#I didn't campaign for four fucking years against Trump for this shit

[house-of-crows]

I’m really, really tired of purity politicking. 

Words cannot EXPRESS the exhaustion I feel when yet another person who has yet to take a single Queer Studies class, crack a damn book, or so much as skim a blog post from an Elder on what really happened during the AIDS Riots/ACT up era. 

Do not come for me about “Accessibility in Academia” until you’ve at least TRIED to use the astounding powers of the Information Superhighway to do more than scroll tumblr and instagram. 

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Things need to change. 

They absolutely do. The US is a mess, civil rights are being lost and won and lost again at astounding rates. The racism problem in this country is astounding, and we’re not the only countries in turmoil. (Looking at YOU, Canada, Australia, China-) 

Classism, Racism, Healthcare, Equality, social justice- there are a thousand and one reasons to be PISSED right now. And I am angry. I have been for YEARS, honestly it’s been literal decades at this point. I was painting signs and doing coffee runs back in fucking 2009/2010 ffs! I was part of the LB1103 protest! 

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And y’know what children? 

I AM EXHAUSTED. I AM ALLOWED TO BE. FUCKING. EXHAUSTED. 

I have lived through multiple foreign terror attacks, I watched 9/11 AS IT HAPPENED, I saw the loss of freedom due to the Patriot Act, I watched the Clinton Trials, Hurricane Katrina, Oil Spills, Multiple foreign wars that should NEVER HAVE HAPPENED, multiple fucking recessions, the housing market crash, the Virginia Tech shootings, Columbine, and who even knows how many trans/bipoc/hate crimes that ended in death.... 

And THEN we managed to elect Barack Obama, and it got a little better but it wasn’t THAT MUCH better.... 

Swine Flu, the largest oil spill in US history, the Haitian earthquakes, Sandy Hook, Edward Snowden revealed mass surveillance by the NSA, Ebola, The Paris Terror Attacks, Ferguson,   we FINALLY got Gay Marriage passed followed IMMEDIATELY by the election of DRUMPF, aaaand... 

The Pulse shooting, Manchester bombing, Hurricanes Harvey, Irma and Maria, The Charlotteville Riots, the Las Vegas shooting, the Parkland shooting, COVID19 which has killed some 1.8 MILLION PEOPLE worldwide, and infected 83 MILLION SO FAR, the George Floyd protests and riots (Hi I live in MN~ That shit was fucking dangerous for all of us, activist or not) Trump REFUSED to concede leading to the JANUARY 6TH FUCKING ATTEMPTED COUP AND INSURRECTION..... and that isn’t even a complete fucking list that’s just what I remember off the top of my fucking head from the past ten godsforsaken years.

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I. AM. EXHAUSTED. 

I. AM. ALLOWED. TO. BE. EXHAUSTED.

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We’re finally turning around in minute ways, and we have a long way to fucking go Gods know, but if we do not celebrate the accomplishments we WILL burn out and we WILL fail to hold the people responsible to account for their actions. I have been watching this fucking shitshow from a front row seat ever since my introduction to just how FUCKED healthcare is in this fucking country when I got my diagnosis back in 2017. 

I am STILL feeling the ramifications of that diagnosis today because NOW I get to deal with all the fun comorbidities that are STILL popping up some four years later~ So I am on the front fucking row of the gods damned pandemic because if I get this shit I will most likely just fucking die. 

To remind you, this is at bare minimum THE FIFTH FUCKING TIME I HAVE CONFRONTED MY OWN RAPIDLY APPROACHING DEMISE SINCE 2010. 

You can get the fuck off my page with your damned “lol white gays be like.” 

#I didn't campaign for four fucking years against Trump for this shit #I sure as hell didn't call Reps and email Senators and Congresspeople for your fucking mouth #And you're just as white as me so take several gods damned seats child #We have been fighting wars and putting out fires since before you were conceived #we are allowed to be tired and gods damned burnt the FUCK OUT #please sit down and shut up I swear to fucking god #unless you have something constructive to add #I do not want to fucking hear it here #I am constantly doing what I can to improve #and I know I have shortcomings #but holy fuck you do not get to call me out for my exhaustion #I am literally chronically ill #it is LITERALLY one of the symptoms #and I am STILL fucking doing the political works #that you fucking internet slacktivists wont #so shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh damn you #politics #local politics #long post #neg