#I think especially because October I was so sick/unwell I couldn’t enjoy it at all

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Companies are already sending early “it’s your birthday!! Buy stuff!!” Emails and it’s filling me with such a strange sense of dread LMAO

#I don’t like my birthday and I have many feelings about turning 26 #I feel a wee bit like a failure and I know that’s just the capitalism talking but it’s talking man lmao #rambling #personal shit #(to be clear it is NOT my birthday yet LMAO I’m just getting promo emails) #I’ve also felt insanely alone on my birthday the past two years #my ex domme and I had a falling out last year and the year before my friends moved without telling me #so all those residual feelings are bubbling up again I think #I think especially because October I was so sick/unwell I couldn’t enjoy it at all #now I’m truly rambling in the tags LMAOOOO #THIS TIME OF THE YEAR SUCKS!!!! LMAOOO THAYS IT!