#and did i mention i want to go home. oscillating violently btwn loving it here and wanting to be home immediately like

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felt like actual garbage and then i went to bed i’ve woken up and i feel fine. they’re right when they say don’t listen to urself after 9 pm..

#took a shower at 11 went to bed around 12 and i felt SOOOOOOOOO SO SO SOOOO horrid . like incredible levels of miserable #but one of my thoughts i had was like kudos to the person who thought of the word miserable!!! like shoutout !! #like it describes feeling rlly fucking sad and not just that but the combination of feeling sad and feeling really ducking bad abt urself #and it’s one word !!! miserable!!! it even sounds dreary and despondent!!! #i’m kind of obsessed!!! #that is my update. idk how i’m going to survive the next ten days and i want to go home rlly bad and i’m breaking out for the VERY first #time in my life liek PROPER breakout (it’s small at least. there’s that for my first time <- JEVSGRNVDJ) #and did i mention i want to go home. oscillating violently btwn loving it here and wanting to be home immediately like