#I AM NOT A PSYCHIATRIST OR A THERAPIST BTW. TAKE ALL THIS WITH A GRAIN OF SALT. I JUST HAVE THE SAME WORMS IN MY BRAIN

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Hi!!! I would just like to say how much I loved your Artem and Vyn analysis. This also helped me realize how much I kinned the both of them, lol.

I wonder what would happen if Artem just came clean to Vyn and asked for a mental diagnosis (he probably needs one). We get crying and venting Artem (I would pay for that shii) and Vyn seeing that Artem isn't perfect in a way that doesn't belittle Artem or make Vyn superior. I'd like to see how Vyn would react if Artem did this; would it change their work dynamic, would it change how Vyn saw himself? Tbh I'm not too familiar with Vyn to say this hahaha

This is also a 1/4 request, what would you think it would look like if Artem did ask for a diagnosis? If you vibe with this req I'll let you do anything to it hahaha. I hope you're having a nice day. Stay safe, one of my favorite ToT enthusiasts :)

hello!!! wahh, im glad you enjoyed my vyn and artem analysis :D

this ask is interesting because personally, i dont think artem would go to vyn for mental health services (either a diagnosis, therapy, prescriptions, any of em). this is primarily because of what i mentioned in the analysis itself that like, artem sees vyn as a symbol somebody he wants to be but is failing to achieve.

being vulnerable in the face of that...i dont think artem would do that willingly. if it happened, some kind of outside circumstance would have to push him into that situation.

if that situation does happen, ur right, vyn will not take on the offensive because at his heart, hes a doctor and artem is somebody who is in pain. he will help in any way he can and later wonder if how he holds his own image (the image of perfection and control) had somehow, even tangentially, contributed to artem's distress

if vyn comes to the conclusion that yes, he did somehow contribute to this one way or another, itd be a wake up call for vyn irt how being "perfect" can make people around him look down upon themselves (this was discussed in this response as well irt to how mc feels inadequate sometimes with vyn)

on the flipside, even if theyre friends already and care about each other, i still dont think artem would go to vyn but for a different reason. because once artem cares about somebody, he wants to be seen by them as this almost impossible balance of Super Reliable but also Not Perfect but also Correct In Every Way but also I'm Just Some Guy. there goes artem once again with the contradictions that drive him nuts.

that being said, i actuall wrote a fanfic where artem goes to (non-vyn) therapy!!! it's called "designed to send mixed signals, one image made up of different pixels" and jus click the link to go check it out hehe

in that fic, artem is quite close with all members of the nxx team, vyn included. he cares about all of them so much and he wants to be a good (i.e. correctly functioning) human being for them, and because of that, he wants to seek help outside of the team so they dont see how hes "incorrect" and also so that he can work on becoming better for them.

and as for a diagnosis, this is purely just my own hc + me projecting VERY HARD i dont even try to justify it into my interpretation of artem's character, this is self indulgence = i think artem wing is bipolar with a history of depression and anxiety.

thats is the diagnosis i work on in the above linked fic and my rationale is this:

artem is somebody rooted in logic. i see him valuing cause and effect, rational outcomes, reasonable emotions, analysis and studying something to make it make sense and find the answer. this is a lot of how i am as a person as well, i like to tackle everything from the vantage points of logic because logic is constant

the nature of bipolar disorder (irt how i experience it it) is being in flux

upswings and downswings can happen either because of a cause but it's more often in my experience that it happens for no reason. my psychiatrist explained it to me like "the circumstances are not changing but your brain has difficulty regulating mood aligned with it." this is hell for me. sometimes theres no cause, oftentimes my brain is irrational and unreasonable, and no matter how much i pick it apart, making it "make sense" doesnt solve the problem

because life isnt sposed to work like that in the first place. life isnt a set of problems and solutions and so much of it is chaotic and you cannot live your life as a case study or else you will suffer for it.

so, to me, artem is bipolar cuz 1) itd clash with his unhealthy system of looking at himself and his life for a long time and thus cause him pain but then as he grows he will learn to manage it while also adopting a healthier view of who he is and how he lives. and 2) i get to project onto fictional characters....as a treat :')

uhhh i hope this response answered some of ur questions? i think i may have gone off topic in some parts kjsdfbd

#I AM NOT A PSYCHIATRIST OR A THERAPIST BTW. TAKE ALL THIS WITH A GRAIN OF SALT. I JUST HAVE THE SAME WORMS IN MY BRAIN #asks #iceysghost