#I want to stick with Mich and Jack since they click the best but I just wish I was open to this stuff

[pvremichigan]

You ever been in a situation where you love ships but your muse does not and also you’ve been used for just ships and also you don’t want to be ship centric and also you don’t care much for ship centric blogs and also your muse isn’t shippable with people and certainly does not put out anywhere early in the relationship so it could drive people away and also her personality can be very toxic and just not good to be around and also because of how you’ve been treated and your muse was cheated on without planning or plot that you’ve become a jealous shipper and also you’re so protective of your muse that even if a good ship did come along with someone that isn’t your main ship partner you’re worried that it just won’t be perfect for your muse even if it might so you shield them from other ships and also most of your verses are single ship and not available and also the ones that are multi ship you have no muse for and also you fear that people’s goals for a ship is just gonna be smut which is something you just don’t do often if ever with people you don’t know and also you’re tired of seeing ships everywhere being developed so quickly or pushed that you just loath shipping but still love it because you miss when it was fun instead of an anxiety fest and stage setter?

Put-put a finger down if that

#vent #[[out of ammo]];; ooc #this is why I only ship with Jay #I don’t want to have Mich and I be ‘tolerated’ #I just wish it wasn’t this complicated for me but ships mean so much to me #I want to stick with Mich and Jack since they click the best but I just wish I was open to this stuff #same with smut! I’m ace by minor traumas and I wish I didn’t use the block button so religiously on blogs that do that stuff #I’ve blocked so many people I don’t even follow just because all I see in the blog or recommended or interactions with others is smut #not even exploration. just smut. #I wish I could be normal about this stuff. I ENVY those who can be normal about this stuff #I wish seeing that stuff didn’t make me sick or panicky or anything. #and I KNOW why I get panicky and sick which makes it worse #I’m sorry I just had to get this off my chest