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#acts all plaintive and innocent while pushing the exact buttons that make me shut down and go cold. and i end up looking
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#i cannot like put in words exactly what it is about my mom that does it for me
#like to an outsider it would sound like a normal slightly rude interaction. and i couldnt tell you which part makes me feel bad
#or why i feel like that. i just. my mind treats her differently than everyone else. i dont clock anyone's position in a room like i do hers
#i am always so Aware. and. ive been grey rocking her now. its the only possible card up my sleeve tbh. no plan b.
#she just...
#acts all plaintive and innocent while pushing the exact buttons that make me shut down and go cold. and i end up looking
#so heartless and cruel in front of someone who does everything for me and receives only hate back. when its just.
#not true..
#i am so fucking tired of feeling like. like someone scooped a part of my chest out. with like an ice cream scoop every time this
#happens
#like so tired and HOLLOW
#and its not the sort of thing i can explain to someone? its not like someone just called me a slur or cheated on me or whatever
#nobody will GET it. like yes you just had a conversation where you were rather rude why is this causing a depressive episode
#and just. by nobody i mean everyone who i know who also knows her and also most people who dont know her wont get it
#yall got no idea
#how much i wanna run away. im fucking desperate okay
#i will literally do anything
#i need a nap every time i talk to her which sucks because ive got nobody else to talk to.
#so there's a lot of sleeping going on here
#so much sleeping
#just a couple months dante. just. ive done years and years of this. i can do a couple months more.
#go to college and then its sayonara you weeaboo shits for everyone here
#honestly i was scared of leaving everything i know behind before
#but i think im realising i dont really have anything worth keeping here.
#i was all like ohh i wont have any family or anyone to fall back on when im in trouble
#and then i realised i dont have that anyway. I'd rather figure my problems out on my own than deal with toxic people on top
#which is a pretty fucking good realisation peopleos
#anyway. hyping myself up to keep from having a breakdown now
#godspeed ME
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