#academia as an aesthetic is cool but irl it fucking sucks

[depresseddepot]

not me feeling like a failure bc the crackheads from my hs have a 4.0 gpa AND go to a more difficult college

#opened facebook to clear notifs and the FIRST thing i saw was a dude i KNOW was addicted to all kinds of shit posting his grades #w a 3.98 average gpa #listen i know ur worth doesn't equate to your gpa but i forgot just how awful it feels to see people have the same achievements as you #with like 1/10th of the effort #im sure mr. crackhead struggles w some things (like crack) but this isnt abt him anymore #just like. the rich pretty chicks at school getting 4.0s while u dry heave in the bathroom bc u only got a 3 on an ap test #and your mom was already giving u shit for how much it costed #GOD high school was fucking awful #college is too like lets be real #i think i might just take online classes for the rest of the time lol i like it better when i can pretend that like #grades are a result of hard work and not a result of circumstances #it doesn't help that my parents are so removed from the education system that they don't know what anything means #other than the unimportant stuff #like i got a 5 on an ap test once and i was SO proud and they were just like 'just a 5? why not a 6' #and i told them 5 was the highest u could get and they were like 'oh. cool' LIKE THEY WERE IRRITATED I COULDN'T GETBHIGHER THAN A 5 HELLO?? #academia as an aesthetic is cool but irl it fucking sucks #also like having an (almost) 4.0 is my only achievement so i guess i shouldnt be surprised i feel invalidated so easily #once again wishing i was rich

[petal-boi]

Questions for the Blogger!

Tagged by: @kattykoshka thanks btw ♡

Rules: answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you would like to get to know better.

1. Nicknames: Petal! I actually don’t like my irl name so you guys can call me that ♡

2. Gender: male

3. Star sign: aries

4. Height: 5’8

5. Time: 12:23

6. Birthday: april 16th

7. Favorite bands: panic!? Mcr, fob,paramore, queen (even with the new singer adam), uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

8. Favorite solo artists: does panic! Count?

9. Song stuck in my head: it’s almost halloween

10. Last movie I watched: the new transformers whatever its called

11. Last show I watched: voltron

12. When did I create my blog: man idk

13. What do I post/reblog: cute things, funny things, occasional meme, how my life sucks ya know :)

14. Last thing I googled: *insert town i live in* spice…. They used to sell a the flavor of *insert town i live in* and it was really good but we ran out and it’s no longer sold ;-;

15. Do I have any other blogs: yes! Go follow @caperclops-aesthetic (if you seen this i forgot to add the @)

16. Do I get asks: yea on occasion mostly by a certain black bean mug kitty

17. Why I chose my url: its a random name that came out of nowhere that kinda stuck

18. Following: 1176 (i actually tried to unfollow a shit ton but tumblr messed up and didn’t let me after going through them for a good amount of time and i decided “whelp fuck doing that again…”)

19. Followers: 199

20. Average hours of sleep: man anywhere from 3 to 15

21. Lucky number: no idea

22. Instruments: i got a violin but cant play it well yet

23. What am I wearing: erm bedtime sleepy sleep apparel (not much, sorry)

24. Dream job: honestly i’m not sure like i haven’t found anything i’m really into and im scared im gonna fall into a crumby job and life so ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

25. Dream trip: idk like probably japan because i’m not big on really hot places or the ocean (most vacation spots)

26. Favorite food: i’d say like idk probably like something sweet but not actually sweet because i don’t like sweets much (i don’t really get a lot of variety)

27. Nationality: i’m just some uncultured white guy

28. Favorite song right now: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh nothing come to mind but maybe some of the new fob tracks?

29. Last book read:….blame (the manga. but there isn’t really a lot of reading it’s more of a amazing picture experience)

30. Fictional Universe You’d want to join (top three): pokemon! I wanna say like dark souls but also hell no… maybe like boku no hero academia or bleach idk something cool

OK! Tagging: @jellyfishlie, @coffee-cup-cat, @timetravelingdetective, @wonderingwanderingwarrior (this is also a callout for you because i dont think you follow me ;-;), @vampire-ramsay, @quinnlove42, @insertsomewittyusernamehere, @hrai-roo @gayerthanatwodollarbill and im not sure who else but if you see this feel free to say i taged you id love to see more people do this because of me ♡