#I’m related to a ton of morons who think they’re god’s gift to the world and urinate gold and poop out platinum bars

[whalehouse1]

Hello imposter syndrome my old friend.

#I really really hate the fact that I know I can do certain things but trying to get to them is a drudge #because my brain keeps telling me I can’t do it and I know I can’t but I know it’s wrong #but then I find and old thing I did which shows where I started and how I improved but since I haven’t don’t anything in a while my skills #have degraded to before my better stuff but still not at the novice level and then I see amazing art fro #from others and my brain immediately goes to how talented when I know how much work those ppl had to put into it to get to that level #and then I feel bad for thinking the first thing so my brain goes to the and you think you can even get here when I know I can in my ownway #and I hate it here #I’m related to a ton of morons who think they’re god’s gift to the world and urinate gold and poop out platinum bars #while being some of the stupidest ppl on the planet but no they feel like their owed stuff #meanwhile I’m constantly feeling like a trash goblin who should just be stepped on cause what can I do? nothing #and I know it’s not true but that stupid little voice loves to scream #ah self-esteem it’d be nice to have just an ounce