#and i probably wont rlly feel the impact until coming off placement year next year because then ill actually notice that theyre not there

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#found out last night someone i knew at uni died and its odd. really odd #didnt know them well enough to really feel grief but always intended to hang out with them more #follow each other on spotify & their last listened to artist is one of my favourite bands #i would have liked to have known them better. yeah #really feel for the ppl who were closest to them like im sad but as i said its not like. actual grief #we hear abt other students dying every now and then but its never someone you knew personally or someone whos house you went to #& you meowed at them and they got scared because they said theyre a barking household. and they showed you the dead buzzard in their garden #from which you stole some feathers. and then you went in their fucked up shed that apparently had asbestos #yeah. i just wish id had more opportunities to know them. me and another friend always said we should hang out with them more #man it sucks. which is an understatement rlly but u know #and now its kind of just like. this is a thing that has happened #and i probably wont rlly feel the impact until coming off placement year next year because then ill actually notice that theyre not there #never had anyone in my peer group die before. really fucking weird #really hope theyre at peace now and all. and im glad one of my friends who knew them more i checked in on is doing alright #i mean i say im not grieving but i have cried and am crying but i also cry easily or when i hear people i dont even know have died #but also i do miss them and i wish i could see them again