#Im thinking she probably treats her band self and school self as different ppl similar to early on canon pareo but not in the same way

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Just remembered I hadn't even read any ras story stuff when I first made the band swap au god how clueless I was of the suffering to come dhdmhdkdh

#rat rambles #band posting #band swap au #I was just like hee hee wouldnt it be funny if I made the band with two 14 yr olds afterglow. how would that even work haha #and then instead of heeding the obvious signs of disaster it shoved that question onto itself in the future and Im still dealing with it #anyways as per usual band swap pareo characterisation is still haunting me lol #Im thinking of having her still be a depressed repressed gay 12 yr old at the start but with some light adjustments for having friends #Im thinking she probably treats her band self and school self as different ppl similar to early on canon pareo but not in the same way #Im thinking its more like... a version of her that gets to be more open but that still doesnt know/hasnt come to terms with who she is #as opposed to the open and proud lesbian side and all that #and Im thinking she probably has rly conflicting feelings on her life with the band and the band in general? #like she wants to be open and free along side the rest of them but doesnt think she can and doesnt even know if she wants to #and her character arc is abt slowly letting herself actually work through these aspecs of her identity and acknowledge shes suffering #and the elder 3 trying their damndest to create a space where she can just like. be a kid and all that #idk these are all still ideas in development Im still not sure exactly how Im gonna go abt them all #mainly Im not sure what I want pareo and chu2's dynamic to be like #I still want parechu to be a thing but Im thinking itll probably develop in a different way #I also am thinking itll be more of a second year thing that develops since currently Im not sure if theyd even like eachother as lil kids #again idk though Im still figuring stuff out these guys are a nightmare