#I'm a burnt out mentally ill IB student who made that post to cope with escapism

[crabussy]

RRARAAAAAAAAAUUAUUAAGHHHHH

#ITS 12AM AND I HAVE BIG EXAMS TOMORROW #and people are taking my lighthearted post far too seriously and claiming some pretty awful things about my intentions #???????? I'm just some 17 year old who thought housetrucks were interesting #and recognised that they're likely the only kind of accommodation I'd be able to afford once I'm an adult #like YEAH YOUR POINTS ABOUT ROMANI APPROPRIATION ARE VALID and I am willing to listen. I know its frustrating #but also I've looked into the history of housetrucks within nz and the people who first built them? #they just built them out of necessity. not to mimic or romanticise romani suffering. I can't find any mention of romani inspiration #I SPECIFICALLY included photos of NZ HOUSETRUCKS ONLY and not romani wagons or similar because #a lot of new zealanders live poorly and have to resort to that lifestyle. SOME new zealanders live in housetrucks just because they can #but I guarantee you it is a very small amount because they're extremely inefficient and dangerous to live in #the only reason I was posting about them with such excitement is because I'm ecstatic about maybe being able to afford a home before I'm 40 #ranting about this in the tags and not in a reblog because goddd dude I don't want to look like some racist prick or something #to the person who reblogged the housetruck post with the stuff I'm talking about #if you're looking through my blog for whatever reason #I understand what you're saying but man that wasn't my intention at all #I'm a burnt out mentally ill IB student who made that post to cope with escapism #I didn't make it to erase romani lives or your culture I just made it because I need a hope for a liveable future #houses in new zealand usually cost over a million dollars I literally just want to look forward to living somewhere #warning bells in my mind right now please please don't twist my words it's 12am and I'm stressed out of my mind #god I feel awful I need to sleep #sick of being on the internet I am so so careful to be as respectful and careful as I can about topics #only to be accused of using gentrifying dogwhistles to appropriate a marginalised group of people ????? #for sharing photos of new zealand specific housetrucks and calling them 'kiwi culture' #I did not mean 'kiwi culture' as in 'invented by and owned by new zealanders' #I meant it in the same way that fish and chips are 'kiwi culture'. obviously we didn't invent either of those things. they just happen to b #a regular part of aotearoa life. RARHRHGHHH #fuck man I'm too worked up over this I never meant to be shitty or appropriate anything I just like housetrucks #I'm going to be a wreck tomorrow I'm too anxious to sleep #so sorry to anyone who bothered to read all of this #just needed. somewhere to put it