#also wait fhdkfhjshf when i mentioned on the bus earlier to q about it being rest they made a remark like

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me in 8th grade 🤝 me in 11th grade

mm arts related extracurricular is a safe space and a vaguely escapist coping mechanism <33

#realized this cinematic parallel in my life yesterday i think q deathofallsocietalnorms witnessed the revelation in real time #just me rambling again #tomorrow's an event night :]] /vpos #ah yes! my mental rest for the week! (stays after school until 9pm while technically doing work for those last 2 hours) #/g though it's very good for my brain i think and especially with where im at right now it will be. so good #god especially if im on photo i hope im on photo (im part of the tech team that documents my schools events and its very important to me) #people seem to think that being stuck in the school building for 14 hours would be like. bad for me #but god that period of staying after is so good for my brain for so many reasons i could probably make a whole post of that psychoanalysis #also wait fhdkfhjshf when i mentioned on the bus earlier to q about it being rest they made a remark like #huh your emotional regulation is literally just completely cutting yourself off for a little bit huh and i was like yeahWAITSHIT #marting blsckwood........... #literally this is just like my hyperfixation for real [martin tma and his whole deal w the lonely but also him wanting to stay in his #domain bc he actually got to be not attached at the hip to Jon and also him finding comfort in the lonely generally] #(tbf staying after like tmrw is far from solitary but the friend / two friends im with when we do these are just. brain calm to be around)