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pourcap · 1 year

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thoughts: kr chapter 13 (part 1)

damen is waking up with laurent by his side? ngl i'm surprised. i genuinely thought laurent would dip lol. but obviously i'm really glad he didn't <3

(...) Damen had half thought to find him gone, as he had once before, vanished like the tendrils of a dream. The intimacy of last night might have been too much for either or both of them. ohh so i'm not the only one who's surprised. damen also being overwhelmed by the intimacy?? man, sometimes i forget this is all new to him, too. i love them so much. <3

He lifted his hand to brush Laurent’s cheek, smiling. He was opening his eyes. AAAAAAAAHHHHHH i'm dying here this is so soft

'Damen,’ said Laurent. Damen’s heart moved in his chest, because the way Laurent said his name was quiet, happy, a little shy. Laurent had only ever said it once before, last night. ummm i really don't think i can do this. i haven't touched my book in months and the first few sentences i read are enough to make my heart skip 487 beats at once lol i love these two so muchhhh

THEY'RE ALWAYS GAZING AT EACH OTHER

'You’re very,’ said Laurent, and then, flushing, ‘attractive.' oh ym god. oh my fucking god. i'm so supportive of laurent getting fucked by someone he actually wants to fuck and feels attracted to. i love this so much! and he's blushing again!! so many wins <3

'Really,’ said Damen, in a rich, warm voice. (...) Damen’s smile widened, and he lay back in the sheets and just luxuriated in the idea, feeling ridiculously pleased. damen is suchhhhh a dude

Was it the first time that he had said it? Damen looked at Laurent, who was now lying half on his side, his blond hair a little mussed, eyes full of teasing light. Sweet and simple in the morning, Laurent’s beauty was heart-stopping. i am in love with laurent as well (i love how you can tell how much damen has gradually grown to love him by the way he's been describing laurent)

'Thank you, I know exactly how it would have been. You and Auguste would have been slapping each other on the back and watching tournaments, and I would have been trailing around tugging on your sleeve, trying to get a look in edgewise.' well. this just ripped my heart right out of my chest. thanks.

maaaan i WISH auguste was alive. he and damen could be best friends and laurent would one day, when he's older and damen comes to visit, just be super hot. yes, i'm thinking about this piece of art by @saltroclus

'Yes,’ said Laurent softly, his cheeks reddened slightly. so laurent thinks auguste really would've approved of damen? dude, what a huge compliment coming from laurent??? although ofc he was super young when auguste passed away so he probably doesn't know what auguste really would've thought of damen but i'll happily just go along with laurent's fantasy <3

The kiss happened because they couldn’t help it, and it was so sweet and so right that Damen felt a kind of ache. (...) they are SO in love, wowowowowow.

(...) 'I’m not going to let my uncle hurt you.’ Laurent’s blue gaze was calm and steady, as if he had made a decision and wanted Damen to know it. (...) mhmmm. considering it's capri, things have been going a little too well. i don't know what to think about this. what decision has laurent made? and why won't he just tell damen? why won't damen ask? i really do not like this

There was a knock at the door. ‘Come in,’ said Laurent, turning his head towards the sound. Damen said, ‘Laurent,’ shocked and on full display as the door swung open. Pallas entered. Laurent greeted him with no self-consciousness at all. laurent is so funny, i love him so so so much. i also wouldn't be self-conscious if i was as gorgeous as laurent and had a super attractive boyfriend to make out with

damen is shy?????

he also called it 'making love' but for my own sanity i won't comment on that (AAAAHHHH)

damen's street cred just went up +100 for having theee laurent in his bed. i know lazar is going to have a field day with this info

'What is it?’ Laurent looked at Damen, (...) with the burgeoning delight of discovery, ‘Are you shy?' have i ever mentioned how much i love laurent?? if not: A TON

laurent laughing at damen for being horrified at the idea of being watched having sex <3 (i guess actual orgies don't count, huh, damen?)

'It was nothing. There was a knife fight. I got free, and Guion and I came to an arrangement.’ Damen gazed at him. the gazing again. damen was probably staring at him all heart-eyed, as he should <3

'Well,’ said Laurent, ‘not everyone is as bad at escaping as you are.' ohhh i love that they still provoke each other <3

'When you lost your brother, was there someone to comfort you?’ ‘Yes,’ said Laurent. ‘In a way.’ ‘Then I’m glad,’ said Damen. ‘I’m glad you weren’t alone.' i seriously wish i hadn't read this. ugh. i hate 🤢 the regent 🤢 so much and i haaaate that damen said that (i mean, he doesn't know, so it's not like he meant any harm, but still. ew.)

Laurent pushed himself away, up into a sitting position, and for a moment he sat, without speaking. He pushed his palms into his eye sockets. i teared up. it genuinely hurts to know how much pain he's in and how much shame he probably has bottled up despite the fact none of what happened to him is his fault. fuck the regent, seriously. i want him dead.

ohhh laurent is actually talking to damen about what he's got planned now! at least part of it. i'm pretty sure he's got his own secret agenda when it comes to his uncle, which makes me really nervous :)))

'He had the choice of the poor with no other way to survive, the choice of a child powerless to his elders, the choice of a man when his King gives him an order, which is no choice at all, and yet still more than is afforded to a slave.' i miss nicaise so much. my favorite little shit. i will never forget him stabbing damen with a fork. and it makes me really sad that laurent tried to keep him safe and nicaise hoped he would but didn't really believe it to possible and then he did die in the end and ughhh. everything about this makes me feel sick: nicaise spent his entire childhood being abused, and then was k'lled. i know it's repetitive but seriously, fuck the regent, and fuck nicaise's parents for not protecting their child.

(...) For the first time, he caught a glimmer of what Laurent would be like as a king. He saw him, not as the Regent’s unready nephew, not as Auguste’s younger brother, but as himself, a young man with a collection of talents thrown into leadership too early, and taking it on, because he was given no other choice. I would serve him, he thought, and that itself was like a little revelation. it's still insane to me that damen out of all people is the first person to really take laurent seriously, see his potential, and get to know his heart <3

'You mean that it hurts me more that my son is alive and whole than it would if he were maimed or dead.’ ‘Yes,’ said Laurent. He said it seriously, looking into Damen’s eyes. (...) ugh. ew. ughhhh.

#apparently there is a word limit now for these posts??? idk #anyway i'll post part 2 shortly after this #capri #captive prince #damen of akielos #damianos of akielos #damen #lamen #laurent #laurent of vere

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anja-mittags · 7 years

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How did i not realise you updated the leon/julian fic???? Anyways now that i've read it i'm here to annoy you with more polyamourous hcs because truly the vibe i'm getting from draxler is that he wants in!!! (Julian's and leon's pants lmao) or he truly is an asshole and wants to be the biggest cockblock ever but i wanna believe it's the first option... but anywho i love leon checking up on julian and timo!!!! Timo was the best part of this chapter 😂 also leon honey can you be any more obvious??

Aww thanks. (I’m behind on everything. But im putting my foot down and slowly working through everything i need to write this week. I’m not….good with deadlines…..)

HAH. The draxler angle will be explained maybe.

But jule/leon/julian

I was literally just talking to frauke about this but.

In the alt-universe of my current fic, julian draxler is completely fucked. I mean like wow, way to pick ‘em. Leon is desperately obvious as mentioned about brandt. It’s super clear and Brandt is on board with blowing off steam with Leon because there’s been complicated feelings brewing since the olympics etc and if he has to fend off another “u kno u want it” text from maximilian he will straight up cut someone.

Draxler of course is the one out in limbo then. Because he’s their captain but also not opposed to them finding some sort of happy ending and BRANDT is like is there something wrong, you’re staring a lot. Main difference between julians is brandt is so straight forward. Draxler takes a while and a detour to get to the real bits.

MEANWHILE, leon and brandt are definitely up to no good and enjoying themselves. Guess who rooms with Leon. Julian does not need a soundtrack for this fantasy, except which one is he again?

Sidenote: the strangeness of hearing your name but he’s not referring to you. He doesn’t even know you’re there.

Sidesidenote: Brandt has a captain kink. Leave me alone.

Draxler angsting hard, because france isnt far but he’s supposed to be turning over a new leaf and he doesn’t need to get tangled between an old friend and his new flame and he needs to stop thinking about it.

Sidenote: Emre is So baffled by this triangle.

Maaaan, did I say Brandt had a filthy mouth and totally uses it as a weapon of mass destruction. Draxler overhears at the worst times, again which one was he envious of? And why hasn’t he just bunked with someone else.

(Theyre actually pretty considerate and try to limit their sex time to not inconvenience the captain but draxler sort of rushes through everything including eating–*remember the mustafi video*)

Leon is the one who approaches him this time and says they wouldn’t mind, and they needed to borrow an armband.

They’re dumb boys so clearly feelings get in the way of woooow it is definitely gay in this threeway. And slowly but surely they realize it’s not just a bunch of drama they’re pushing off but the chance to be in a stable relationship with people who understand.

And im dying to sleep so if you want something more concrete less slapdash try me in like six hours! Sorry!!

#hello im back #anons in the askbox #merc headcanons

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