him to the one person in the galaxy who he knows will find a good home for his child and maybe - just maybe - make sure he grows up equipped to fight the one who took everything away from him. Ahsoka. 
She comes into her apartment one night to find Maul on her couch. Though her lightsabers are out in a moment, he ignores her, staring at something in his hands. A baby. Ahsoka is properly floored. He explains what is going on. He knows she can’t raise him herself, but he pleads with her to find him a good home. She finds herself agreeing. He expects he’ll never see her again, but in case they do, he asks her to promise him two things: never speak of his son again and never tell him where he is. Everything he touches turns to dust, and he wants his son to have a chance.
Maul leaves her and goes into hiding, eventually getting driven to Malachor, where he is stranded for over a year by himself, with nothing but his regrets and loss. When he sees Ezra Bridger, the first living person he has encountered since he has been marooned, he fixates on him as the son that was lost to him. In the end, his attempts to recruit Ezra fail, and all he is left with his revenge. He has a vision of Kenobi and finds him on a backwater sand pit with two suns. He knows how it will end, but it’s okay. Their hope lies with the next generation. The son of Skywalker will bring balance to the Force and avenge them all. Maybe his son will play a part in it too.
Sorry. That was a LOT more than what you asked for, but this is a story I’m probably never going to write, so I needed to get it out there. I know Maul with a baby is probably completely outside the realm of possibility, but I so desperately want him to have something good in his life. As much as I love him and Ahsoka, they would never get together romantically. Qi’ra might have though, and there was a hint to the possibility in the end of Solo. But having a child and bringing it to Ahsoka ties their fates together in a more poignant way. Bonus, there could be a little Maul out there somewhere who has a chance at a better life because Maul makes one choice in his life that isn’t selfish - giving up his legacy. Oh, and before he leaves Ahsoka’s home, he whispers the baby’s name in her ear. It’s his name - the one he had before Sidious changed it. 
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i. — ‹ ( if there were two guarantees in edward’s life from the very start they were that 1. finding success and upholding his parents’ precious reputation was his only option, and 2. he would not receive the privilege of finding happiness for himself. his family was far from a perfect match for the young boy. his pulse always seemed to race a little faster, his room would get a little messier, and his mind would wander a little farther. still, however, they were nothing if not persistent and by the end of his childhood edward had inherited their overbearing sense of pride. they hardly deserved to be as proud as they were. an affluent and well known family for their little corner of vermont but hardly much to write home about when contrasted against the mega rich only a state away. still, they had enough money to wear their wealth on their sleeves, occupying the largest ( and gaudiest ) home in town and speeding around in luxury cars. his father’s income was enough to support their lifestyle, which allowed his mother to focus on developing a prominent reputation within the community. ).
ii. — ‹ ( when he tells people off his childhood he paints it in a warm light, the good money american dream of scorching summer days by the lake and cozy vermont winters in the ski chalets. in reality, if his childhood was anything it was cold. neither of his parents left much time for their only son, and they spared even less time for each other. whenever possible his mother would head to a warmer climate to vacation and his father would jet off on whatever business trips he could. the times that they were together the pair would alternate between icy silence and fiery arguments. the final blow to their marriage came in edward’s sixteenth year while he was away at boarding school, his mother caught his father with another woman and all hell broke loose. it was a messy divorce that left edward in the crossfire. all in all his parents left him with a pessimistic idea of love and marriage, if he even believed in it at all. one of the major roots of his commitment issues is his fear that he is his father’s son. as it turns out his father had never been a faithful man and edward has simply accepted as fact that the streak of infidelity would continue in him. it seemed easier to accept it at that than to try at love and fail. failure, after all, goes against everything that edward stands for. ).
iii. — ‹ ( when he reached high school, edward was swiftly sent away from his parents home to whatever prestigious boarding schools they could stick him in for the colder months. the schools quickly became harder and harder to find, however, as this was when edward developed his tendency towards debauchery. being surrounded by nothing but other privileged youth he quickly discovered that the perfect mixture of confidence, brashness, and general disregard for the rules, could instantly earn him all the love and attention he lacked in his childhood. he mastered the art of charming the pants off of just about everyone. unfortunately, many schools didn’t much care for his antics and by his senior year, he had thoroughly exhausted almost all the institutions on the eastern seaboard. despite his rambunctious nature and tendency to be expelled, he was still quite successful in his academic pursuits. his charisma, well learned manners, and intelligence earned him the favour of many professors, and he graduated with high grades and a long list of references. outside of academics he always earned himself a place on the lacrosse and ski teams to make friends, as well as the debate team to make enemies. high school was also when he began to establish a long line of meaningless flings and broken hearts. he craved the attention and had more than enough confidence and charm to get it, but he would bolt before things could become serious. he always wanted more. his pride made it impossible to see anyone as worthy of him, his stubbornness made it so he could never see eye to eye with anyone, and his cynicism made him doubt that love was even possible at all. above all, loneliness had always been the dominant factor in his life, and to abandon that was terrifying. ).
iv. — ‹ ( after a gap year spent flitting around europe without purpose ( during which he came dangerously close to destroying himself as well as his liver ), edward found himself studying commerce at columbia. he instantly took to the city. it felt like for the first time in his life everything around him was alive with opportunity. to him it was a place to prove himself, and more than anything he wanted to be part of the upper crust of new york society. when he sets his mind to something edward is nothing if not determined. his act was cleaned up overnight. while he didn’t abandon his hedonistic ways, he relegated them to part of his life where they couldn’t interfere with his upward trajectory. late nights spent making and losing memories in the city were met with hot coffee and hard work in the mornings. with his revelry all compacted into short bursts it became even more volatile. his penchant for self destruction became a general disregard for his own life, and there wasn’t a stunt edward wouldn’t pull for the admiration of others. yet contrasting this completely his daytime in university was spent buttering up professors, joining the best societies, and working the most prestigious internships. by the end of the four years his life was falling into place, and everything was ready for success. ).
v. — ‹ ( things can never really work out for edward though, it’s practically a fact to him by now. just six months before his graduation his father became the centre of a hefty fraud case. not only did he have to deal with his family money being wiped out and his father receiving a jail sentence, the fallout of the scandal seeped into all elements of his life. his career path was hugely derailed. any family connections he had were wiped clean, and the ones he had built up on his own quickly started to disappear as word got out of what had happened. potential employers only had to do a quick google search of his name to discover the familial connection. it took several years for him to build up his credibility and get his life back on track. although he’s now finding success, the murky waters he started out in are not something he’ll easily forget. as for his father, while it isn’t exactly something he can keep a secret, those who know edward know to never bring the man up around him. it’s rare that he’ll confide in anyone about it, even raphael knows only what he can learn from others. he visits the penitentiary once a year on his father’s birthday, and always makes up a lie for why he’s going out of town. ).
vi.  — ‹ ( most of the time edward feels like he’s just waiting for the other shoe to drop. things are going smoothly career wise, he’s shockingly happy being monogamous with raphael, and he feels secure in his friend group. it all seems too good to be true, or too good to be true for edward at least.  there’s a darkness in edward, and so far as he can tell it always manages to soak up every bit of good in his life. he worries that by letting people close to him they’re just going to get caught in the crossfire. he’s at a precipice in his life and it can go one of two ways. he can either shape up and settle down, creating the life he’s always needed and never thought he can have, or he can continue down the path of self destruction, walking right into the life he always feared but didn’t know how to escape. ).
vii. — ‹ ( he’s always been extremely loyal with those he considers his closest friends and that certainly isn’t changing anytime soon, especially with nico. while from an outside perspective edward may seem like a pushy and inconsiderate friend, the reality is far different. while he lacks commitment romantically with friends when he really, truly believes that someone cares about him he returns that commitment tenfold. still, he finds it hard to believe that someone would stick around with him for so long. as for lucy, he values her and fears her in equal measure. he’s certain that she has the ability to turn everyone against him in one fell swoop if she wanted to, and she wouldn’t exactly be without her reasons. she sees right through him, in fact, he’s pretty sure she knows him better than he knows himself, which is quite terrifying for someone who doesn’t like for their true self to be known at all. at the same time, it makes her an easy person to turn to when things get rough. the sting of sophia’s rejection still burns him more than he liked to admit. he likes to get what he wants, and it was more than a bit shocking for the rug to get pulled out from under him like that. he can’t help but feel like its confirmation that there really is something wrong with him, and he feels a pang of insecurity every time she walks into the room. the good thing to come out of the mess with sophia is raphael. he still can’t believe it’s real, and having the same person to fall asleep to every night is actually helping a lot with his insomnia. once he felt secure with raph ( something he’s never found in a romantic relationship before ) he went all in. but he’s had his bad boy behaviour on pause for a while now and he isn’t sure how much longer he can keep it up. he just expects to fail, he’s sure he’ll slip up and ruin it sometime soon. he uses that certainty in his shortcomings like a crux so that when he does blow things up he can say he saw it coming all along. still, he wishes that raphael would just realize the mess he’s gotten himself into and run for the hills now, because edward is getting more and more attached every day. he’s even starting to see a future with raph, and the hope that stirs in his chest makes him feel a little sick. ).
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