#I would take back the smell issue over migraines that have me searching basic math to make sure Im still doing 3x3 correctly

[svnmouth]

I think getting a hysterectomy would either help with my migraine issues or just give me different problems but I wont be able to know until next year minimum and even then I dont know if I can do a second surgery so soon. the way that birth control just utterly and completely fucks you over when youre starting it, when youre on it, and when youre getting off it is so. Idk if its even worth it to change my birth control if Im gonna get a hystrectomy in the vague soonish future even if I feel like absolute dogshit for an entire month for 1/3rd of the year.

#I take it back on whatever post I made recently about hrt. I think its making my migraine issues worse. #I would take back the smell issue over migraines that have me searching basic math to make sure Im still doing 3x3 correctly #in my head. and like. being unable to read more than a paragraph or two at a time. #honestly. Im really mad at myself for being caught off guard by that doctor and telling her I was on testosterone. #because now I have to jump through stupid fucking hoops to get a hysterectomy and shit and who knows what wouldve happened if I was able to #pretend I was cis. Im pissed about it. and OFCCCCCC she says 'yes I will make sure not to mention the trans thing outside of my notes!' #and WHAT does she label the appointment as?????? literally mentioning Im trans in the big ass header that my new primary doctor immediately #saw. like come on girl do your job better than this. #life sucks being disabled when you have to do all this crap. cant just Schedule a Surgery you have to go get approved by insurance and then #make sure someone can bring you and also you have food you can actually eat during recovery and take time off work and worry about money an #then find out insurance did not approve the surgery AT the appt and then you have to wait another 2 months to reschedule the surgery and do #all of the above alllll over again. but like even worse. #bro Im so stressed about money all the time my moms bills keep going up and her bills cost more than my monthly paycheck. its bad out here. #anyway. my nightly tag rant.