#JayMonoto Touhou Adventure

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JayMonoto Touhou Adventure I: Highly Responsible for Deaths

i've been playing Touhou 5: Mystic Square recently on my quest to complete all the touhou games starting with the first one worth playing, Phantasmagoria of Dim. Dream. So far it's been going great, and while Lotus Land Story kicked my ass, it made my first few attempts of Mystic Square very successful, though I did end up having like ten runs die to Yuki and Mai. And now I'm here. Standing at the precipice of Stage 5, I feel I have to say this.

@freshfreshsalad ayo i'ma need you to come get your mans Yumeko she's walling me the fuck out in TH5. i went into her with 3 bombs and 4 lives and she stole every single bomb and every single life. i fought shinki with nothing. help. please come take her home. please. what the fuck do i do to her stream of bullets when she busts out the LASERS? do I kill myself now or immediately?

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JayMonoto Touhou Adventure III: Phantasmagoria of Succ. Run

Check under the readmore for my long writeup about my thoughts.

Succ is short for Successful, by the way.

It took a long time. A lot longer time than it took for Touhou 4. I ended up having to cut my pride and boost the lives up to 6, just so I could keep making progress and getting better at the later fights. I'm not too upset, in the end, though, since as you can see in the video, I still had four lives left over by the end... which means I never needed to turn the life counter up at all.

I spoke about this before, but for the sake of anyone I refer to this post who doesn't know, I will speak about it again.

I hesitate to call myself handicapped openly, but I'm not exactly all there in terms of my physical abilities. Ever since childhood I've suffered from serious dexterity and motor skill issues, on top of my several other disabilitiesーmy reaction time in particular is particularly terrible. I was in special ed in elementary school specifically for my motor skills--to no avail, ultimately. Fighting through this game was hard. Yuki and Mai walled me out more consistently than Yumeko and Shinki. Dealing with the RNG of both of them, at once? Fuck, dude. The amount of ways bad RNG fucked over so many of my runs was just... horrible. It felt like I was never going to complete this game. But even so, I held fast and kept trying. No matter how many times I lost runs to complete failures of execution, no matter how many times I died painfully avoidable deaths, no matter how many bombs were wasted (A LOT OF THEM), I did it.

I did this to prove to myself that I can be good at something--something I was not inherently skilled at. I did this to prove that if I put in the effort, I can get better. And nobody, not even my own damn self, can take that away from me.

My goal was to complete the PC98 touhou games before the end of the year. It is currently Friday, December 29th, 2023, and I have done it.

I will be starting Touhou 6 in January. I haven't set any goals in particular, but it would be nice to complete at least two of the Windows Eras in next year.... Though, a year is a long time. I might be able to do them all. We'll see.

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JayMonoto Touhou Adventure IV: Lazy Lard Story

SO i've been kinda lazy lately. I haven't really been playing a lot of touhou on account of several other things, like P3 Reload, or college, or, like, I dunno. But I have been doing more attempts of TH6 recently. I'll put it under a readmore since this one might be kinda long.

i made her eat garlic and now she is dead

me:

her:

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JayMonoto Touhou Adventure II: Story of Random Numberland

I'll go ahead and put this under a readmore. For those of you who don't care to hear me discuss why being JayMonoto is suffering.

TLDR: I have Yumeko down, Shinki I still need to practice, but now most of my runs are decided by how lucky or unlucky (usually the latter) i get against Yuki and Mai.

Hoo boy god damn what the fuck. It's been ten thousand years.

I'm sitting here typing this at 5:42 AM after having slammed myself against my practice save states for about an hour and a half now, and I feel I can confidently say that I have Yumeko down. My biggest issue with Touhou 5 really and truly seems to be Yuki and Mai. My strategy going into them is always to KO Yuki first, as Mai is just generally way fuckin' easier, and I can actually complete her final attack, unlike Yuki. This has been working out, but even with this, I feel it's important to document my experiences.

I want to first preface this by talking a bit about something I wanted to talk about later, once I had actually completed TH5. I'm... not exactly all there, physically. It's not quite right to call me handicapped, but in terms of physical dexterity, motor skills, hand eye coordination, I have always been... especially lacking. To put it in a word, I was in special ed as a kid just to improve my motor skills, ultimately to no avail. I had to turn in typed papers in high school, because my handwriting is so poor. I can't catch, I can't throw, and my reaction time is atrocious.

This is all to say that doing this--playing these games, has been a struggle. Numerous times I have gotten into a boss, known exactly what to do, and when attempting to carry it out, completely fail on the execution because my hands just can't seem to do what I want them to. The learning process for bosses for me is painfully slow because several deaths happen because of complete failure of execution, and not even because of mistakes. And lord knows, even when I *do* make a mistake, when I get cornered, when I panic, my reaction time is so poor that when I try to bomb, I often times just don't. It's rough. But even so, I'm fuckin' doing it. I'm making it happen. I am doing this to prove to myself that I am capable of getting better, and that even if it takes one thousand times the effort for me to reach basic competence than someone else, that means it is still possible.

So what does this have to do with Yuki and Mai?

Call it johns, call me the 'glass bones and paper skin' guy all you want, but man, I'm just not lucky enough for this. I'm an extremely unlucky guy. It seems like everything that can possibly go wrong with them does. The past hour and a half I spent on practicing Yuki and Mai, and then Yumeko, only 15 minutes was spent on Yumeko before I had her down with 1b0m. The entire rest of the time was just throwing myself at Yuki and Mai, trying desperately to get a run where something didn't go Terribly Wrong. And yeah, most of the time it's something you can bomb out of, right? But now I'm sure you're starting to see where I'm coming from. That reaction time, that hand-eye coordination, combined with my still amateur STG skills, suddenly a lot of those Bad-RNG-enhanced Bros. Moves become a lot less feasible to deal with, or even to bomb.

I setup my PC98 emulator to have save states specifically so I could practice Yumeko and Shinki--because it feels like Yuki and Mai are such an aggressively huge spike for me that I can barely actually reach Yumeko or Shinki sometimes, much less have the chance to learn and improve at them.

At the point I'm at now, I feel relatively confident in my ability to clear the game soon. My goal was to complete the PC98 games by the end of this year, and I have three days left. I don't know if I can do it, but you're not about to see me give up.

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