#admittedly strong editing bc teenage!abi had specific headcanons shoehorned in that ya!abi doesn't

[paigemathews]

@forlorn-kumquat replied to your post “Writing a Phoebe/Coop fic and like. Can I mention...”:

Did she like him, or did she just like what he represented in her life: safety, stability, normalcy? Cause I think Phoebe's time with Cole has her so messed up that she would have latched onto any reasonably normal guy who wasn't trying to kill her and her family

Okay, so the context (and sneak peak, I guess) is Phoebe and Coop are discussing how she wasn't willing to be with Coop until she finds out about the future. Phoebe brings up how everytime she pursued the love she wasn't "suppose to," aka Cole and Miles, it goes poorly and her family is hurt in the crossfire. It's not- Okay, well, it wasn't intended to be a very in-depth thing bc it's just a oneshot that's gotten out of control on me again, but I realized that parallel between Phoebe's relationships with Cole and Miles and am kinda liking the idea of third time the charm-ing it, tbh. (I also bring up Dex, bc like I said! This is getting out of control on me again!)

She doesn't really delve deep into that relationship, so it's kinda your mileage may vary on that but here's the lines about it:

" I thought that it was just because it was Cole. But then I fell for someone I wasn’t supposed to be with, Miles, and I thought that I could change his fate. I thought I was supposed to change his fate, and instead I hurt my family again."

Idk, did that make sense? Any input is greatly appreciated!!

#forlorn-kumquat #abi speaks #charmed #i left like right after finishing that paragraph and coming back to it i think it's decent? #but there's also a nonzero chance that ppl reading this will go wait who tf is miles but like #im bringing up dex too and they might have that reaction to him as well #(im ppl on dex. do you know how long it took me to remember that he existed? literal YEARS #i've had a charmed hyperfixation for over a decade! i run a charmed blog! i write so much (unposted) fanfiction! #i was scrolling through phoebehalliwell (sidenote #she is such a fucking good blog i check it like everyday and i love her stuff she was in fact my inspo #if you could not tell by the blatant url rip off im sorry i dont know how to name things) #when i saw someone ask her about dex and she was like he's a loser with no personality from arizona #and i literally went wait who the fuck #WAITAMINUTE #like. not a single thought to be had. like man he was just boring and idk if he was really in any #not even good but like decent episodes yknow? #especially bc i never really vibed with the homeland plot and thats the part of the season he was in but anyways im off topic (as usual)) #the hilarious thing is that this fic is actually like five or six years old now and the intent was just editing it #admittedly strong editing bc teenage!abi had specific headcanons shoehorned in that ya!abi doesn't #shoutout chris being a telepath headcanon we'll never forget you baby #(the focus is on the chris & coop platonic ship and coop/phoebe romantic ship) #the og draft was 2.5 words #the one i am currently editing is almost 4k and im just now getting to the halfway point #the coop/phoebe conversation is substantially longer now #and so is coop being lovesick over phoebe like sir. sir pls shut the fuck up i am running out of things that arent cringey af #i know im the one writing it but im still sitting here like coop baby shut the fuck up PLEASE #i actually really do like this better but i gotta read it over again for proofreading later and im kinda try to add a thousand words #bc me going oh i'll just proofread and clean it up a little is what STARTED this mess #i'm having a great time /gen