#a: our immunocompromised mother b: our 91 yr old grandma

[grodyego]

trying not to get too mad about the limits of my actual human life and the fact that it will in fact end some day and the intersection of that and the weight of the fact that we’re still in the middle of a pandemic in the stage where everybody has full on just Given Up and decided to pretend like we’re not but i gotta say ladies. the rage is kind of starting to win out

#my fucking sister caught covid for like the 4th time except all the other times she wasnt living in the house with #a: our immunocompromised mother b: our 91 yr old grandma #or c: me who works every day with preschool aged kids as young as literally freshly 1 year old #and she caught it guess where !!! going to the club and partying with a fuck ton of people !!!!!!! in the middle of fucking central florida #like this is a pattern of her not caring at all about how her actions affect other people. ive done nothing for THREE YEARS #but go straight to work and come right home. i went to the movies like once bc i had viable proof there would be max 10 ppl in there #and this is a repeating pattern !!!! i was made to think i was the most selfish person alive when i was a teen so ive always #tried to play it so safe. while my sisters get to do whatever the hell they want without a second thought #as to who it will affect. and i mean in high school truly most of it didnt matter but now its too late isnt it !! #so its like. when will it be my turn huh. when do i get to be a stupid asshole and fuck up just ONCE #without it being an immediate reflection of who i am as a person. without it being My Failure #im also just mad at my job who told me to come in still even tho i was directly exposed to covid #just because im asymptomatic. so its like ok instead of missing 2 days and using the rest of the weekend to quarantine #u want me to come in and maybe get the other staff sick so we'll have even more ppl out ? or g0d forbid the Literally Toddlers ? for longer #and what if i do start showing symptoms like halfway thru the day around the kids. what if i told the parents ? would u b mad would u kill m