#and he’s a real emotional guy and I think my lack of WoA even in a casual setting would make him so anxious

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Zach is soo obviously a massive words of affirmation guy, praise kink practically written on his forehead, and I… am the worst WoA person. But he has expressed insecurities about his body and like, he’s hot, I think he’s hot. And I’m thinking of telling him that. In my head it’d go something like, “so I like to practice body neutrality and I like to not engage w the idea that bodies are ‘good’ or ‘bad’ based on aesthetics and whatnot, and so I want to caveat that this is a comment I wouldn’t normally make, but I get the feeling that you’d really appreciate it. Your body is good looking. You’re well proportioned and it looks good”. Because the only way I can choke through a compliment is if I caveat the shit out of it cause , well, idk actually what is wrong w me that that’s the case

#I feel like I’m going to have this whole ‘should I or shouldn’t I’ thing w Zach until I eventually do make a move and we hook up or somethin #but once we do I’m gonna be immediately over it cause we’re not actually compatible and I wouldn’t want a relationship w him #cause. to use my therapists words. I don’t actually respect him. which sounds hella brutal but like… yeah kinda… he snowboards and vapes #but I don’t want to mess with our good climbing group dynamic #and he’s been talking about us doing social things outside of climbing and I’m afraid to drink alcohol with him cause I’m already soberly #soberly so bad at impulse control and I’m already fighting myself to not give into my whims #and he’s a real emotional guy and I think my lack of WoA even in a casual setting would make him so anxious #I just don’t wanna mess w his head/heart and waste his time #he really lights up when he gets any praise or compliment and it is p cute #i got a lot of nothing to say