#Class stuff doesn't often bother me because I'm extremely well schooled in classic manners

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Oh don’t misunderstand me I fucking love my job. I have high job satisfaction like...90-95% of the time. I actively enjoy 80-90% of the activities I do in a work sense. For most people that is wild. I have never liked anything so much. I am lucky as hell. I am most definitely not saying I dislike it!

I’m saying, “My sister is very smart, and I have very smart friends, all with really incredible educational bonafides, and I’m, uh, an anime blogger” ahaha.

#It's intimidating #we were at al wedding this summer and I was talking to my wife like #we gotta not swear and shut up because like everyone here went to a posh school babe #better to be imagined the idiot hicks than open our mouths and remove all doubt #Class stuff doesn't often bother me because I'm extremely well schooled in classic manners #I can fake it #but I just can't compete intellectually #I'm funny and quick on my feet and helpful #this isn't me saying I have no redeeming qualities #I'm thoughtful in the original sense: I think about things a lot #but I'm just not classically smart #in the way 'smart' people are #you know? #I can be very inarticulate sometimes #writing is of course much easier #but my stupid little brain is so quick on the draw that I just say whatever comes to mind unless I make an active attempt to shut up #sittign here thinking about this I'm usually the first person to say #education is no sign of intelligence #so I wonder why that doens't apply to me in my head #I think it's just a sign of frustration with myself I don't ahve with other people? maybe? #It is a glaring hypocrisy though isn't it? #I have so much PRACTICAL knowledge #and I like that about myself right up until the moment I'm talking to people with fancy education #then I'm like 'sorry I'm just a dumbfuck' #hm i have to think about this