#and by the end of it i'm so memtally exhausted that i equate the feeling of being tired and struggling with the thing i like

[soldier--poet--queen]

man i really wish i could enjoy things without my ocd making me insane

#rin rambles #rin rants #sorry for the negativity it's just i'm this close 👌 to losing it #wish i could enjoy something without my mind being like 'you're not feeling this emotion the ~right~ way. do it again' #and by the end of it i'm so memtally exhausted that i equate the feeling of being tired and struggling with the thing i like #and then THAT makes me stressed because of course i don't want to feel emotionally threatened by the thing i like #but i don't know how to combat it #wow!! sure do love ocd!!!