#I'm literally in bed sweating rn i feel like I'm still down south

[romeoandromeo]

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#so bored rn i want to write but i don't want to get up and go to the computer to do so and also I'm shit out of ideas #and also i took a sleep aid so i should actually probably be trying to sleep instead of writing or browsing Tumblr #idk today was just very unfulfilling i guess #i was supposed to see my friend and chill and get high #but he got called into work and so i just went to the bmv instead because I've been putting off getting my new license and i had nothing #better to do so i just got that shit out of the way #i didn't get a chance to buy cigarettes so I've been without nic all day long and it's making me restless #I've been inside literally all day I'm going stir crazy i need some nature #but it was hot today #well hot compared to what it has been it was only 78 today and i come from Florida so i shouldn't be completing #complaining i mean #but like all week it's been in the fifties and I've been loving it i feel like I'm living with this cold weather #I'm literally in bed sweating rn i feel like I'm still down south #i can't continue the YouTube video I'm watching because i think this sleep aid is making things influence my dreams #and i was watching a playthrough of a game that makes me paranoid but I'm sucked in and i just don't feel like being schizophrenic rn #who am i kidding I'm always schizophrenic lol maybe i should get back on meds idk just don't feel like being extra paranoid ig #i have a roach but no one hitter and i found literally a pinch of weed #but how can i smoke it? idk where my bfs pipe is and also my parents bedroom window is open so they would literally smell it #im not trying to get kicked out 🙄 can't leave the house because the garage makes too much noise and idk our front door is weird #also where would I even go?? wtf #idk im literally just so incredibly bored and i want to do anything but sleep i really want to be outside smoking really #anything a blunt a cigarette... idc id even take a damn vape and i literally hate vaping #well i guess i don't megahate it but still #ugh what do i even dooooooooo. i want to be under the influence of somethingggggg but we don't even have any alcohol.... #well... i have a few blue moons in my car which i should probably get that shit out of there they've been under my seat for months #but I don't want beer :/ i need like a buzzball or smth also?? ever since i moved and have had to buy something that i need to show my id i #i keep getting dirty looks from the clerks??? like what'd i do I'm literally just buying a pack of cigarettes.. and you hardcore stare at #my id and then give me the evil eye for what?? I'm of age??? stick up your ass much??? #idfc i started giving them dirty looks right back like i did nothing wrong and you're out to get me for no reason :// #what was i talking about before this???