#I just want some rock climbing and urbex bros

[dromaeocore]

Am I an introvert who likes to go out and Do Stuff but Not Talk To Anyone or am I just an extrovert with one of the most severe cases of social anxiety in the goddamn fucking universe

#the mystery will never be solved #[constantly wants to go Out and Explore][stays home because the mental exhaustion from Worrying What People Are Thinking Abt Me is THAT bad #[stays home because half the things I wanna do are dangerous daredevil things that require a group of similar Dumbasses to spot you] #i think some of the best fun I ever had was when I lived with my friend's sibling #and we'd go out at night and take turns speeding down the road riding on the roof of their car #or run around in the middle of thunderstorms #I need a squad of Dumbass Adventure Bros to take me out of my shell and do stupid shit like that with #I've never had luck with anyone I know but most of my friends are/were AFAB or cis gay dudes and all ya'll have too many brain cells #I need to make friends with some dumbass jocks who'll let me tag along on Dumbass Jock Adventures #just do some absolute moron shit #yet the prospect of how people make friends elude me. when I went to rock climbing club a few years ago I wound up shutting down and sittin #in the corner and avoiding everyone and just. completely muting my personality. #Not even allowing myself to be adventurous in the gym because I was too terrified of what people would think of me :'( #I want to do so many things but all these things require like. a bro squad #and I'm an awkward tiny trans guy #...Eh there's a pandemic it's not like any of this is happening any time soon #maybe I'll get a job and meet some people at work #I just want some rock climbing and urbex bros #is that so much to ask? #Wanted: Like 3 - 6 dumbass bro friends who have exactly ZERO brain cells between all of them this is a NO THOUGHTS ALLOWED ZONE