#Será que alguem vai ter paciência para ler tudo?😞bom eu tenho😎✨

[celibibratty]

Okayy, episode 4, how do I start?, it was 2019 (22/08), the day was very sunny, I remember Marina and I leaving school super excited to get home to watch ep 4, this episode was the first episode we watched together, hmph, the episode already started with the first disappointment, this shitty sean's wolf bros story, my anger had increased by 10% just on that, because as I say in my episode 3 post, sean just talks bullshit in this shit in ep 4, and to make it worse the gameplay we watched the person had done the fucking cassidy route (everyone did😒), urgh, i got furious, sean there saying that "hooked up" with cassidy so proudlyy (you motherfucker, are you not feeling guilty?, you hooking up with this "girl" was literally the reason your brother disappeared💢), wow, I already hated this intro/shitty story, but ep 4 only made me dislike it even more, I think I still have rancid because of it😞,anyway, the episode started well (well shit), this sequence of the hospital, aff, bullshit after bullshit, which thing that PISSED ME OFF!!!, so wasted potential, first, sean doesn't talk shit! (don't talk about daniel shoot, don't worry about daniel, don't feel guilty, don't talk about ep3 mess), in the trailer it gives an idea that sean feels guilty for what he did (which he should💢), but no, he doesn't talk shit, and to make it worse when you do the romances, he fantasizes/thinks about finn and cassidy!! (helloo, it's no time to think about romance💢🔥, your little brother is missing!!! and it's your fault!), I controlled myself, I was a beast inside, but I said to myself "calm down, calm down, it's just the beginning yet, probably at the end it will talk about ep3 mess😤", second, the sketchbook scene, this scene is such a wasted potential, I always imagined/expected a scenario where sean would look at his sketchbook, but I imagined that he would look to remember daniel, remember that now he is not with him anymore, because he fucked up too much💢, but no, he looks at the sketchbook to try to guess where daniel could be (yeah, yeah, daniel would be totally able to go back to one of the places they passed😒, sean are you goofy or something?), I had found this scene ridiculous, my anger thermometer was only increasing, okay, what else, then we have the scene of sean's dream with his father, another scene that made me angry, hmph, sean having a happy dream being that his brother was consider missing until a few months ago💢, we have the dudes scene, the first time I saw this scene I was super tense💦, and look that the gameplay that we watched the person had made the version that nothing happens (sean obeys everything), nowadays I see this version I think it's very okay to watch, even a little dull😅, ha-ha, I remember me and Marina getting a fright with Sean's scream😂, I think it was Marina who got scared the most, she even said something like "gee, don't scary me like that, sean😅", first time i saw sarah-lee i swore she was daniel, i only stopped believing when daniel showed up😅💦, i loved lisbeth at first look (i think she's funny), i just heard "can i have a Hallelujah", boom, I already liked her, but as expected I thought "i think she'll be the villain😈", here comes another disappointing scene...

Their reunion!, i expected more!, i thought it sucks this thing of sarah-lee being in the scene/sarah-lee being the one who found sean, so stupid, everything in this scene (their reunion) is stupid, sarah-lee saying that daniel was missing sean (yeah, yeah, he was missing sean so much that he kicked him out at the first moment he could😒), this thing about sarah-lee and lisbeth being in the scene looking at sean and daniel, their conversation, like, the bros didn't see each other for months, daniel was considered missing, the last time they saw each other was in ep3 mess (and depending on the outcome, daniel gets shot and in the other he says some very melancholy things, he says that sean has changed and that he fucks everything up), to get there their conversation IS THIS!💢,"ah, you've grown up, enano😜, really, do i look older?😜, ah, not as much as your haircut😜", screw you!, seriously!!💢, there wasn't even a "are you okay?, i was so worried, i though i lost you or that something bad happened to you", and to make it worse, I had a huge expectation that one of them would talk about ep3 mess, but no, nothing!, but I controlled myself again "calm down, calm down, it must probably refer in the ending", now we arrived at the first trigger scene, I got surprised with sean "beating" lisbeth inside the church, I don't know, I'm not even super religious, but this scene got me a gut feeling, worse is that before lisbeth was kinda saying that sean was a sinner, bad influence, blah, blah, and then to the next scene sean pushes her to a level that she bleeds!! (not that she didn't deserve it, and i know that in the ending she do the same thing), and I understand where Sean's aggression comes from, but I don't know, when I saw it for the first time I get kinda shocked (seems like Lisbeth got a little scared)

argh, here we go, the final scene (sean's "apologize", looks more like sean's excuses), I kind of almost hate this scene😑 (I just like it a little bit because of sean and daniel's expressions, and sometimes cuz sean looks cute/handsome in it💕, ~and sometimes I like to see him getting beaten), I'm not going to lie, the scene of daniel pushing sean impressed me, I had my mouth open when I saw it (this scene is kind of satisfying😈), continuing, this confrontation scene was the last straw, i-got-pissed, sean doesn't say any shit about ep3, the game makes sean talk a lot of things that has nothing to do with it and tries to blame the heist in every way, as if the heist was the cause of it all, the problem is that sean did shit, that's it!, woah, i was pissed because the game didn't solve FUCKING ANYTHING!!! , i didn't get not even a bit happy/reliefed when daniel come back to sean, that "i'm sorry" of daniel sounds so fake to me (no, it's not because of the acting, it's the way of the scene), i can't, it sounds so fake to me , he seems to have his eyes open and this scene just made me even more pissed off💢🔥, why daniel excessivily apologizes in this episode?💢💨, by this point I was already losing my sanity, I was with such an anger, ugh, now we have lisbeth's yes or no death scene, i think it's funny that the first version we saw, daniel didn't even threaten to kill lisbeth (it was the version he just pushes her), but even with this one version when I saw it I was kinda of terrified…funny, well, but the bomb was when I saw the version that he kills, I got terrified, I remember mentally thinking "WHATA HELL!, the old lady believed he was an angel, but he KILLED HER!, what kinda of angel is this?, h-he is not an angel, but if he's not an angel, what is he then? (a devil in disguise), the other thought, ugh, I feel shame for thinking this at the time, it's a very strange thought for someone who liked sean and daniel, i had thought "daniel killed lisbeth without any remorse, even after all she did for him (i know lisbeth used him and blah , blah💢, but she took care of him to a certain extent) huh, if he managed to kill this old lady even tho she didn't do half the things sean did to him, I don't doubt he manage to kill sean too💢🔥", is a very sinister thought for someone who liked sean and daniel, after that i was done, i was not in myself anymore

then there was the last scene(the scene with the music) which by the way I found fuckin creppy!!(still find a little bit), I was terrified, especially when it's the version that daniel kills (but the two versions are weird to me), looks like daniel is smiling, i found this bizarre, i was so terrified by everything that i didnt care about the hug at the end, i didn't even care, because i found this whole scene fuckin weird, it is literally a horror movie scene, daniel there smiling or enjoying seeing the church burning (with lisbeth's body inside) while sean and the mother are distracted, daniel ignores sean in the whole scene to out of nowhere he hugs him (even that hug from them when I saw it at the time I got scared, because Daniel's face is so serious, it looks like a horror movie scene), random detail, but the afternoon was orange when we finished the ep, the day was very similar to the weather of the ending, with the orange sky, kinda funny, I had become a beast, I feel sorry for marina💦, poor thing, she was trying to be more hopeful (but i'm sure that inside she was as angry as i), my energy was super negative/heavy, i just remember me lying in bed complaining to marina and me saying "WHAT FUCK OF EPISODE WAS THAT?💢🔥", I was super dizzy, my head was hurting a lot, I wanted to sleep, I felt super sick/drained at the end of the day, I was disappointed with this episode, I thought sean and daniel were nasty, episode crazy as fuck, i got embarrassed because i just saw everyone saying that they cried with this episode, that sean and daniel are so precious😭❤, and I someone who also liked sean and daniel i didn't felt any of that, ep4 was an episode that almost made me want to quit this game, i was terrified with sean and daniel, i got stunned with this game for a time, i just got back to normal/got more okay because of an image that marina had drawn of this hug from the ending, I thought the image was cute, so with that I was like "(sigh)maybe it's not that bad💨🌸", and with that I decided to stay enduring this shitty game😊🌸💕

#Uff that was intense💦crazy i wasn't not even angry when i tried to write that #but just for the fact i was absorving this day energy i was starting to get very angry as the same way i was in the day #lis2 discussion #I find myself kinda crazy because ep 4 is the ep that i draw the most but this episode was the episode that destroyed me #Yeah yeah i like the white crazy lady😈😂 #Eu tava louca pra revelar isso😂 #But i know lisbeth is bad/evil #Uau com certeza eu consigo escrever um texto de 1.000 ou mais caracteres #Look at this!! It's huge #Será que alguem vai ter paciência para ler tudo?😞bom eu tenho😎✨ #(Sigh) o texto terminou até meio bunitinho com eu falando que a imagem da marina foi oque me fez querer continuar com esse jogo🌸 #poor ana little did she know that this was just the beginning