#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah precanon he xuan is gonna be my doom

[definitelynotarabbit]

Stuck thinking about the period of time when He Xuan didn't have any reason to resent Shi Qingxuan. Before He Xuan knew that Shi Qingxuan was walking around flaunting his divinity. Before He Xuan knew he had revenge to take.

What did He Xuan think of this bubbly young god who glued themself to his side? Were they magnetic? Did He Xuan find himself drawn in? How long had it been since someone had genuinely cared about him? How much did it hurt when he discovered what Shi Qingxuan was responsible for?

Stuck thinking about the way Shi Qingxuan surely would have hung off of He Xuan like a clinging vine and how He Xuan never fully pushed him away. Did He Xuan relax into being one of the few people who genuinely cared about Shi Qingxuan, being someone who didn't want them for their merits? How many times did He Xuan chase someone out of Shi Qingxuan's court because they were trying to take advantage of her? How many of Shi Qingxuan's lower officials simply disappeared when He Xuan withdrew his clones?

#many thoughts #not all of them beefleaf centric #may add more in a reblog later who knows #tgcf #he xuan #shi qingxuan #beefleaf #heaven official's blessing #tian guan ci fu #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah precanon he xuan is gonna be my doom