#He is secretive and contrary and antagonistic both because he fundamentally mistrusts other people

[panvani]

Imagining the world where people realized what a Case Study of Vanitas implies for Vanitas

#logxx #Vanitas' entire deal is wanting to die but wanting to die with his secrets kept and ultimately forgotten #Because he has spent his entire life with people and institutions that wanted to control him #And humiliate him and violate him #He is secretive and contrary and antagonistic both because he fundamentally mistrusts other people #And because actually relating any personal information about himself is just deeply humiliating to him #Because of course it is. Because being abused and particularly the kind of abuse he experienced is deeply humiliating #And Noé who eventually murders Vanitas makes a fucking case study about him #He not only pathologizes Vanitas' existence and frames him as a subject to be scrutinized #He writes down and publishes as much detail of how Vanitas was humiliated as he could #POSTHUMOUSLY #WITHOUT VANITAS' PERMISSION #AND HE STILL DOESN’T KNOW VANITAS' ACTUAL NAMEEEE