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mikeellee · 4 months

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I still never understood why izuku couldn't be allowed by the story (shitkoshi) to learn close combat (both punch and kicks. I still hate the shoot style) and become adept in it with and without his quirk. Ochako gets to learn this because she is too reliant on her quirk but so was izuku. They both could've interned together or Gran Torino could've introduced some combat master for izuku. Also this is the kid who wants to become the best and yet doesn't learn to fight properly or doesn't even search for a proper dojo which is ooc of him. I don't know why she is allowed to learn and Excel while he needs to be trialing behind in this.

You know imo, as much as I loathe Aizawa, he did tell izuku not to be a one trick pony and should be prepared in the usj. Izuku should have tried to look for a MMA dojo that also specialized in quirkless combat training after usj. Get well skilled in quirkless combat and then train with his quirk. Having him go in this route would have not broken his underdog storyline. It also would've saved him a lot of grief with his injuries.

Hi @dekiruisthebest

So the doylist reason for all this is bc Hori detest Izu. Way more than Gege with his characters(if you know JJK and see how Yuji suffers...you can understand how he still has better than Izu) and prefers to suck bk's dick.

Why couldn't Izu learn how to fight quirkless? I have some theoried.

1) I think he, naively, thought an intership could help him. UA sure as fuck does nothing but blame him. Aizawa thinks he is lazy...and Izu thinks he is worthless.

2) I think he knows some basic of basic quirkless style fight. But here is the question: why AM doesnt do anything for Izu? "Ah but favoritism is bad" which is so inane. Dude, AM selected Izu to be his heir is on his best interest to use all his money and influence to help Izu. (Instead he flips his thumbs and let Aizawa be Aizawa bc ...hn "he has a teaching license")

No one reached out to Izu.

The small crumbs he gets...Izu is forever grateful. Its really sad.

Bk is praised for breathing and is still ungrateful and angry.

Ok. Ochako.

Now that was a missing moment for them to bond (Izuocha cant work as friends anymore) but never forget her line "you wont fight quirkless"

No. I dont think it was "quirkless discrimantion" but rather "better use your quirk" which many heroes in the story do. Even Aizawa who is a one trick poney...but she is kot concerned about how his bones break bc of the quirk.

Also many agencies saw this and must have passed down the chance.

No hero helps you to train your quirk.

You must figure it out.

Izuku has visible no support.

All for the aesthetic of underdog.

In truth, mha is a stage for assholes

Bk has many interships offerd dispite everything.

Aizawa can expell students and be fine.

Endy is seem as a great redemption arc.

Its all for the assholes Hori loves.

Izu may be quirkless again...by the end of the story.

Bk has tons of quirk awakening. Izu doesnt.

#hori is a bad writer #a really bad one #izuku deserves better #mha critical #ochako critical #i dont think she is a good friend for Izu #bnha critical #all Izu has is pain for no reason

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dearserenesoul · 13 days

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One of the mindset shift i have recently as i grow older which i consider very humbling and simultaneously liberating,

is that i focus more on a person's character/akhlak instead of other good traits. And this character includes cara fikir, cara pandang.

The best part is, that makes me no longer put anyone on a pedestal. I will take people as they are; the good and the bad. If it's good, i won't exaggerate the goodness. If it's bad, i will take note not to do that myself.

Being around intellectual circles, and before that was in religious circles, and after that it grew into religious-intellectual circles,

Ooofff i takleh kira berapa kali i found things people say, think & behave agak rasa tidak selesa pada my moral compass.

The pride. The brag. The arrogance. The judgemental. The lack of humility.

I mean, maybe i pun kena refine lagi. Sebab when something is not right to me coming from other people, i will just silently kat dalam kepala ni reject it or not associate myself to it. Sometimes kalau memang jelas i don't want to associate, memang i terus tak bagi any consideration; which sometimes i wonder if that attitude is right, as in i'm being selective, or it lowkey makes me limit myself. But yeah, patut dah tahu lah mana boundary kita, mana benda yang tak aligned dengan kita & if there is no need, so memang takyah ambil port. So far i subscribe to that attitude lah. And if i were to ambil port, many things i still dont want to do the way some people do.

Suka giler sembang dengan Rai. Kitorang punya cara fikir & moral compass tu sama. Tak lebih, tak kurang. Ethical principles tu agak sama.

I said, i don't care pun orang tu ada good traits macam mana pun. If those traits tak benefit other people, or worse, you even ridicule others sebab dia takde those traits and make it just a good point for yourself, then those traits only good for you. Hence, who you are to other people takde kena-mengena dengan those traits; except your akhlak & good character.

Then she said, yeah, good for your ego je.

Exactly! Suka bila dia address ego tu. Rasa macam, you & me, we can sit together many times 😊

And then, i find that, it's a process untuk kita sampai ke satu tahap yang kita slowly be firm in ourselves. Rai ni sama macam my old self. Acewahhh old gituh. Macam dah grow sangat lah tu kan. Dia pun ada tendency to people please, ada tendency to get affected by people's perception. Dia cerita about her family member tadi. When i listened, in my head i was like, you need to be firm in yourself, Rai. Don't let anyone affect you. Tapi cakap in my head je lah sebab member tengah meluah kan.

But then i realized, walaupun secara general nya kita tahu benda tu, sometimes specific circumstances akan still buat kita affected juga. Like how i can easily get triggered juga when it comes to wrong things in my family. A little thing yang i dont sit right pun, terus "Aku nak kahwin! Aku nak bina keluarga sendiri! Aku nak correct many things!" Lol.

Hm, honestly, i'm not confident kalau hajar & kakzi dah change ke belum some traits in themselves yang make me feel like tak selesa nak be around them. Hence why I don't really rekindle lagi. Ofc sayang je lagi. Ofc rindu. Ofc tak lupa langsung pun semua good traits & good moments.

Tapi aku baru grad from the school of Ramadan kot. Acewah gituhh. From which aku belajar nak reform myself alone. I know i'm still doing my best to maintain myself, to be more & more firm. Aku tak nak affected by benda yang aku nak tinggal kat belakang, no matter how small. And if that small thing tu dekat orang lain, aku akan avoid orang tu. Or kalau tak mampu avoid, i will make sure my boundary game tu makes me feel safe lah.

So far this is what makes me feel safe & comfortable. I hope diorang really doing well & the last Ramadan was really wonderful for them.

#soul journey

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her-catharsis · 11 months

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I bought this book because it reminds me of you., Minke Sastrid.

So I have this one virtual friend. We first hide our indentity.. and over time.. even he never admits who is he. I can guarantee that I managed to identify him.

Macam mana aku nak explain hal aku dengan dia ni. Kisahnya panjang, nak type banyak2 rasa macam malas plk..

Cuma cerita sikit kat sini buat kenangan. Dah jadi virtual friend setahun lebih. Sebab rasanya lepas ni mungkin dah tak contact lagi.

Im sure that yg he has naughty intention at first..By the way he always lead the conversation dengan ayat double meaning berbaur sex. I think he underestimated me as one lonely woman that hunger of the attention from a man.

Yes I admit that I sometimes feel lonely.. but Im not someone that hunger for attention and sex. Alhamdulillah, I still have my morale compass.

Why I still texting him even with the red flag? I love to discuss about books, songs, life, politics, religions and etc.. I can say that he is someone that reads alot. txting him feels like I have someone up to my par. Ok Im not trying to boast here, I read alot!. For someone that read alot, we need someone that read alot too to match and have a meaningful, and satisfying conversation.

I can say that he’s the first man yg have the same thinking style with me. We share the same interest in books, and the same taste in musics. We can chat for hours until late night. Yes, I feel like he’s a breath of fresh air.

He never tells about his personal life. Ya lah org tujuan asal nak nakal2.. without any strings attach kan.. mesti la tak nak reveal his true identity.

I tak kisah pasal tu, I just feel like I dont need to know about his personal life when we’re just virtual friends that enjoy chat with each other. Trust me. I set the boudary clear and very firm about it.

Aku rasa dia fikir aku dah catch feelings dengan dia. Truth is at the earlier stage of texting, while I dont know his true identity I feel like over the rainbow a bit.

Then he made a huge mistake, rasanya dia fikir aku ni perempuan mentah, naif, submissive dan jenis kurang cerdik kot. He revealed his car with a plate number on it..

Checkmate!

With that, I know his true identity, he’s in his 60’s , married with a daughter. I know his profession and where he work.

I was shocked!

Dayum!! Im texting an old man, believe me It took me weeks in confusion and questioning my sanity and processing my thoughts whether I should stop or continue texting him.

Ya my bad sepatutnya dari situ lagi aku stop. Tapi hati masih lagi degil sebab rasa sayang nak lepaskan kawan yang ada capacity untuk discuss apa2 juga topik.

So I continue txting with clear conscious that Im communicate with old man, laki orang. I think as long as i keep the boundary.. It’s okay.

I have no feelings mcm cinta ke rasa mcm nak jadi wife dia ke..Cuma rasa sayang sebagai seorang kawan. Sebab dia without the red flag thing, adalah seorang yang baik, banyak pengalaman, dan punya nasihat yang boleh digunapakai.

Last we texting masa raya lepas. N senyap sampai sekarang.

I miss to have conversation with him.

Tak boleh ke ade platonic friendship between man an woman? Kenapalah nk complicates things.

Minke Sastrid I miss you.

Ok yg baca ni, I welcome your comment on this.

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sleevesareforlosers · 4 years

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zone bracelet hcs

i dont think i talk about bracelets a *lot* in my canon but i think about them a lot SO

- bracelets in the zones get made and traded between crewmates, friends, etc.

- you *can* buy them at market stalls but it’s more common to buy the materials for them and make them yourself. or salvage materials from whatever you can find, boot laces, strips of fabric ripped from old clothes, shells, anything you can turn into a bracelet will be turned into a bracelet

- making bracelets tends to be more of a desertborn/raised thing. city kids get them and wear them for sure but if they weren’t raised with the zones culture it takes a fair amount of time to wrap their heads around the culture behind them

- theres two main kinds of bracelets which sort of have their own meaning but killjoys will put anything onto their wrists honestly. but the two main kinds are BEAD bracelets and KNOT bracelets

- Bead bracelets are slightly more casual. they can just be accessories or a way for a crewmate to say, ‘i punched a hole in this bottlecap and put it on a piece of string because i thought you’d like it’ or ‘hey sorry i was an asshole. i made you a bracelet about it’. the more beads on a bracelet the more serious they are, though.

- when i say bead bracelet think kandi (varying bead types). can be single string or bigger cuffs but they tend to be smaller so theyre easy to stack (killjoys can rack up a lot of bracelets)

- bead bracelets can also have more superstitious/spiritual connotations. if you know any of my cherri cola canon then you know what i mean. bad luck beads are in this category, too.

- bad luck beads specifically dont get... made? you find them in the sands and pick them up and wear them until you give them away. theyre made w a special kind of bead that is impossible to actually find in the zones, but people know better than to question it.

- KNOT bracelets dont get traded. you wear a knot bracelet until it falls off and even then most joys will keep the broken strand and stitch it onto their jacket or tie it to their raygun. they symbolise a HUGE amount of trust and love and commitment

- knot bracelets are like, think knotted friendship bracelets (like from summer camp or w/e), normally with a single bead somewhere in the middle. more expensive to get the materials and can take a lot of time to make depending on how many strands it has/how intricate the knot pattern is.

- string colours are like, the ‘colour’ of the joy making it and the person theyre making it for. bead colours correspond to diff meanings, red for romance, yellow for friendship, blue for family, etc

- this is what i mean when i reference commitment bands, i use that term as a purely romantic one but honestly any kot bracelet can be called a commitment band.

- when knot bracelets break, the broken one is saved (normally) and a new one gets made (like a vow renewal type-thing). it can be a HUGE point of pride for joys to show off how many bracelets they have with the same string colours, and if any bead colours change thats also something they might gush about (friends -> family, for example)

- i made a rough commitment band yesterday ill make a diff post with pictures bc this got LONG

#teehee no one cares about this but I DO #danger days #true lives of the fabulous killjoys #not putting every tag on this im aware this is so specific to my canon

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que-writes · 3 years

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khamis • 23 february

bangun pagi dah terasa takde mood. dengan orang tu selalu tertidur hmm but its okaaaaay lah, so bangun pagi terus mandi siap semua. like seriously, pagi tadi takde mood langsung. and dia tak pergi kelas pagi tadi. tapi rajinnya nak hantar aku ni uhuks sesusah je nak kena datang aswara semata-mata nak hantar si qurratull'amira ni. so ini lah rasanya bila orang terlampau baik kat kita. sangat bersyukur, cause he's mine. jika ditanya kan aku, perkara apa yang paling aku cinta dalam diri dia, aku pilih hati dia. okay so dia hantar aku ke aswara. dah lambat, pukul 11:30 baru masuk kelas. kelas pukul 11. but sib baik lah en. syukor tu sejenis yang tenang. (syukor alhamdulillah) and damn, ngantuknya kelas sejarah muzik tadi. start dari kelas sejarah muzik, aku dah start blur. sebab ngantuk ya amat. so lepas kelas sejarah muzik, kelas vocal basic, and perut pun dah mula bunyi huks huks~ kelas vocal basic untuk harini kena buat solfeggio, rhythm and teka note. I love solfeggio so much haih but rhythm is a no for me tsk. im so bad at rhythm. but dont why im still blur even its my favourite subject!!!??? I means the solfeggio one cause everytime teacher asked "q, what do you think about this note?" I was like "eh sorry, what?" and miss ranko laugh and said "haha q is dreaming" I was like haih what happen to me haaaaa. so after vocal basic class, weh dah terasa lapar dah perut eden ni. eden tokleh nok fokus hang tau tak! nok nyanyi pun tokleh nok focus sebab dok fikir makanan, makanan, makanan, and time tengah nak practice opera, datang lah seseorang jejaka ini, berambut panjang (sebab degil taknak potong rambut nak kena gigit lah tu kot), berbaju putih berserta line pink, biru dan hijau di keliling collarnya, berseluar coklat cerah sedikit seperti warna kulit dan berkasut coklat bertali merah ewah dah boleh buat buku kot ayat aku ni hahaha okay dia datang kepada ku dan menolong untuk printkan assignment aku, ya allah haih terasa bertuah, no im really like feeling so grateful. jarang orang sanggup tolong camni kat kita, sebelum ni semua benda kita buat sendiri ni ada dia ni bahagia rasanya. terima kasih sesangat. and time practice opera tadi, tak berapa bagus sangat cause I cant focus, serious. sebab terrrrrrlampau lapar hm. and then, tanpa ku sedar, diluar hujan. ish bila dapat tahu hujan, terus terfikir pasal seorang jejaka ni. kesian dia baju dia basah, seluar basah. hmmm aku ni rasa bersalah tau. tapi dia boleh cakap "takpe" then senyum alaaaaa alaaaa alaaaaa apa niiiii suka tau buat hati kita berbunga. lepas practice opera tu, nampak dia and then dia teman aku gi photostat. photostat kat library satu kertas rm0.20 hiuhiuhiu sis redha dah time tu. dan semuanya rm11.++ (tak ingat sen sen dia) time tengah susun binding tu, cek sebenarnya tak pandai sebab first time buat sendiri tu sebab lama tu tapi cek suka berdikari tu sebab nak cuba buat sendiri. then tetiba jejaka itu datang dan berkata "lamanya" terkojut eden ni. dia datang tolong terus cepat siap ngahaha sis terkejut sebab sekejap je dah siap lepas dia datang. and time datang koir, syukur alhamdulillah terima kasih kepada tuhan, gua datang tepat pada masa. datang time dah start koir time turn budak vokal nyanyi koir. so ranko buat macam ni, budak vokal kena nyanyi lagu watak diorang dalam le nozze di figaro, aku watak utama, susanna. tapi ramai lagi yang dapat watak susanna so kena nyanyi sikit depan dak choir. gua sebenarnya tak tahu note and lagu tu sangat sebab baru practice and nyanyi lagu tu time kelas vocal basic, so gua miming je huhuhu tanpa ku tahu, rupanya lepas nyanyi dak koir kena vote angkat tangan siapa okay and siapa dapat vote banyak boleh balik means miss ranko lepas kan (ahhhh mati) aku time tu dah nak rasa mati kelaparan dah, takde mood langsung nak nyanyi, suara pun tak keluar sangat sebab takde energy, dengan tak tahu lagu tu sebab dalam kelas vocal basic tadi blur sangaaaaat so one by one yang bagus keluar, sehingga tinggal dua orang iaitu tinggal aku and dhiya. emmm berharap sangat dapat lepas awal tapi tadi cam sedih gak ah sebab orang yang aku tolong

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forever-and-always-yup · 5 years

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PMS thought.

I dont know why people cant even realize that everyone has their own obsession?

"Oh aku takda la suka benda obses cam kau"

Lolz sumpah bullshit gila.

You dont even realize that you are also obsessed in something that people make fun of you.

I was really mad but I just cant get myself to say bad thing at her.

But yknow, just let people live their life.

Can people just aware that they also have their own obsession. Some obsessed with their partner, like 24/7 talks about her/his relationship, some obsessed with makeup, some obsesses with malay gossip or those viral stuff, some obsessed with American tv show likes friends etc and banyakla. And myself, i have many obsessions. It just that I tend to show it openly to others and I guess that's why many people think that I am too obsess with bts 🤷🏻‍♀️ If you know me well, I used to obsess on Naruto, Fairy Tail and Taylor Swift 💆🏻‍♀️

I mean lantak ah aku nak obsess ke nak minat ke apa. Aku bukan nya obses sampai aku abandon study aku or whatever bad things you want to list. I dont even bother people kot. Kalau tak suka tu, just mute or block me. I dont even care.

So please la respect others. Jangan nak main pakai tembak je macam tu.

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atad2sad · 7 years

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IM SO DISFUSTING AND WORRHLESS WHY DO I EVEN DEY fuck I wanna kill myself so bad. Nobody even fucking gives a shit what I feel. All my coworker "friends" think I'm overrracting. Well if I kill myself is it overreacting then fucking bitch????? When I'm dead are you gonna think it's iverrracting???? WHY DONT PEOPLE REALIZE THAG WHAG I FEEL IS ACTUALLY REAL AND THAY IM KOT OVERREACTIN AR ALL god why doesn't somebody give a ducking shit about me.

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hvzardly · 7 years

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The Bro Talk

Not sure how it began.

I think Abang shared his story first kot. About how sissy in law no.1 shared their internal affairs with everyone; and how Abang was almost beaten to death because of it (well.. noone likes an irresponsible husband, they say). Also how Abang ended up marrying Kak Sue, and how beautiful it has been since.

He said, what started as a halal thing that everyone despised, has become a healthy competition by time. Sissy no.1 has improved her prayer game and cooking game gradually; while also kinda accepts it easier. She even helped to sell Sissy no.2’s products, in fact.

But they never met each other. Abang just wont allow it. What is hers is hers, you have no say. What is yours is yours, she has no say. By doing that, there will not be comparisons. No jealousy. Doubts, maybe.. but no envy. As long he is being fair to both, they shall have no complaint. Even his dad in law agrees and kinda impressed with his system. Lol.

Me was like, oh damn.. I know where this is leading. When he shared how our life would be all neat and tidy, once you follow His daily guides rigidly.. once you treat you wife and kids fairly.. and how he tried all his wills in “reducing”, but ended up better by “adding” after asking Him for hundreds of times. Huhuu. Habislah…

Then, me was like; ah fuck it lah. Reminiscing how we used to exchange stories between us when we were younger, especially about relationships, me think me would need this third eye. Not like me gona follow whatever his opinion is, but just for a peace of mind.

So me started by telling him, his story sounds more or less like mine; minus the part where you dont agree to poligamy. Then, me told..

Ahaa.. now me remember how the talk began. We were at the court; so me legit had to tell him everything la kan. About this is not our first court case. About the taklik, first. Which happened after she told Mirul even me warned her not to, with taklik. Then about le black magic that leads to this second court proceeding. Etc etc.

Then, me thought me might as well share about you, while me at it. Me told him, though on the court file said that me doing this to just go single, me would like to tell him the real reason behind this all. Gulp. Kan.

Only then, me got to tell him your name. For the first time. His first response was, hmm.. such a beautiful name. And me did not even say your full name tau. Then me said your full name, and said to him “wait till you see the person; you will know why this is all worth it.” Then, me showed him your IG. He took a few looks, then sighed. Agreeingly.

Then me told him straight about your background. About your Ayah’s adventure from Pattani. About your family, briefly. About you, what you do etc. And about how we did not just know each other; it has been older than my marriage itself.

Me did not spare a tiny bit; me also shared about her. Me told him why me still got married tho not whole heartedly. About our break up, and how Keklin’s preference on her over the Petronas gal affected my judgement; but me never blamed her. About how the families involvement contributed in speeding things up. About us not happening cause of le wedding card. About me managing to survive this 7 years; tho the thought of breaking this wedding keep bugging every now and then.

Yupp2. For the first time ever, me came cleanest. For the first time ever, me shared everything as honest and confident as me ever could. Well, minus le Bangkok thingy. What happens in Bangkok, stays in Bangkok kan. Huhuu.

He took a deep sigh. Then he agreed my story is 70% similar to his. And how both no.1s behaved and managed the issue the same way; the wrong way. They didn’t listen even to the most ridiculous small thing that we told them to or not to do; rating themselves to no good at all of course.

Then me asked him; what does he think. He asked me back, do me really wanna hear his opinion. Me was like gulp.. me knew it! Me knew my theory earlier was right!

Yeah. Kinda. He said, go get done whatever important first. That is, marrying you. If we love each other, go. Legalise it. Make it halal. Follow His plan. Then, everything will fall into places.

The court case, we will still follow. But dont wait for it to get done first, cause it will keep the more important thing getting postponed. If it gets solved early, then good. If it keep getting postponed, so be it. We would have belonged to each other legally anyways, by then. The bond will help kill the existing malfuntioning one. And the commotions between us two will be gone. Puff.

But then me said, you wont agree. You wont want Tetoh’s case to repeat. He fell into silence, and said that is only the first option. The second option, is for me do it outside the court. But that might prolly portray me as the bad guy in this. Our families wont agree. Heck; even Mama might not agree. And then he said, it is us who should take control. Dont worry about Mama too much; as typical a mom as she is, Mama will always side us no matter what.. so her opinion is somewhat irrelevant.

But he told me to do it kindly. Talk to her. Tell her that me gona lafaz; and whats gona happen next. Well, exactly like what we planned la kan; me just need someone to knock me into 5th gear. Like he just did.

Me am well aware of the options. Of course. Yet me purposely told him about you not agreeing to see his judgement on you; which is.. alhamdulillah, good. Cause he himself can see how it wont work, in my case. Not because you not wanting it. It is because ME not wanting it. And also, because she not helping herself by still behaving the same. And what happened next proved it.

It was Babybear who wanted to “feed fish by the lake”; hence le dinner at the Crab Place. So me told Babymom to only leave workshop for the Crab Place at 20; so that we could reach the restaurant more or less at the same time; as we will be late with the movie and picking up Kak Sue and the jams and all.

But she didnt listen; she was already on her way before 19. Ended up her struggling to Maghrib with Babybear along. Which then forced them to wait till almost 21 before we got there. Which led up to Babybear being restless to wait in the car, cause her mom forgot her ipad; rushing for God knows what. Which ultimately of course, ending with Babybear being moody at the eating place and they both had to leave early. Etc etc.

Oh. Earlier that morning, she scold me in front of Abang and Kak Sue for not helping her getting Babybear off her car. Their reaction? Exchange that awkward stare as if saying “er i am not sure if i wanna see a fight happening at the diner”; to which of course me replied with just silence. Malas nak make it bigger. And then later that night, the Crab Place incident pulak happened kan.

Abang, knowing that me would explode, told me to calm down and just ignore her ignorance. What happened had happened, me saying things wont help. We already knew what kind of a person she is, so nothing we do that time may change that. So yah; that managed to keep me calm throughout dinner.

Such a co-incidence, all these happened just right after me told Abang about her behaviour. And he got to witness it one after another; to the extent that he calls her "a mix of his psycho ex gf and sissy no.1". Huhuu. Me kinda felt bad to make him see her that way tho; but yah.. it wasnt who had done anything actually kan.

Magical how He worked kan? And scary too; cause she was supposed to be the victim here. We are the guilty ones. But yah, opting for the bad things will certainly not preserve her innocence; hence the twist of fate here. Me sad too, in a way. She should have listened and not done anything unsupposedly, and just kept her good name intact. Tapi.. yah.

That’s that. Me got one solid supporter on my side. One of the most meaningful too. Yah me know Mama seems to have agreed with me, but she is my Mama. She never been fair anyways to anyone else; her kids are kinda always right. Lol. Plus; me didnt tell her the whole story kan? Cause me dont think me need to. But with Abang, me glad me did. Cause we synch better than the others in the family.

So.. yah. Cant wait to initiate that plan talk next. And also see what the court has on the table for me. Cause Abang will not agree with them if they decided to keep on stalling the divorce; defeating the purpose of preserving Muslims rights in marriage etc and wasting resources that could be used for other more important things too.

Sorry for the long post. And sorry for having told Abang about your family tol. Me did my best to portray them well; and me guess it worked cause Abang just wont stop sharing about other Tok Gurus from Jawi that he knows. Lol.

Okay now me would go back to shleep. Hihi. Sorry for not layaning you tau. Me hoped when you see this entry, you would understand how this post is soo important to be finished.

Mishu, Nour El-Iman aka Si Nama Sedap aka Marka Turki Jawi Yang Elok.

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ab3lle · 7 years

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2016 update! (part three) (last one)

August, 2016

I got an offer from ums. that time i was checking thru sms.

“Tahniah, anda di tawarkan ke Universiti Malaysia Sabah, kos HC13.”

What the hell is hc13 and i was actually expecting something related w food. (yeap science again just for the sake of ibu) eg: food tech, nutritionist, blabla. but it was actually an e-commerce. and never once in my life i heard about e-commerce. i did a lot of research. i asked everyone what is e-commerce. i checked the job oppurtinity. i was reluctant at first. bcs i told my friend, i mmg want to further at sabah but i wont go if got a nonsense course. i was really clueless that time. but my dad really support me. he asked me that it was ok. just go w the flow. thats it. i finally accept the offer. went for the orientation. and was really close to jiji since then.

September, 2016

I fall in love w the beauty of labuan. people at labuan started to address me as bella/belle instead of nab. so whenever i heard someone call me ‘nab’ at labuan, i feel weird. basically, whenever i am at labuan, its alright to call me bella/belle. anw like ji and tia, they still stick to nab instead bella/belle. i also went hiking too for the very first time in my life. at bukit kubong. 148 above the sea. one of the highest places at labuan. (besides umskal building) i also starts to experience celebrating hari raya aidiladha at labuan. at first in the morning after solat sunat hari raya, we went to one of the lecturer’s house which basically she’s also once a umskal student, to have some celebration at her house. we gather w the seniors from second, third and fourth year w from both faculty, (fki and fkal). i started w taekwondo again but mehhhh. it was only lasts for a day. bcs i stopped for a while and i forgot almost everything. so sad. plus my stamina pun out. so i decided to quit. (does it sounds like i’m giving up?)

October, 2016

Ghost house to gain some money for umskal got talent event. went inside to experience it but i was really scared tho i kenal every one yg jadi hantu. theres one day i went wall climbing and i cant go any higher bcs i am too heavy (gotta admit that) and teman ji and tia played futsal at night. a productive day i can say. its also the month i started to feel like i fall for my crush when i randomly record him make a cendol. (sorry, ex-crush) like, out of nowhere. but think back, i think i fall for him earlier when i first met him at klia. used to like him. used. sewa kereta at friday for 2 hours just for the sake of nasi kerabu at kedai ganu w ji and tia lol. and oh, fki family day. i was reluctant to go at first which i didnt sign up my name at first. ended up, someone said to me, “kau tak pergi fki family day, kau siap belle bila aku jumpa kau” and i terus muncul tetiba at the bus stop, that morning. hehhh. also, umskal got talent was held on october. had some problems when kertas undi tak cukup, so kak tyka and i, run naik atas level 3 to print a new one. i freaking run. i think i lost about 2.1kg that night. that was on semi final. its actually good to have some activity to do at night besides sleep. like i usually do. during the final, which was held 2 weeks after, it was good. had some problems too. tired, but satisfied. it was my first event that i joined, and it was good. i started to drive back since i left it about a year+ not driving. yeah i dont have problem in driving except not being able to drive properly, bad in guessing the distance between the car that i drove and the car behind me, took hours to park the car, and the list goes on. at the end of october, went to kk city during the mid sem break. it was my first time reached there. i went w jiji, and her friend, hamir came all the way from johor bahru. the planning was upside down i can say lol. from the hotel, food, transportation, shopping, all messed up. sokay we learnt from experience hahaha.

November, 2016

Took class photo. yeah class photo. i was lazy at first but just bcs my friend, she put such efforts to coax me and join the class photo, so i came all the way from cafe to menara. had mandarin midterm at menara. i thought i’ve done my best, but the results came out makes me feels like mehhhhh. struggling w e-commerce 3k words assignment, which i thought should be handed on 10th November but end up the lecturer said it supposed to be handed on the 10th weeks of lecture. me being me, me and last minutes works are really like a best friend. best friend for ever till jannah. told myself should change to a better me but meh. lets hope i’ll change one day. bought a new sneakers when i lost one pair of my freaking new shoes. tipulah if i said i didnt sad. but mybe not my rezeki kot. big thing happened on november i think was, tamu gadang event. from protocol to urusetia. tired but i really like the experiences. during the graduate run, i was supposedly get ready by 4am, ended up i woke up late and i was there at 4.30am or is it 5am. i really have problem when it comes to wake up early in the morning. big, problem. and i just realize the pokestop at umskal suddenly went missing. i was really sad that time. no kidding. went to palm beach resort after find some things for sispa booth. main buai while enjoying the scenery there. really makes me fall in love w nature, beach, and labuan.

December, 2016

Karkomkal event. since i joined sispa, i will join karkomkal for 3 semesters. bcs sispa is actually badan beruniform and have to take till my third semester. means what? on the next sem, others are enjoying wake up late, and i’ll be rushing on saturday morning for sispa lecture lol. indian cultural night, we (me, ji, and tia) didnt take part in that event bcs we are lazy already. and accidentally wore red, some color w them. what a coincidence. had titas presentation too on december w the most 1 malaysia group ever. 1 chinese, 1 sarawakian, 2 malays, and 2 indians. its good to get the chance to mix w all the races especially when you are out from yr zone. also, our programming group project. took us about 1 night to do it, and about less than 2 days to find and fix error and we did it. and i really thought that ‘class’ wont be came out during final but then, paapppp! 35marks. trust me i didnt revise about ‘class’. anw, we received a compliment from our tutor! goodjob mates xoxo. tak sia sia i skip ugt family day just bcs i had to stick on the screen to find the error on my group project lol. basically last class for every subject. bcs final is approaching that time. and last but not least, my 2016 ended w sispa final exam.

My 2016 update finally comes to the end. the last 5 months in 2016 basically were my first semester of degree journey. remember when i said i badly want to further in IT related? i really grateful when i didnt give up for matrics, my result was just passed, and i didnt get what my parents wants but god put me nicely in what i deserve. hence, e-commerce. tho at first idk a thing about e-commerce, but day by day, i realize it flows in me since i was small. god plans is always great. i might merungut all the time but i know everything happens for reasons and great thing will finally come. you just have to wait and have faith in allah.

And i am really sorry bcs it took me a month to do this update. but believe me, i was actually very sad, when a friend of mine, suddenly was not my friend anymore, those great time i used to have are now tinggal memories, it saddens me. really. every pictures have its own story. and i realize how people change, day by day, month by month, year by year. even myself. and i am happy for everyone, especially my friends. prayers are all goes to them. take care my lovely friends. still friend or not, still contact or have lost contact, thanks for making my life memorable. thanks bcs you used to be there. i wish you to have a better life. and those who are still w you, or w us, treasure them. bcs we dont know till when they will stick to us. till then. :)

P/s: no pictures on this post update bcs even theres no picture in this, its too long already. no. actually bcs i have problem in transferring pictures from my phone to pc. anyio.

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